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Well.. I love being alive.. my life amazes me... people amaze me. I tend to see the good and the great in everyone. I have a family who are beyond words, twin brothers who are my lungs for laughing, a little sister who is my heart, parents who taught me how to really exist in the world, within and without. You could say home is my religion... and no I am not part of a cult. I love challenges. I fall in love. I fall over too. I get goosebumps when I'm moved in the world, and that is often... over music, over gut feelings... I can be moved over the strength of a particular person's smile, over ecstatic happiness, over partings and beginnings and how gorgeous life can be. Over and over. my stomach hurts when I'm around my best friends, they let me let go. I love costumes, courage. I love writing. I love how everyone is different. I believe any problem can be solved in the world through communication, if people just let their hearts open through their mouths. There are no mistakes. No right way or no wrong way, there is just A way. Any way. Your way. my way. All that. An old friend once told me I had an old soul, and that I overflew. I'm not sure what that means but I make it mean something different every day. Or, mean nothing at all if I want that... I have magnificent relationships with the people I find amazing, and they sometimes don't see what I see. I'm not afraid of being hurt, or feeling emotion. Pain and sorrow carve wells in our souls, and it is only through that deeper digging that the stream of joy can enter that space and feed you. There is no such thing as trying - see, you either do or you don't, why don't you 'try' to pick up that mug right there. No that's not picking it up. No that's picking it up. There is also no such thing as fair or unfair. We create lives ourselves - no one else will do it for me. I wouldn't want anyone else to do it for me. I'd miss out. I'd be a passenger. I wouldn't be playing, I'd be watching. And I'd rather work on the set than watch the film, I'd rather create than consume. I can't stop moving, doing, being. I set myself impossibly possible standards and can easily forget what I've already accomplished because I'm constantly looking ahead to my next challenge, the next mountain, the next seed to plant, the next experience to devour. I gravitate towards water. I wish I could fly. Even though I'm sometimes paid to wear clothes, I'd rather not. I'm addicted to nothing other than the pleasure of experiencing my life and what I am able to do with it, my body, my brain. And if you're here just because I'm Gemma's sister, I'm bored of you already.