*BITE ME, LITERALLY*

Every web page seems to have an "About Me" section. It appears that no matter where you turn someone wants to know who you are. So this story, as some would call it, is to satisfy the masses.The person I am is, to say the least, complicated. I try not to pretend to be someone I'm not. I'm the kind of girl who cries. I cry when I'm sad, hurt, angry, and even when I'm happy. The people closest to me could tell you exactly what kind of tears they are at any given moment. I'm a big sap. Love stories are always a plus in my life. Some people say that I'm a "hopeless romantic", but I disagree. I may be a romantic, just not hopeless, but more likely hopeful. Simply stated I hope someday my life will be complete (not motion picture perfect, just real life imperfection). I believe life is messy. We meet people who can inadvertently change us or help us find who we are. My family and dearest friends are the reason I get out of bed everyday. Most of them have hurt me in some way, but forgiveness is the key. Contrary to popular belief everyone has their own flaws that are interpreted differently by onlookers. The general imperfections in life have, more often than not, made me thankful for the good things I possess. My love life has been, at most, a disaster. Although finding the one you'd die for is great, it still hurts. In the past I've made at least half the mistakes in every failed relationship. Yes, I am strong enough to take the blame, even if it was only partially my fault. I am strong enough to be friends with the two people who unintentionally broke my heart. What's a girl to do when the man she's in love with is in love with her best friend? I knew I had to let go, even though it took two years to fully fall out of love with him. I can honestly say I was never angry with them (maybe at their decision, but never at them), because you can't just decide not to love someone. It is a long, hard process to go through. They are, to this day, two of the most influential people in my life. They have become family, some of the people I can't live without. I realize now that my ex is very selfish. It took him throwing a fit, much like his 2-year-old daughter, to ruin the last relationship I was in. As a matter of fact that one would have never lasted anyway, because he was a selfish cheater, too. Somehow there are 6 kinds of men who hit on me or date me. #1. Selfish (It's all about them & what makes them happy) #2. Liars #3. Cheaters #4. Taken #5. Have 12 kids with 12 different women (I may want a baby, but I'm not desperate, and I won't lower my standards) #6. The ones I have no attraction to (Most fall into at least 2 of the categories)The last one sounds shallow, I know, but I am not dishonest. I feel that there has to be at least a little physical attraction for a true romance to flourish. I'm not saying that my dream guy has to be perfect or even close to one of the following, he just has to have something that attracts me. #1. Rob Hoffman (gorgeous, talented dancer, funny & famous) #2. Channing Tatum (also gorgeous, talented, famous, & has a beautiful fiancé) #3. Travis Claussen (the kind of guy who could induce an Instant Orgasm based on looks alone, then he speaks and you're done for, definitely a sweetheart) #4. Glenn O'Dell (also gorgeous, talented in the sense that no matter what mood you're in he can make you laugh, & also has a sweet beautiful girlfriend)Every person I have met has something good going for them; some just know how to work it better than others. I have felt sparks with some "so-so" looking men and nothing with "drop dead gorgeous" men. It's mostly about the total package. Assholes, no matter how physically attractive, are in the end still Assholes.If you've read this far and not fallen asleep, you must be really bored, easily amused, or a saint for tolerating my ramblings. As I've stated before I'm complicated. I don't feel beautiful. I'm overweight. I have lots of medical problems leading to me being somewhat lazy. I'm overly emotional. I tell people that "I hate them" even though I don't really "Hate" many people at all. I love music. I love to sing along with the radio and dance with my little sister (although I'm not any good at either one). I hang out with my 16-year-old sister a lot (she keeps me feeling young). I love photography. Someday I will have the money to get the camera I want and open my own photography studio. Some people think I'm conceited because there are so many pics of myself on my pages. I'm not conceited, just the easiest target. I don't get mad at myself when I take my picture. I love to edit photos. I love children and hope to someday have at least 3 of my own. I want a man to love me at least half as much as I love him (I don't want to be his world, just his favorite part). I'm weird and a little crazy. I love to cook, but I hate it when someone gets in my way (so stay out of my kitchen). I'm sometimes shy when I meet new people (online & in real life). Only the lucky ones get to know the real me. I live to give to others. I will never be a millionaire, because I would donate to worthy causes if I could afford it. I feel that there is always someone less fortunate than me. I have a great family (sometimes a little dysfunctional, but always there when I need them). I'm scared of being alone in the dark (I hear voices). I believe in ghosts. I believe in angels. I believe in soul mates and true love. I do not believe in love at first sight. Lust at first sight is a more likely story. Love takes time to grow. It also takes understanding, forgiveness, patience, and honesty. This is just a little bit of who I am. I am not sorry for being this way. You can do one of two things in life: Be yourself, or unsuccessfully try to be someone you're not.