Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY

About Me

http://www.llothsart.8m.com/images/finished_spider.jpgI'm human, I'm rather annoying, I can be a bitch and I know it, but usually it's in good fun and play...at your expense. :P LOL I'm a mother of 1, a girlfriend to a SEXY BEAST and happy with who I am and how my life is. I'm not saying it's perfect or that I am, believe me it's far from. But at the end of the day, when I look at what I have and how things are, I'm sure I would change very little.
I value my friends though I keep very few, the few who are important and worth more then gold. I still value those that I call friend and aren't that close, so don't think you aren't worth anything. LOL I'm outgoing from what everyone tells me, down to earth, hyper, weird and slightly insane. I like to make things a bit confusing, quick and always fun though my success rate probably isn't the highest, I'm at least trying. I'm a student at the University of Pheonix, Axia College online in which I'm majoring in Psychology. I'm Christian by everyones standards who is NOT Christian, but I doubt most Christians would claim me and I'd rather have it that way as I think they sometimes tend to butcher the true intent of what God meant.
I believe in God, and in Jesus. We have a personal love/hate relationship going on. ;) The difference between myself and any other christian is that I try to take the man made stuff out of it. I try to be the best person I can be, and would hope you do the same but wont blame you for not being better then me. I find christians push people away from God instead of bring them to him by making churches with their noses up and having beliefs that single out people with tattoos, peircings, or who are of a variety of sexual orientations and backgrounds. In the end, they judge when they are the same way by being eating so much they get fat and by critizing because God told us not to judge or be judged by how we do so ourselves. I don't know, I just know God and I are cool and if you aren't on the same level, that's alright. I hope you'll meet him someday too. He's a great guy and I have a feeling he has a REALLY GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR...he made me didn't he?!!!
ANYWAY, anything else you wanna know about me, ask I guess, though I think this pretty much says it all. Pimp My Profile

My Interests

Stuff aka wrestling, the RAMS, weight lifting, swimming, hiking, white water rafting, walking, photography, arts & crafts, my daughter, my pets, Psychology, Marine Biology *hopefully my future job*, reading old and new stuff, music, movies, grocery shopping...hey man, we all have to eat, why not enjoy it!

I'd like to meet:

I want to meet old friends, I might make new friends...as long as they aren't trying to talk to me because they think that hitting on me online is a safe environment. If you think that, you are sorely wrong, it's not safe...I'll hurt you...and usually with intent! I know, it doesn't seem like I'd get that at all from guys, but I do on here, freaken annoying. Anyway, who I'd like to meet? Musicians that I LIKE, not the random idiot who thinks they can do something when they really suck. After that, I really don't intend to meet any of you purposely.

Music:

travis barker remix soulja boy "crank that"
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Add to My Profile | More VideosEverything EXCEPT country or rap...I know the video is rap, I can just appreciate the drummer.everything DOES include folk music, celtic, near every kind of music between 01 AD through 2007 AD, all rock, alternitive and whatever else you can come up with.

Movies:

Most movies except chick flicks...those upon occasion but not often.

Television:

House, Greys Anatomy, Men in Trees, Ugly Betty, 2020, Gargoyles, Roughnecks, Wolfsrain

Books:

R.A. Salvatore Books, LOTR, National Geographic, Greek Mythology, Paradise Lost, Paradise Regained, Milton's Minor Poems...John Milton RULES people, don't you get it? Robert Frost, Grimms Fairy Tales...the old and graphic ones, not the new kiddy tales. Books about animals, children, the earth or outerspace, also books on past cultures. Lots of other stuff.

Heroes:

Catwoman, she counts, right? My daughter for putting up with me as well.

My Blog

blah, life could be worse

Ever wonder how much you can take? How much knowledge of your own demise and suffering...the endless desire for the truth of it all causing a flood into your own mind and system until ...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Tue, 06 Nov 2007 12:07:00 PST

gathering my thoughts

sifting through the thoughts in my head, searching for my desired thoughts, files strewn on the floor, book cases pushing against the doors, it's here in my mind, I'll find it someday, that cingular t...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 05:46:00 PST

Who you are is NEVER defined by you yourself but reflected instead, in those around you.

Who we are is said to be defined by how we act, and what we do with our lives. I wonder if who we are is really how others respond to us making it so that our own true identity isn't really even...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 05:36:00 PST

Fuck the lying, back stabbing friends...friends no more.

I'm tired of it. I'm tired of fakers, forsakers, backstabbers and the general retarded public who wont even defend my ass when I don't do shit wrong. I leave things alone, try not to bring...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Thu, 12 Apr 2007 12:18:00 PST

Bad feeling in my gut...paranoia...perfection...human nature

How is it that I feel like I'm losing time. The closer I get, the more urgent my goal seems. The farther we get in this, the more it just feels like it's going to end abruptly and harshly....
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 04:20:00 PST

alone-lonely-singular-one-without others

Life doesn't make sense to me. it's so complicated. I learned that the people you though could never hurt you are the ones that can and likely will hurt you the most. And I learned a...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Sat, 31 Mar 2007 12:56:00 PST

Spiritual Rain 11/14/2003

Spiritual Rain 11/14/2003 The rain, it's so pretty. It reminds me of back home in Humboldt County. The visuals my mind plays to the music of this rain is waking up in my grandma's house in...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 03:21:00 PST

Pain of the heart.

You are nearly perfect in every why. You are imperfect enough to know it and keep it in mind to make yo...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 01:53:00 PST

TRUSTING...they are all untrust worthy

Sometimes people just really aren't what they seem. You can spend years with them and know exactly who they are while nobody el...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Sat, 06 Jan 2007 11:57:00 PST

Why are people trying to keep Public private?

Okay, I don't get it. Most of you have stuff on here that you want kept away from your family...so why the heck do you put it directly in the public? Anything I have on here, my mom can re...
Posted by Amber aka LadyLloth aka LADY on Sun, 26 Nov 2006 05:12:00 PST