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Hailen

You bring us pain, so I may bring your salvation

About Me

.. I try to go on and do anything I can. I have noticed to hate liars of ANY sort, and that illusions sometimes have to be in order to go on with life. There is a difference between an illusion and a lie. A lie, is something you yourself knows is not true..but you still speak of it. An illusion is a lie that you yourself believe to be true...to be..real, therefore making it true through belief. I have so much in life that I dont know...but yet I do know. I try to percieve this reality as a step into the next. Only living here to understand myself and my surrondings. I am trying to be as strong as I can in order to handle the possiblities of this life, good and bad. And moving along in evolution is definitely the main thing on my mind, I think about it constantly. Hopefully I will be led to where I need to be led..and at that time, I will have enough strength to be there....and survive. Thank you for your interest.

My Interests

Music...all types...except country....music is the essence of life! Spirituality...reaching that higher plain of existance and being the strongest when I reach there.

I'd like to meet:

My Band of the MONTH!!!

In This Moment
Ok seriously these angry females are coming out of nowhere! Now there is something about this band that most of you that have seen MY last show with my last band, this is the band from Hollywood, CA. that the lead singer sang a song with YOURS TRULY!! Now they are signed to Century Media. Sounding like hell opened, in HEAVEN, they are great blend of Orange County metalcore and melodicism. Perfectly bleding different styles like Bleeding Through, with styles of like Evanescence. I know that's kinda impossible, but they pulled it off, check them out! And join them by clicking the picture! Oh yeah and listen to the song people!!!
Also: Amy Lee (evanescence-best female vocalist in rock....and she's the FINEST woman in my book), Jessica Alba (dark angel), Eliza Dushku (bring it on- 2nd finest woman ever!!), Jessica Biels (blade:trinity), Julia Ann (porn star-FINEST PORN STAR EVER!!!) Chasey Lain (porn star) Azlea Antistia (porn star) Steve Vai (solo-the greatest guitarist EVER!!!), James Keenan Maynard (tool-one of the best vocalists everl!!), Victor Wooten (solo-best bassist ever), Les Claypool (primus-2nd best bassist), Wes Borland (Limp Bizkit-most "individual" guitarist), Arron Lewis (staind-Best LYRICIST!!), Mike Mushok (staind- guitarist with best use of chord structres!) Dimebag Darryl....R.I.P. (pantera- I dont even have to say!), Otep (otep-best female screamer), Corey Taylor (slipknot-best male screamer...alive), James Lynn Strait (SNOT!!!- Best screamer PERIOD!!!...dead) and finally .....most important:
Kurt Cobain.....for all my inspirations to become a musician in the first place REST IN PEACE!!! And any people with good direction and sense of logic, I read everyone's words....send me a message if you like.

Music:

Oh yeah a lot here...heh heh heh ill try to keep it short though!! EVANESCENCE!!, Lacuna Coil, All That Remains, Lamb of God, DEFTONES!!!!, STAIND!!!!, A perfect circle (mer de noms NOT thirteenth step...yuck!), STILL REMAINS, Switchpin, Fomofuiab( god i miss you guys!!), Assisted Suicde Assembly, Pantera(r.i.p. DIMEBAG!!), STEVE VAI, Joe Satriani, Queensrhyche(yeah..i said it!!) The Scorpions(yeah I said that too!!), Kittie (old kittie, not new) ILL NINO!!!!, FLAW!!, BUSTA RHYMES!!!, Linkin Park, In Flames, EVERGREY!!, Taproot, Mudvayne, Korn(....I dont know about this anymore...lol), One Side Zero, Pressure 45(where are you guys?!?!), NONPOINT!!!!, Adema, T.A.T.U.( yes I said that...and not because they kiss each other on stage, but that kinda is a plus though...on second though...no its not), Avril Lavigne, John Mayer, The Dave Matthews band, Apathy, Candlebox, Alice in Chains (r.i.p. Layne), Drowning Pool (new not old...no offense Dave r.i.p.) 100 Demons, Diecast, P.O.D. ( I miss Marco, but screw it they still good!) Limp Bizkit (MIDDLE limp bizkit, not new not WAY old), SNOT!!!!(4 EVER LYNN), Slipknot, hatebreed (are they racist??), White zombie(Rob's coo...but...love White) Killswitch Engage, DevilDriver, Coal Chamber, CROSSFADE!!!!!, Chevelle, Vanessa Carlton, Secret Garden(SECRET not SAVAGE....grrr), Enya, Silk the Shocker, Master P, Twizted(no im not a juggalo...but these guys can spit!!), Twista, Toni Braxton, Mariah Carey(i dont know why here..), Dido, SOILWORK!!!, OTEP!!!, Static X, Paul Oakenfold, Dj Sammy, and NIRVANA!!!!!!! etc...etc etc....

Movies:

Hmmm... AHEM: FFVII:ADVENT CHILDREN!!....ANY BATMAN MOVIE!!(there are reasons behind it...lol)The Matrix 1-3, Gladiator, Troy, Shanghai Knights ANY Adam Sandler Movie, Me myself and Irene, NEXT FRIDAY!!!, Cats vs Dogs, The Incredibles, Superman 1-4, The Mummy returns, DragonBall Z Movie 8: the legendary supersaiyan!, Resident Evil 2(only for Jill Valentine...purrr, well and mila of course!!) My bosses daughter(only cause that would probably all happen to me...sad but true)....etc

Television:

SMALLVILLE!!!(Kristen Kruek is a GODDESS!!!!), King of Queens, Seinfeld, Star trek DSN( thats the ONLY one ill watch...maybe tng..sometimes) Any Concert show, Music Videos, and ANIME!!!!

Books:

anything by Beverly Cleary

Heroes:

Real: Kurt Cobain, and James Lynn Strait, for teaching me everything I know....in music....even though I didnt know you all personally!!....and my friends....that have been with me through the times I wouldn't of made it.Fictional: SPAWN....one day...one day...hahahaha

My Blog

The Gauntlet

I am at the last straw..LOL! AGAIN a project fell apart. Ok look musicians seriously...we are known for being FLAKES!!!  Corn, Bran, Rice, FLAKES!!! Damnit!! When you make a commitment stick to i...
Posted by Hailen on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 02:07:00 PST

neitherworlds conclusions, and intrusions

How do I explain this? I dont want to hurt anyone...myself included. This world has so much I can't stand though. How am I to ACCEPT things, and DEAL...COPE. I don't want to. Why isn't justice being s...
Posted by Hailen on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 11:34:00 PST

Imagine

Imagine, looking into the eyes of the person that has costed you everything. Imagine seeing that person, a picture, an image...and seeing that they have touched something that was not theirs. They hau...
Posted by Hailen on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 10:02:00 PST

Inside everything seems real

What if we couldn't tell reality from illusion. A lot of us can't. I have seen too many fall victim over and over to illusion, including myself. What if you can't live with the stupidity? The stupidit...
Posted by Hailen on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 01:15:00 PST

Enlightened by the cold

Yes the shadows fall song...Its just a very good title that explains me recently. This is what's going on, I have a friend that thinks I don't care, a girl that thinks I don't care, a mother that, thi...
Posted by Hailen on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 10:34:00 PST

Our Time

My generation has been forged by the inadequcies before us. We have lost all sense of what love is. This is not me whining, or complaining. This is me just stating an observation. Sex has been change...
Posted by Hailen on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 12:37:00 PST

LIVING*

In a world filled with nothing but despairWhere not every great couple make a perfect pairWith sights of anger, madmess and hateThis place where a baby I would NEVER createThe lying factions how the s...
Posted by Hailen on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 07:33:00 PST

A summary of what's up

Well I have some bad news and some good news. For those of you interested in my musical aspects, and career. Well a while back I told everyone I should have some sort of something on the way. And this...
Posted by Hailen on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 09:04:00 PST

The Great Discussion......

This is about due. You know I have ranted, raved about everything and their moms being wrong. I have gotten emails and such about my blogs being bad or disrespectful(although on MY PERSONAL PAGE..LOL)...
Posted by Hailen on Sun, 15 Oct 2006 03:48:00 PST

Too Far into Forgivness and Selfishness

This world is a rotten shameful place to live, I hate it. I wish that was the only thing I could say about this.There is seriously too much for me personally to handle, on this planet. When you are re...
Posted by Hailen on Mon, 09 Oct 2006 07:35:00 PST