The problem with the pedestal |
Okay. I think I've hit upon it now.I'm AFRAID of someone 'loving' me.It sounds counterintuitive and ridiculous, but it's absolutely true.I'm AFRAID of BEING LOVED. It scares the shit out of me. And I'... Posted by on Tue, 17 Mar 2009 19:10:00 GMT |
broken and quiet |
The radio of my emotions smashed down the stairs, a thundery-plasticy crunch. And now I sit, unwinding, fingerful by fingerful, the 90 minutes of cassette meant to have recorded my entire life; it spo... Posted by on Sat, 24 Jan 2009 18:08:00 GMT |
the sound is music (or not?) |
My question is more general, and certainly not original: At what point does speech cease to be 'speech' and become 'music' instead? At what point does any sound cease to be 'sound' (generically) and c... Posted by on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 18:07:00 GMT |
Salacious greetings, first words, and nothing but trouble. |
In the past week, I have had 3 memories recounted to me which my own mind must have conveniently chosen to erase, if just for my protection. The following are, in fact, entirely true stories. Not even... Posted by on Thu, 25 Sep 2008 03:23:00 GMT |
evolutionary defect |
So this particular word-whore must have evolved in a fashion atypical to most humans... I know, I know: who would be surprised by such an admission from moi? In all my language questioning, in all my ... Posted by on Thu, 18 Sep 2008 05:57:00 GMT |
The Open Circle |
It started as a crack, slowly edging its way further inwardInside, a place forsaken, with no hope for being forgottenPiled high with articles, song lyrics, overdue books..."Tom, get your plane right o... Posted by on Wed, 13 Aug 2008 22:33:00 GMT |
OH MY GOD!!!! |
I am in FUCKING PSYCHOTIC EUPHORIA!!!! My mind has been completely stripped, damaged, raped, and blown away, and ALL with my willing and eager consent.
Dear God--the Dark Knight is nothing short of br... Posted by on Fri, 18 Jul 2008 01:34:00 GMT |
A Dream, realised |
OHHHHH MYYYY GODDDDDDDD!!!! (Sorry, I dont' usually say that, but I think this moment qualifies as a truly valid exception. Besides, Paul Simon is a type of a god. so there.)
Mountains of background i... Posted by on Mon, 05 May 2008 19:10:00 GMT |
On Altered Perceptions, thinking outside the box, and finally accepting instruction |
Anytime I experience anything really emotionally altering, I get phobic and try to talk myself out of it later, like the feeling was imaginary and the sooner I accept that, my life will go back to 'no... Posted by on Sat, 19 Apr 2008 12:50:00 GMT |
Cosmic right to materially exist |
Call it a flaw, call it a misconception, call it unvarnished truth (according to moi)...
I think a lot (waaaayyy too much, say some) about seemingly unimportant things. One of these "beating the dead ... Posted by on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 19:23:00 GMT |