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About Me

Does it really matter what I say, your only going to look at my pictures right?
*Name: Michelle.
*Age: 18.
*Status: Engaged.
*Orientation: I *Occupation: Blanket Thief.
*Location: Kansas///Seattle///Maryland
*Ethnicity: Savage. *Drink: Yes, please..make it strong.
*Smoke: In a past life.
*Religion: I do my own thing.
*Kids: I have enough cats, don't need a kid.
and you thought I was confusing before...heheh...rap,country,rock,pop and even some broadway musicals....HAHAHA.
♥
"I was never one of those girls who could say the right things but what I do know is your kisses are what keep me going and your touch is what I crave every moment of every day...so I will just shut up and say I love you".
I have lived 18 crazy.wonderful.amazing.chaotic. years and seen more than most will see in a lifetime. I have experienced life from the high end, of money and having everything you could ever need or desire right there at your finger tips, all the way down to the other end, with a cold street corner and having nothing more than the clothes on your back. Don't pity me though. If I could go back and do it all again, I.WOULD. I have no regrets and hold no grudges. I have taken everything life has handed me and kept on moving.
I have had the kind of love most people only dream about...only to find out that it was all lies and very elaborately spun web of deception. I gave my heart willingly and watched as it was stopmed on and broken into a thousand little tiny pieces on the ground right before me. So if you come to me with your fairytales of love and the prince on a horse coming to your rescue I just might laugh in your face. That kind of delusion doesn't exist. No, love is what you choose to make it. I will no longer deny my sexuality, or any part of me just to make others happy. You can only get out of a relationship that which you put in it.
At one point or another most of who I am and what I stand for has come under attack. Good! If who I am was just accepted with no questions then I would be worried. If I make you uncomfortable by how I live my life or by what I believe in I have a very simple solution for you...don't.talk.to.me. Then you neither waste my time or yours. Frankly I could care less about your time, but mine is actually quite valuable to me.
I had a sheltered childhood. I was raised in a family that was determined to protect me from the "big.bad.world". Well their plan obviously backfired, as that plan ALWAYS does. *NEWSFLASH* the world is not all rainbows and happy bunnies, no matter how much we would like it to be. There is pain, betrayel, anger, greed and many other emotions that they don't teach you...those you have to learn about all on your own. All my family did is make me wonder more about what was actually out there and I was determined to find out.....drugs.boys.girls.sex.rockandroll. I found out about those and more in the whirlwind that was my adolescence. By the time I crashed back down to earth all that was left of my former bright and shinning future was a trail of destruction and lies that I had left behind me. Like the wake of a hurrican, I had destroyed entirely who I was before leaving only fragments behind me. It was at this point in my life that I turned inwards. Finding music and writting. I became a caccooon sheltering myself this time around. From the pain of this harsh, harsh world. To be honest I hated the world and everyone in it and I was convinced that they felt the same way towards me.
But, now I have emerged. A butterfly with new wings, still slightly fragile, tainted slightly by the pain I brought through to the other side with me. I have my walls built high and not many people will have what it takes to scale them and even fewer will have that spark that I see where I am willing to let down my door and let them freely walk into this world that I live in. But don't take any of this as weakness or anger. I am stronger than I have ever been before and I hold no anger towards the world anymore. I am ready for whatever this insane, crazy world can throw at me. I am ready for the ride.
*my butterfly tattoo*
Domnant Quod Non Intelligunt
"They condem that which they do not understand".
Like the name says, I.am.a.walking.contradiction.
I am an artist. Maybe not in the normal way, but I am an artist with my words.
want to read my "art" go to
www.fictionpress.com/~iamawalkingcontradiction
I don't care about yesterday, its already over. And I really don't give a fuck about tommorowy, hey it never really comes anyway...
I believe that gender should not matter when it comes to love, love is love, and that should be all the matters
I am a feminist and if you don't think so I don't care, I will define what a feminist is for myself thank you very much
I love girls. I always have always will...I can't help it and I wouldn't want to even if I could.

My Interests

::Art Shows::

::Archie Comics::

::ANGELINA JOLIE::

::Boys::

::Braids::

::Belts::

::Bars::

::Bracelets::

::BONDAGE::

::Bubble Baths::

::Bumbershoot::

::Coloring Books::

::Coffee::

::COUNTRY MUSIC::

::Concerts::

::Crowd Surfing::

::DRESSING UP::

::Drag Racing::

::Drag Queens::

::Daddys Girl::

::DANCING::

::Dying My Hair::

::Democrats::

::Elephants::

::EATING OUT::

::Elevators::

::French Fries::

::Frida Kahlo::

::Finger Nails::

::Fishnet Stockings::

::FEMINISTS::

::Freedom of Speech::

::Grandparents::

::Granola Bars::

::GIRLS::

::Happy Meal Toys::

::Hippos::

::HIGH HEELS::

::Hooters::

::Ice Cream::

::INTELLIGENCE::

::Icicles::

::JACK DANIELS::

::Jack-in-the-Box (the toy)::

::Jump Rope::

::Jack and Jill::

::Kites::

::KISSES::

::Krystal::

::Lemonade::

::Lightening::

::Lollipops::

::Lingerie::

::LESBIANS::

::Mosh Pits::

::Making Out::

::McDonalds::

::Make-up::

::NOVELS::

::Nicotine::

::NICK::

::Occult::

::Outrageous::

::Olive Garden::

::PROTESTS::

::Promises::

::Parties::

::Quiet::

::Relationships::

::Reading::

::RED HEADS::

::Rainbows::

::ROE VS. WADE::

::Slurpees::

::Skirts::

::Schmirnoff::

::SEX::

::Tastes::

::Turn-Ons::

::Temper Tantrums::

::TEQUILLA::

::Understanding::

::Underwear::

::Voltaire::

::Voluptuous::

::Vanity::

::WATER SPORTS::

::Wishes::

::Wanting::

::Wal-Mart::

::X-Rays::

::Yoda::

::Yogurt::

::Yoga::

::Zoos::

::Zany::

I'd like to meet:

Anyone who has an open mind.

Anyone who won't judge me on my past. Its done its over. I made some mistakes, deal.

Anyone willing to stand up for what they believe in.

Music:

Everclear, Smashing Pumpkins, Steve Miller Band, Lynnard Skynnard, Queen, ZzTop, Rolling Stones, Grateful Dead, Blind Melon, MXPX, Nirvana, Presidents of the United States of America, Greenday, Ozzy, Black Sabbath, The Doors, Led Zepplin, The Men, The Giraffes, Woody Guthrie, Counting Crows, The Ramones, The Who, Van Morrison, Social Distortion, Mindless Self Indulgence, Guttermouth, As I lay Dying, Bile, Bleeding Through, Nothingface, Mushroomhead, Expiration Date, Murderdolls, Violent Femmes, At The Drive-in, Interpol, Sex Pistols, Third Eye Blind, The Cranberries, Bad Religion, The Dead Kennedys, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Cake, Four Non Blonde, AC/DC, Alice Cooper, Pink Floyd, Iron Maiden, The Casualties, Guns N Roses, Green Jello, Hole, Allanis Morrisette, John Butler Trio, Posies, The Clash, Bon Jovi, Def Leppard, KISS, Aerosmith, Hot House Flowers, Shawn Mullins, Jewel, Mellissa Ethridge, Bonnie Rait, Taakra, Carbonleaf, Tool, NIN, Motley Crew, Janes Addiction, The Offspring, Flogging Molly, Disturbed, Marilyn Manson, Metallica, Pantera, Slayer, Cradle of Filth, System of a Down, Black Label Society, Rob Zombie, Korn, Savage Garden, Sublim, Pearl Jam, Bob Marley, John Couger Melloncamp, Aerosmith, Billy Joel, Aretha Franklin, Frank Senatra, Barry Manilow, Elton John, Barry White, John Lennon, Elivis Presley, Elvis Costello, Santana, Bob Dylan, Jimmy Buffet, Oyster Cult, Kiss, Kitty, Slipknot, Mudvaine, Saliva, Cradle of Filth, A Perfect Circle, Box Car Racer, Vendetta Red, The White Stripes, Rage Against the Machine, Papa Roch, AFI, Seether, Green Day, Audioslave, Rancid, Pennywise, Linkin Park, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Three Days Grace, Stevie Wonder, Bruce Springsteen, Ray Charles, Llye Lovett, The Beattles, The Eagles, Jimmy Hendrix, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Michael Jackson, Kid Rock, Back Street Boys, Avril Lavinge, Hillary Duff, Brittney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Kelly Clarkson, Michelle Branch, Rob Thomas, Vanessa Carlton, Fall Out Boy, Blink 182, Yellowcard, T.A.T.U., Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, Limp Bizkit, Evanescence, HIM, Avenge Sevenfold, P.O.D., The Used, Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, Dashboard Confessionals, School Yard Heros, Odd Girl Out, Rise Against, Atreyu, Billy Talent, The Bravery, Modest Mouse, Breaking Benjamin, Chevelle, Toby Keith, Montgomery Gentry, Nickle Creek, Diereks Bently, Van Zant, Trace Adkins, Brad Paisley, K.T. Osline, Brooks and Dunn, SheDaisy, Rascal Flatts, Jason Aldean, Sugarland, Charlie Robinson, Kenny Chesney, Tim McGraw, Big n Rich, Keith Urban, Garth Brooks, D-12, Eminem, Tupac, Nelly, Pussycat Dolls, Black Eyed Peas, Kanye West, Snoop Dogg, Dr.Dre, Anything Celtic or Tribaland also my Broadway musicals: Cats, Camelot, Sunset Boulevard, Phantom of the Opera, Chicago, Fiddler on the Roof, Guys and Dolls, Raisin in the Sun, Joseph and the Coat of Amazing Technical Colors, basically anything Andrew Lloyd Weberand for composers: Mozart, J.S. Bach, and Jim Brickmen.

Movies:

White Orleander, Frida, Thirteen, Kindom of Heaven, Kingdom of Heaven, Troy, Sin City, Alexander the Great, The Rocky Horror Show, King Arthur, Benny and June, From Hell, Don Juan DeMarco, Ray, Harry Potter, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Mr and Mrs Smith, Beyound Borders, Life as a House, Crazy Beautiful, Pirates of the Caribbean, The Man Who Cried, Edward Scissor Hands, Sleepy Hollow, Ed Wood, Water World, Speak, Original Sin, Gia, Girl Interrupted, Phantom of the Opera, Beattle Juice, Hillary and Jackie, Donnie Darko, Fight Club, American History X, Shankshaw Redemption, Bad Santa, Chicago, Moulin Rouge, Crazy in Lovemy favorite director of all time is Tim Burton and my favorite actors/actresses are: Edward Norton, Tim Robbins, Morgan Freeman, Clint Eastwood, Angelina Jolie, Johnny Depp, Salma Hayek, Antonio Banderez, Renee Zelwigger, Cathrine Zeta Jones, Bruce Willis and Russle Crow.

Television:

L Word. House. Intervention. Law and Order SVU. History Channel.

Books:

Born Blue, Circle of Three Series, Sweep Series, Daughters of the Moon Series, Anthem, Memories of a Geisha, Define "Normal", Hard Love, The Heart of a Women, The Power of One, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Catcher in the Rye, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, The Key Triology, Where the Heart is, The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon, Carrie, I know Why the Caged Bird Sings, Pet Semmetary, Wouldn't take Nothin' for my Journey Now, Fahrenheit 451, The Other Boleyn Girl, Wideacre, A Lesson Before Dying, Speak, Monster, Angela's Ashes, Schindler's List, In Cold Blood, Cold Mountain, Reviving Ophelia, On Writting, The Girl Who Owned a City, If I Should Die Before I Wake, Witch Child, Black Elk Speaks, The Poisonwood Bible...basically anything about magik, Queen Elizabeth, Ann Boleyn, Mythology, King Arthur, Angst, Medival Times, Psychology, Cultures, Religion.... Authors: Rhold Dahl, Maya Angelou, A.A. Miline, J.K. Rowling, J.R.R. Tolkien, Shel Silverstein, Nora Roberts, Ann Rule, Stephen King, Phillippa Gregory, Frank McCourt, Truman Capote, Han Nolan, Celia Rees, Dr.Seuss, John Steinbeck, Emily Dickenson, Edgar Allen Poe, Robert Frost, T.S. Elliot, William Shakespeare, Langston Hughes, John Milton, William Blake, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Walt Whitman and Fyodor Dostoevsky..

Heroes:

alright...so I have a bit of an obsession...deal.

My Blog

Let's Try Something New Shall We?

Running away usually not good...but this time it is good =). I ran away with permission for a change and I even have clean clothes and a shower, lol. Sooo me and Erika ran away for the weekend t...
Posted by Walking Contradiction on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 06:25:00 PST

Tired, in every sense of the word.

Sitting here in a motel room...thinking, thinking, thinking...always fucking thinking. Sometimes I wish I could just shut my brain off. It never gives me a moment rest and it shows. ...
Posted by Walking Contradiction on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 05:37:00 PST

hum dee dum de dah.

-le sigh- I haven't written a blog in a looong time, why? cause I really haven't had much to say...good or bad. Don't get me wrong life has had its ups and downs....but for the most part l...
Posted by Walking Contradiction on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 01:47:00 PST

to hell and back again.

These are my words. I offer no explanation, put forth no apology. You have you way of expressing yourself, I have mine. If you think these are about you, your are proboably wrong.&nb...
Posted by Walking Contradiction on Fri, 08 Sep 2006 10:57:00 PST

You say we have equality?? Obviously you must not have a job....

I have before me a text book on economics published 2003, dont ask I have yet to turn in my school books hahah of course I havent. Anyways I remember being in class and reading one thing that re...
Posted by Walking Contradiction on Tue, 14 Mar 2006 09:58:00 PST