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Stephanie

I am here for Dating, Serious Relationships, Friends and Networking

About Me

I'm finding this whole post-graduate adult thing to be a freaking trip. What I actually want to say is a "F*CKING" trip, but I guess I really can't do that anymore now that I have to make a positive effect on kids' lives, work, be responsible, and all that good shit. What the hell...Since my last update...I've realized that it is pretty much impossible to drop the word FUCK from my vocabulary. It is just too central to my personality. It's actually much easier to develop an alter ego and be completely bipolar - there's the warm, caring Stephanie who is insightful, validates people's emotions, speaks soothingly and is a positive and therapeutic influence on the lives of the people she works with. Then there's me...who for 23 hours of the day thinks that everyone in the world is a stupid fuck, or a complete jack ass and doesn't really give a flying fuck about people's goddamn emotions - whose basic premise is that they need to keep their shit on wrap and stay the fuck away from me.I'll probably end up completely changing this shit again in the next week or so...because I'm still trying to be up on "gettin my grown woman on." Which basically means I haven't quite figured out what state of mind I'm feeling like being in at this point in my life....8/27/07 - So, of course, I went back and edited out some of the more vulgar language I chose to use earlier...really, I'm up on the whole mature adult, positive influence role model thing at the moment and you know, that language is kind of inappropriate.

My Interests

I think I'm getting past that "I'm going to be a bum because I CAN" stage. Although my alltime favorite interests will always be Sleeping and Eating - especially for a prolonged period of time in which I stuff myself till I LITERALLY cannot move (unlike the skinny ass posers who CLAIM they can eat and like to talk all big but can't lay it down) I actually found that given a copious amount of free time...I have a lot of interests, which I will list regardless of how lame people think I am: writing shit on my Myspace for no apparent reason (which is odd b/c I generally don't like talking about myself), reading, bowling snowboarding, shopping, beating on little kids,dancing, any type of "making shit" which includes sewing, knitting, painting that type of shit, being cynical and sarcastic, watching MMA, the Warriors and the A's,umm...gambling, psychoanalyzing people (everyone does it...don't lie) using big words to sound intelligent, ghetto arguing with people for the sake of arguing(which is hard to explain and characterize, but I think most people will understand) and my all time favorite...playing "wouldn't it be fun if we dropped (INSERT NAME HERE) off in North Richmond" which, just to clarify, does not mean I'm trying to come off like I'm hard or some shit like that...it just really is amusing/and is characteristic of my cynical personality.

Music:

Maybe if I list Bay Area/Hyphy music right here people will think I'm hard/cool - than again they might think I'm a complete middle-class poser who's never been anywhere near an urban area that even minutely resembles a "hood" or a "ghetto" but despite my insecurities about being said middle-class poser, I really don't give a shit what people think. By the way, I actually do listen to Hyphy music (In addition to just about everything except country) but as evident through my uncool use of the terminology "Hyphy music" I obviously know nothing about the urban culture from which this music stems.

Movies:

300, Letters from Iwo Jima, Gridiron Gang, The Departed, The Last Samurai, Gladiator, Love & Basketball, Crazy/Beautiful, Save the Last Dance, Closer.. and a lot more I just can't remember them all

Television:

I love TV...but not as much as Annie Shiraishi

Books:

BOOKS!! I LOVE BOOKS! yes I know I'm a dork, and probably the only person that actually reads...and I am going to fucking share all my favorites because understanding my taste in literature is critical to understanding me. I actually usually list them when I blog but some of my favorite lesser-known authors are - Jonathan Kozol, Milton Murayama, Nora Okja Keller, Alan Brennert, Kiana Davenport, Don Lee, Leon Uris, Bharati Mukherjee, Jamaica Kincaid, Yukio Mishima, Julie Otsuka, Ruth Ozeki, Todd Shimoda, Lois-Ann Yamanaka and Geling Yan - so there they are, read them and fuck you very much (A nice phrase I picked up off Sharon) if you've got something smart to say about my shit

Heroes:

Anyone who works to make people's lives better. Which is fucking sappy and all that good shit - but honestly, human beings are really fucking self-absorbed and unthankful - so anyone who tries to help people for a prolonged period of time deserves to be appreciated and looked up to.

My Blog

SKI TRIP

If anyone is up for a ski trip to South Lake Tahoe around December 20-23 let me know! Here's the plan so far...a cabin for around $50 or less/night (The more people we get the cheaper it is)a couple d...
Posted by Stephanie on Fri, 14 Sep 2007 12:04:00 PST

SLEEP

It's freaking 3 AM in the morning and I can't sleep. Most likely because I spent the past weekend sleeping till 1 in the afternoon so I would be "mentally prepared" (a euphemism for damn lazy) for wor...
Posted by Stephanie on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 02:52:00 PST

interesting moments

my job so far has been...interesting...although not nearly so bad as they made it seem in training which nearly caused me to have a nervous breakdown. Although most days are cool, and generally entail...
Posted by Stephanie on Mon, 30 Jul 2007 12:18:00 PST

I learned more today than in my 5 years in college

My first day of job training was freaking INTENSE. A big part of it was my state of mind at the moment...graduating from college is kind of like a traumatic experience that I'm just beginning to adjus...
Posted by Stephanie on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 11:24:00 PST

my ghost story

Ok, so I realize that everyone is going to think I'm completely insane or irrational, but I swear that this actually happened, and having never REALLY believed in earth-bound ghosts or spirits before,...
Posted by Stephanie on Tue, 20 Mar 2007 04:35:00 PST

YAY!

This post is dorky but it's 1 in the morning and I'm in an awesome mood...I am so fucking relieved, it was my last day of class yesterday! This quarter was tough, I was on the verge of losing my freak...
Posted by Stephanie on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 01:24:00 PST

Stupid shit I've heard this quarter

Here's some stupid shit I've heard this quarter that I'm posting because I'm extremely irritated and fed up with being at school today. I fear that if I don't vent somehow I'm going to do something ho...
Posted by Stephanie on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 04:26:00 PST

completely apathetic

This is what happens to your motivation levels in your fifth year of college...Gotta do this assignment, It's due tommorow morning&FUCK ITIt's worth 5% of my grade&FUCK ITI didn't do all that fucking ...
Posted by Stephanie on Wed, 28 Feb 2007 12:06:00 PST

AWESOME SF Chronicle article about the kids I intern with!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 (SF Chronicle)A SHARED GOAL/Divided by class, soccer rivals united by love of the gameDavid White, Chronicle Staff WriterRichmond High's boys soccer team spends winters pl...
Posted by Stephanie on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 09:54:00 PST

shameless plug to earn me money

Really excited because I just made my first investment in Sake One stock! Their sake is some of the best made in the U.S. and if more people get to know about it and it becomes more popular I'm gonna ...
Posted by Stephanie on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 10:11:00 PST