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About Me


Who I Am:
"The unreal is more powerful than the real ,
because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it;
because it's only intangible ideas, concepts,
beliefs, and fantasies that last.
Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die.
But things as fragile as a thought, a dream,
a legend...
they can go on and on. " - Chuck Palahniuk
You probably know me as Nikki.
I've been around 17 years, in Tennessee for 4.
I'm a blue-eyed bombshell;
And I'm here to change your life.
I am taken by the best guy in the world,
Mr. Hassell Daniel Sykes.
I am so glad I have found a guy who actually wants me,
and isn't just saying that 'cause he has no one else...
Except his cell mate, of course.
See, he likes me for ME.
Not because he just knows he can get some.
So put that in your pipe and SMOKE IT, BITCH.
As the days grow long I see,
That time is standing still for me,
When you're not here...
I love giving people advice.
If I can help someone lift the crashing weight on their shoulders,
It's well worth the effort.
Life is harder for some than others.
I don't know where I'm going in life.
There are a few things I'd like to be.
But there's plenty of time for that later.
Someday I'll find my place in the world.
In the meantime, I'm just living.
So just take a fall...
The spotlight is on.
'Cause you know I change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me...
But I'm sick of trying so hard.
Waste all your time with me, I know I'm a mess right now.
Don't give up, believe I'd wait it out for you.
The Honest Truth:
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman

My Interests

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My Blog

Battling the Inner Demon

I can't comprehend my emotions right now. My mind has closed in on this amazingly formidable turmoil. I haven't written emotions down quite so vividly in so long, it seems like I don't know how anymor...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Dec 2008 04:38:00 GMT

Never look back, never let go.

I'll admit it.I've made my mistakes.We've all made our mistakes.Yes, I take some of the blame.I could have called more.Could have cared more...But it's not like that would have made a difference.You h...
Posted by on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 16:37:00 GMT

Cynical.

I hate it when you leave this way.I'm almost dizzy with concern.There are times when I know you can't mean what you say,But I don't know this time.I must say you've shaken me.Oftentimes you have, but ...
Posted by on Wed, 14 Nov 2007 16:17:00 GMT

Drugs and people.

It seems no matter how far I reach out to try to touch somebody who does NOT depend on drugs or alcohol, everyone seems to be falling into it. And it sucks.If you're caught up on drugs, I can't help y...
Posted by on Sun, 30 Sep 2007 16:54:00 GMT

A $20 bill. [Very inspirational. Read it.]

$20.00Sometimes we just need to be reminded!A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a 20 dollar bill. In the room of 200, he asked, 'Who would like this $20 bill?' Hands started goi...
Posted by on Sat, 22 Sep 2007 18:53:00 GMT

My Friends in Marching Band.

I've been in band for about 5 years now, and I guess as I was looking through some of my band friend's pages, it finally occured to me how sad it's going to be next semester when I won't have to play ...
Posted by on Sat, 15 Sep 2007 13:21:00 GMT

How to tell youre from Michigan.

If you consider it a sport to gather your food by drilling through18 inches of ice and sitting there all day hoping that the food will swim by, you might live in Michigan If you're proud that your reg...
Posted by on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 19:15:00 GMT

Happy Birthday - Flipsyde

Happy Birthday...so make a wishVerse 1:Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have beenWould you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys.Or a...
Posted by on Sat, 04 Aug 2007 09:19:00 GMT

It breaks my heart. [[Please read.]]

There are some people who are always around.They may not always be there for you,Hell, they may just complain and admit to hating you,But somewhere along the line you realize you love that person.You ...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 22:05:00 GMT

It's funny...

It's kind of hard to understand these days.I just don't know what I want to do, who I want to be.And what's worse, it's getting harder to think for myself.What I want to do seems to matter less and le...
Posted by on Sat, 30 Dec 2006 07:58:00 GMT