If I were to show you the plans for my life, like the blueprints of a building, you'd realize that something is inexplicably askew. The building is under construction, the foundations having been laid a long time ago. The frame work is up and the first few floors are complete.
Yet, with so much hard work being put into the project, the building has no resemblance to what is on paper. Somewhere along the way I messed up. I lost sight of the goal of the project. I never bothered to ask the right questions. Now I do. The search for the answers begins.
Robert Frost, a poet, once said that he could some up what he learned about life in three words, just three: It goes on. Wise words from a wise man.
Now, in 23 years what have I learned about life? The sooner you abandon all hope, the quicker you can embrace life for what it really is: cold, lonely and disappointing. Truer words have never been spoken.
I'd tell you something about myself, but I don't want to spoil the beginning of my autobiography. Get to know me and you may help me write a chapter in it. Who knows, you might actually play a principal role in the plot?
ETERNAL SUNSHINE
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;"
Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n.
Grace shines around her with serenest beams,
And whisp'ring angels prompt her golden dreams.
For her th' unfading rose of Eden blooms,
And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes,
For her the Spouse prepares the bridal ring,
For her white virgins hymeneals sing,
To sounds of heav'nly harps she dies away,
And melts in visions of eternal day.
"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson
