*Mamacita*

Still figuring this one out and probably won't ever know the full story about myself which is ok by me - I like the mysterious and unknown - it keeps me searching and once in awhile another truth is revealed. Born on the Taurus/Gemini cusp makes me a LUNAtic. Sometimes I'm comfortable with this and sometimes I'm just not. I'm a lover and detester, a space-case and down-to-earth, a woman and a child, a mother and a daughter, an apple and an orange, I could give 2 shits but I truly care, ask me how my day is going and I'll tell you the truth so don't ask if you don't want to know. I may be unstable or maybe just human. For real though, I try to be as positive as I can be in this fucked up world and I try to see the good in every situation but find it extremely challenging at times. I think we treat our home like shit but I drive a car and heat my home so can I really talk? I don't believe in Columbus day, I think George Bush sucks (but who doesn't at this point). I think children are the best things on Earth! I feel like we've lost touch with our roots but that we still have the ability to reconnect. I believe that change is possible through every single breath taken. I believe in miracles and in fact, I could use a few. I believe I am a miracle. I believe in the Universal Spirit that binds us to one another and to every single atom. I don't believe in a World Government. I go after the things I believe in and when I'm faced with resistence, I tend to go after it even harder. I am DEFIANT and have been since birth. I am spiritual but not religious - "For years, religion did nothing but divide" - Killah Priest. I pray. I pray for acceptance. I pray for people I love. I pray for people I don't love. I pray for world peace. I pray for peace for myself and my children. I love the Goddesses and Gods (no, not just one). I am an addict. I don't numb myself anymore but sometimes I don't want to feel.I am not high-maintenance - I don't need or want the latest Coach bag or Gucci glasses and I certainly don't want De Beer diamonds, though I understand why some people do. There's a lot of soul-sickness out there and unfortunately, I deal with it myself. My thoughts are that being conscious of it is half the battle so I have hope. And faith. I've got a lot going on in my head these days and am far from internal peace, though I do have moments from time to time of utter peace in my heart and mind which I am very grateful for. I have a really hard time lately quieting my mind. I've been spending a lot of time in the past and future and forgetting to live in the moment. I love being awakened into momentary consciousness. It's a wonderful place for me to spend my time when I remember to pull my head out of my ass and be here now. Sometimes I wish I had a button to turn my mind off. I love love, music, life, earth, space, dancing, getting lost, laughter, lightning, the sound of thunder, the 4 seasons, ashtanga yoga, my friends and family and AUM. OH yeah - and trees, ferns, and lavender - and dandellions! I'm a mother of two beautiful beings. I feel truly blessed to be able to watch them grow into themselves. Right now, they are my world. I need to do more for myself because I am wearing thin. I have a tendency (like most mothers) to put everyone else's needs ahead of my own - but it's progress, not perfection. I try to work away my character defects so as not to pass them on to my children. It's hard. I am sleep deprived - I haven't slept through the night in over 2 years but it's ok - I'm used to it now and this too will change one day. I have lots and lots of dreams (which I write down so as not to forget) both long and short-term. I would like to leave some positive impact on the Earth. One way I would like to do this is by designing and implementing green roofs in cities (the dream I am currently working on and close to obtaining). I am an idealist. Anyhow, everything written above could change or be gone tomorrow and that's real. Wanna know more? Email me your questions. Peace! I'm out!

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