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There's a war going on in my head

now with twice the confusion!

About Me

NOW PLAYING FOR BILLY CANDLERLife is life and there is that much to it. Currently, I find myself trying to do everything I want to at once and then saying, "What the fuck I'm I doing?" and then going to sleep. I compose, write and slave away at music in most of my free time and work less than I want to. Other than that, I'm essentially a laid back sorta dude who likes me some Bassin' and all that musical sheeite.My life seems tilting, twirling spinning, out of balance, havok wreaking. Self hatred is so unseeming yet the orbits are so very revealing. Confused and contorted all seems sordid lonley and loner social surrender under the spell of nothing remembered. Driven to destruct and consume self unlock nothing and no one try to become aanything, someone. Hide from the world my nerves are unfurled there is no way to help there is nothing to sell. Killing my time watching owls fly by and hope that free will won't let me pass by. Under the eaves of eucalyptus trees pianos disolving to paper reprieves, I feel so alive and yet I cannot thrive down in my mind and up in my drive do unto others substance no chime. Polytonal polyphony guttual harmony never a moment to pass the world by... width="425" height="350" ..
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My Interests

Music, wildlife, conservation, natural world, Movies, People, Electric Bass, Upright Bass, Bagpipes, Learning, Food, and anything having to do with water

I'd like to meet:

Great minds free of ignorant thought.

Music:

Metal, Rock, Classical, jazz, Techno, and Whatever I write.

Movies:

anything that makes you think or that is unusual, like The Royal Tenenbaums. The Life Aquatic, Waking Life, the Boondock Saints, Myazaki Films (Princess Mononoke, My Neighbor Totoro, Howl's Moving Castle, etc.)

Books:

pretty much anything.

Heroes:

Cliff Burton, Steve Irwin....Too bad it took his death for me to realize it.

My Blog

Behemoth I am and I will Take and Kill and Lie and Gore and Rape...

Grovel at the Gravel stained with life and love emptied came, speak and hide and crawl inside the cavernous infinity. Filth and waste meets clean and chaste when attitudes are not worthy. Trees will d...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 01:53:00 PST

Find it, kill it, fuel it, be it

Consume by nothing burning something find to not relate to flying run on sorrow die in love, consummate the wars above. Lust it travels, bites you back shake the finger, tip the hat. Maim yourself pai...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 02:06:00 PST

On a sailing ship to nowhere going anyplace

Here we go, another, I knowso.I haven't been here for a good long while i suppose, and in truth there is not much to report short of what you people have already figured out for yourselves. haha. I ...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 03:14:00 PST

Evesdropping on the animals

hmm. I figured I would write about something or other, but I can't seem to figure out anything to fish out of my head. Except for these things...1. Cats in San Diego are all assholes unless they're ...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 01:38:00 PST

The traveler takes a fall most deadly....

...as everything becomes dense and heavy. The poisons of man and animal strike and flail and gouge throughout the nights. Nothing could save him or come to his aid, 'cept random miracles' interventi...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 02:09:00 PST

Be nice to your animals

SoBeen a while I suppose.Not much to say I suppose, aside from the usual.My car got totalled (not my fault), so I've gotta buy a new one. aaaaannnd... I work a lot.that's it.Life is good. haahahahaha...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 11:17:00 PST

Everybody's flipping out. Jesus.

have a happy update from your's truly. Obviously my final transmission sounded a little too final for the majority of you foo's. Here it is in a non coded language format:I am extremely busy with sc...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 11:42:00 PST

This Forest is Growing Faster Than I can Tell

Ah the small wonders of life.Tonight, there is a barn owl sitting in the tree outside my window, and it is quite content to make its calls whilst I compose my songs and study my stories. In this mome...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Thu, 26 Oct 2006 12:54:00 PST

ebb flow fast slow

Life is life and living is learning.Thats essentially what and where I am and go. All seems well, but a storm is brewing, closing in and whispering to me in code. These are the times where we shine ou...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Wed, 25 Oct 2006 10:49:00 PST

Where Strides the Behemoth

Life is life and living is learning.I have too many things grazing my brain as of now. Too many thoughts circling about. My brain is polluted with momentous amounts of excess thinking. Sounds about...
Posted by There's a war going on in my head on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 05:43:00 PST