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*Messy*Starr*â„¢[Nikki's Girl]

You say- Theres no place you'd rather be when your lying next to me-- I say- Theres no one i'd rathe

About Me

Umm... well my name is Melissa. Messy for some. Not much to say about me. I like people even though they fuck me over all the time. I dont have very many friends.. good friends that is.. I love being in love but i hate it at the same time. I let people step all over me and thats what im currently working on with myself. I get hurt easily cuz sometimes i care too much what people think about me, even tho i might pretend like i dont give a fuck. Im a cool person. I love to joke around and have fun.
*Im afraid of balloons popping
*I like playing DDR and playing guitar hero
*I have insomnia..
*Im afraid to use a staple gun
*Im also afraid of the dark
*I make music videos in front of the mirror
*My fave cereal is Fruity Pebbles
*Im a strong believer in the fact that the trix rabbit should be able to eat them.
*If you give me fruit gushers ull automatically be my favorite person
*Sometimes i make weird noises..
*Whenever i have to make a wish its that the cranberries will get back together haha
*I want to be a movie director/producer/maker/star
*I want to be a private eye/crime scene investigator/ coroner and catch all the bad guys
*I want to be the bad guy
*I get startled easily
*Im petrified of Freddy movies b/c i watched my first one when i was a ripe old age of 3.
*Im kind of straight edge
*I could live forever on chicken and potatoes
*Im a hypochondriac
*I have a heart problem (see above)
*Im Psychic like whoa
*I say like whoa alot
*I believe in God but sometimes wonder where he is
*I love chocolate
*I hate drama
****AIM= Mainstream Pain

My Interests

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I'd like to meet:

I Love Nikki Mix

Music:

30 seconds to Mars, 311, Alanis Morisette, Angelspit, Ani Difranco, Architecture in Helsinki, Armor For Sleep, Arrah and the Ferns, The Ataris, Augustina, Avril Lavigne, Blindside, Bright Eyes, Broken Social Scene, Catpower, Chevelle, Christina Aguilera, Circa Survive, Cody Chestnutt, Cold, Coldplay, Combichrist, The Cranberries, Crossfade, The Blow, Daft Punk, Damien Rice, The Dan Band, The Darkness, Dashboard Confessional, Deathcab for Cutie, DHT, Die Trying, The Distillers, Dr. Dre, Dj. Sammy, The Dresden Dolls, Eisely, Eminem, Evanescence, Feist, Flyleaf, The Fray, Frou Frou, Fuel, The Goo Goo Dolls, Heart, Hinder, Hope, Imogen Heap, Incubus, Jewel, Justin Timberlake, Khia, Kinnie Starr, Kittie, Korn, Kylie Minogue, Lady Sovereign, Limp Biscuit, Live, Lords or Acid, Ludacris, Madonna, Margot and the Nuclear So and So's, Marilyn Manson, Maroon 5, Matchbox 20, Metric, Michael Jackson, MSI, Missy Elliot, Natalie Imbuglia, Nelly Furtado, Nickelback, Nirvana, Orgy, Otep, Panic! At the Disco, Paramore, Peaches, Pink, Poe, Portishead, The Postal Service, The Presets, Prodigy, Queen, Rachel Canut, Rammstein, Relient K, REM, Rob Zombie, Sarina Paris, Savage Garder, Scissor Sisters, Semisonic, Seether, The Shins, Simple Plan, Smile Empty Soul, Sneaker Pimps, Snow Patrol, Spice Girls, Stone Sour, Story of the Year, TATU. Tegan and Sara, Third Eye Blind, Tool, Trapt, Usher, Zero 7 etc.

Movies:

Drop Dead Fred, Edward Scissorhands, 11:14, Chumscrubber, Natural Born Killers, Nightmare on Elm Street, Donnie Darko, Saw, The Secretary, May, Open Water, The Excorcism of Emily Rose, Basketball, Team America, Cannibal the musical, Orgazmo, Anchorman, The 40 year old virgin, Finding Nemo,

Television:

uhmm.. Buffy, Tru Calling, The L Word, Forensic Files, Cold Case Files, and unsolved Mysteries, Andy Milanokis, UNDRESSED.. u know u can hear the theme song in ur head right now

Books:

I like to read.. Dean Koontz. Go Ask Alice, Cut, Intesity, Smack, The Torn Skirt...

Heroes:

every day is a day in paradise

My Blog

more than that

My heart stops Drops And rolls When I see her face I melt Laying Thinking Dreaming In her embrace my deepest fears are far away Heavy breathing Soft touches take me to another place I yearn Almost be...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 01:22:00 PST

Its just.. ahhh

Butterflies creep up and flutter their beautiful wings tickling my stomach Skin crawling and breathing heavy. My palms are sweaty and my eyes tranfixed on the ground like there is something wonderfu...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 04:05:00 PST

what goes around comes back around

and it sure did i definitely got what i deserved   when i wake and think about the things i cant have i close my eyes and try to force myself back where im happy then when i wake up alone again r...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Wed, 31 Jan 2007 08:09:00 PST

.....

i dont have any poetry right now.. but i do have a broken heart
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Sat, 19 Aug 2006 05:12:00 PST

yes..no

No one but one truly sees my pain but that one was forsaken. Now that i urn for her, unavailable, untouchable, ad unlovable by me is she Wishing for another chance but her heart now belongs to another...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 02:21:00 PST

Beep Beep

Pain underneath, smiles com to the surface Fake but convincing. Love bloomed and blossomed then withered and decayed in front of eyes unknowing Tears dried up in the desert also known as my suffering ...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 02:13:00 PST

thinking does the body bad

confusion overtakes my being not sure if what I wanted is what I need pondering what the meaning of love is and what it is to me is love yelling? screaming? name calling? is love making someone feel ...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Mon, 12 Jun 2006 03:55:00 PST

whats wrong?

my chest is bursting When i scream does anyone hear my cries? Just pretend im not here Ill be the one lingering in the shadows When i bleed will anyone patch me up? Or will i be left to drain Be ca...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Fri, 20 Jan 2006 11:51:00 PST

im knocking

why does this thumping in my chest flutter in your presence why do i lose my breath when i hear your name my chest is aching but you take it away i wish you could see what you mean to me i wish i coul...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Fri, 20 Jan 2006 11:33:00 PST

help...

silence, holding my breath catching the tears before they hit the floor and reveal my hiding spot fear drove me here and fear holds me down if i could just let go but if i let go im in a tighter spot...
Posted by *Messy*Starr*"[Nikki's Girl] on Sat, 07 Jan 2006 01:04:00 PST