billy

compassionate and sympathetic. committed to hardly any committments. over-committed. love to talk about not drinking over cigarettes. love. the high-wire act of normalcy. gathering back all the unnecessary junk i lost in the hurricane. split-second eternities. trying too hard to not seem awkward. the growth that comes from pain. the pain that comes with growth. steps instead of elevators. the painful uncertainties that can weigh down the heart. bliss in my own footsteps. misery in my footprints. uncertain. isolate. the use of flattery to deflect from me. nothing between humans is uncomplicated, everytime we speak we simplify and misrepresent. sometimes stillness and quiet can be deafening. anything that you tolerate stays in your life. inspired passion. excited grief. a lifetime of confused and crowded happiness punctuated by slow motion pain. (in my mind i like to believe that i'm fragile, about to shatter at any moment. but life doesnt come at you soft, there is no pillow to cushion reality. life comes hard.)