*~LeTz*GeT*DIZZY~*

This is the way i have to think now. Im 18. life is here, life is now, and life isnt slowing down or getting any easyer on me. The ride here was amazing, and made me who i am. but its time to take control, i wont succeed if i dont make my self succeed. where i am, where i go and where i eventualy end up is all up to me, i dont want to be a victim of circimstance anymore. God, but where do i start?! I beleive that im a pretty complex person. Im extreamly oppinionated and try to stand tall. some people think im a bitch because my words come out open and un-sugar coated, while others respect my blunt honesty. Sometimes though, i cant take what i dish-out, im easily hurt. But in the end once i lick my wounds, i respect you more for showing me what i didnt see. What I think of myself, and what you think of me may be two totaly differnt extreams. But im oppinonated like i said, so here is my veiw on me....
PIECES OF ME
- I dance on tables and goes topless to shows.
- I want to one day be the tattooed pitbull breeding, mom whos married to her lover who likes to have a layed back fun lifstlye while blancing the children, working as a piercer and enjoying life.
- I jump head first into moshpits and throw up in your car because I drank to much.
-I get a kick outta proveing the world wrong. For those people who say i'll fail, thank you for saying so because now i want to succeed far more than u could ever understand.
- My confedence often gets confused with "begging for attention syndrom"
- Im extreamly friendly, but dont confuse this with easy, or me being a whore. i can count my lovers on 2 fingers, can you?
- Im inlove with my past, a picture and journal whore.
- I like doing troublsome things, but i do my best to stay outta trouble.
- I do have a fucked up serious sarcastic just joking kinda humor, but i mean no harm.
- I will tell you exactly what I think, regardless of any and all repecusions. Because if I dont tell you...who will?
- I wont wait in line for the girls bathroom....guys really dont mind you in there.
- I stand up for what I believe in, and couldnt give two shits or a fuck less about what you, or anyone else has to say about it.
- I am proud of who I am and wouldn't change that for anyone or anything in this world.
- Im greatful for every hardship iv delt with in life, im not dead, so there for im stronger.
- I'v been walked on and emotionaly distroyed, and iv thanked the man who did it to me. iv learned and made 2 words to live by "Never Again".
-I try to be the friend that i would want as my best friend. And Yes sometimes i wish i could split my self and be my own bestest friend. ;)
- I cry for the people i dont even know who don't deserve to feel pain. And wish i could take that pain on myself for the people who I love.
-I love my life and refuse to beleive in regret.
-I am overly open about the things iv done in my past.... I shouldnt have done it if i didnt want people to know about it. But i did it, so fuck it.
- I let my inner child run rampid, that is why my heart is wize.
-I may not beleive what you beleive, but i will fight so you can beleive it.
- I wont date for the sake of dating. If i dont LOVE you, why waste the time? Besides, it just means we can skip the break up when some one better comes along.
Finally, I'm the type of girl that....
.....You Could Never Forget.....
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One more note....Once (not very long ago) a old soul told my that i was a rare beauty in this world (not because im small, puportional and perky) because i had a rare innoccence. Undamaged goods he also called it. I smile a true smile in a world of facades and tears. I am still capable of a pure giggle and keep a sparkle in my eye, even thou the world around bleeds and corrupts.....i was once so proud of what he said to me, but now iv lost alot of that innoccence. I moved to fast in the fast lane and lost touch with myself. I let to world and my life stlye get to me.....But i strive to find that purity again, and still be able 2 show it to the world even with the bloodstains showing. let the innoccence shine through......
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