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aaron

congruency; the way in which we perceive ourselves, and the way in which the world perceives us.

About Me

During the weeks leading up to this paper I was constantly searching my past for significant experiences or in general anything that could contribute to its composition. I have spent countless hours mentally organizing events, relationships, and people to form a coherent timeline describing how I became the sexual being I am today. At first, I was stumped, I could not articulate my experiences into words, I had not learned how to translate emotion into words. I found myself typing situations without the underlying importance, and the paper quickly became a listing of my sexual conquest from early adolencents to current sexual relations. Aside from typing the experiences, I found myself lacking the proper emotional stability to really tackle the bulk of the paper, solely because of personal insecurities, I was afraid to challenge the very notions that defined who I am. The paper was transcending from a list, dichotomized into likes and dislikes, into an awareness of self. The transition occured when I began the proofreading, when I read what I wrote, it was apparent I failed to be honest. I failed to analyze situations because it is easier to maintain a certain facade when I remain ignorant to the lies I feed myself. And this is where the seeds of revelation began to sow themselves; in the very heart of the paper. My declaration of self began with this paper; I am the sexual being I am today because of the choices I have made in life and the choices in life I failed to make.






I am an individual in the sense that I don't strive to find another that completes me; for we are humans and not objects. I cannot possibly fill a void in anyones life as if I'm holding the place of someone once before me.





if you find yourself hating me or generally disagreeing with me, then i am successful at what im doing. im successful at making you think, at forcing you to challenge the very notions that define you. im challenging you to be your own person. So do me a favor and return such actions. force me to go beyond my own personal hemisphere and force me to challenge my own political, social and moral codes. I cannot grow without change.
aim blueranger916

My Interests

I hate people who judge me. Who compare me to their own ethnocentric trains of thought. The ones who know nothing but their own measurements and will never amount to anything beyond their own expectations and standards. Just a heads up, im beyond that, i graduated highschool and dont have to put up with that bullshit anymore. so if you feel as if you have a right to pass judgement upon me, think again, and if you are still going to do it, do it to my face so that i can at least set you straight. thanks.im chasing my what i want in life, im living according to what i want to do with my life. and because my what i want differs from yours, or because you feel it doesnt measure up to something that im worth, doesnt make it a nobleless profession nonetheless. im not taking the easy way out, im pursing a passion that i have in my life. i wasnt built for labs and files, i was made for people and smiles.

I'd like to meet:





Id like to meet someone who is as passionate as i. someone who is as easy going and carefree as myself. id like to meet someone who does not accept what i say as fact, rather as my opinion. id like to meet someone who takes me to dinner then to the batting cages.

My Friend Space
I have 100 friends.

Nobody

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Music:

"So bring me monsters and i will slay them, god i used to feel like i could fly all the time, where it's all gone, i don't know" "whats the point of wings if your too afraid to fly?"

Movies:

these nights.you know, these late nights, where midnights slip into terror, and sheer affliction alone cannot contain your soul? when the drifts began to roar and rumble your heart and these beats are not enough to calm your blood? when the rattled fan and distant glow are anything but comfort. its these nights when we wake and realize why were alone. its these nights that make me hate my bed. that vacant space, between the covers and the heart. the knees between our chest and beats on the floor. its these nights that keep me dreaming. its these nights that ravage my self.one day im going to change the world.

Television:

if war were the answer, we would have had peace long time ago. open your fucking eyes and get a clue.

Books:

im going to teach history and political science. im going to due my part to end ignorance. and it is here that it begins.

My Blog

public- a prompt

so last night i was bored shitless at 1230 am, lacking internet and tv, i decided to divulge my senses into someone else's writing promt.  the prompt instructed to write about a man who had just ...
Posted by aaron on Thu, 15 May 2008 08:20:00 PST

public

they told us these walls were built for our protection,and after awhile began to think of them as our own,to tag and tear at.but thats just because we were too afraid to rip them down.
Posted by aaron on Thu, 19 Apr 2007 08:30:00 PST

profession of my faith

I have no need to reinforce my spiritual health with the approval of a congregation. My faith and religion are a private domain in which I choose to share between my god and myself. I cannot accept th...
Posted by aaron on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 01:10:00 PST

yay for public blogs!

for those who like to lurkity lurki get sad everytime i read history. to the point where im not sure if im proud of being human. i don't try to place myself on a pedestal but i can't imagine subjectin...
Posted by aaron on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 12:48:00 PST

these nights.

you know, these late nights, where midnights slip into terror, and sheer affliction alone cannot contain your soul?when the drifts began to roar and rumble your heart and these beats are not enough to...
Posted by aaron on Wed, 13 Sep 2006 01:08:00 PST

officially a public blog.

and we wonder why there is a lack of trust, a lack of moral, a lack of initiative and a lack of conviction. its because of people like you, how can we expect more out of others than our ownselves. i h...
Posted by aaron on Tue, 05 Sep 2006 02:09:00 PST

I guess ill share this one with the world.

each day im reminded why i dont like sacramento, people are too concerned with someone elses personal preferences to realize how much of an arrogant, and ignorant at that, asshole they sound like.plea...
Posted by aaron on Mon, 21 Aug 2006 08:43:00 PST

MY FELLOW SANTA CRUZIANS.

i know im a little early with this one and its only being published 5 days before it should be because i start packing tomorrow. i had a nice idea planned out to make it sappier than it should be and ...
Posted by aaron on Sat, 22 Jul 2006 03:37:00 PST

PHOTO BLOG FOR ALL

it was an amazing trip. so many stories....
Posted by aaron on Tue, 27 Jun 2006 09:35:00 PST

A BLOG FOR THE GENERAL PUBLIC

so people complain about not being able to read my blogs, and let me inform you all as to why; this is because they are for my viewing. seeing as to how there has been an increased interest in my pers...
Posted by aaron on Mon, 19 Jun 2006 07:09:00 PST