music, music, and music....thats it oh and skateboard
Throw rocks at boys
words of wisdom:
This is the disgust I feel towards the world. I have apprehended. That we are all masochists drawing to a quality od being arrested emotionally and that we are all sadists because we receive pleasure from taking others into such emotional situations. We are all marked with this sickness, so ashamed at the state of our own consciousness that we burned ourselves with seeking out methods to alleviate the pain and suffering of others. We do this not as an act of kindness but as an act of self-interest, to purify ourselves of sin, to wash away the this we hide from those who watch, and even those we will never face contact with. We do not know of their anguish, we just presume we do and act in our best intelligence, which is at best an action of incomplence. Our self-interest is a consummation of our own sub-conscious. Our beliefs are not our own but have been instilled internally through archetypes and social conditioning. We only fantasize for our own self-fulfillment. The very belief in faith is the purest form of selfishness, greed, and simple-minded acquisitiveness. On an intimate level we are able to conquer our obstacles, while on a mass scale our combat to death is used to commit genocide, murder, atrocities, war, and savagery. We allow famine, pestilence, and plage. We are cultivated into a wave of hatred, which is an esoteric of hidden agendas to conceal their motives with a blinding light of love. The very element that makes us human is the very thing that makes us animal. Our generation has failed miserably, not providing the world with any form of counter-culture necessary to its advancement. Our underground sub-cultures are based upon superficiality. We aren't aggregated because we are angry, young, poor, disgusted, exiled, freaks, or open-minded. We have come together based on self-actualization. Interested only in fashion, drugs, alcohol, sex, and our own self image...just like everyone else. We conform to groups of zealous beliefs that we did not draw from our own conclusions. The group is essential to ones continuance because we do not possess the strength to rely on ourselves. There is nothing which makes us different, special, or better than anyone because even our underground societies are infected with this disease of social apathy. We are the generation of stagnation. We believe that problems will take care of themselves, whether it be from God himself or from a source of authority. How many of you will read this and become affected by group-polarity only to allow your beliefs to be reaffirmed. Discard this as blasphemy. Will I push you to question everything or only to become more close-minded and assured in your bigotry? You will ture to your crutch whatever it is, religion, sex which is mistaken for love, an altered state of mind through substance that are not natural to your body, or your so called movements that allow you to feel better about yourself. While on a larger scale you affect those negatively around you with your hypocritical around you with your hypocritical convictions, fascism, and conformity. Why do you take these things which should be taken in moderation to such excess? Our excess is a bloodlust which is crumbling our world. We must realize we do not need such things. Everything we need is inside of our own hearts. I will rely on nothing external in this world. I will stay strong on my own, only turning to myself and my heart through my endless dispair. While you will depend on your outlets for healing and assurance, which in turn only hurt you more. You are the Masochist. I'd rather stand on my feet fighting for what I believe in than live on my knees praying for things to get better.
-Zak Vargas
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