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About Me

I've spent too much time attempting to be who everyone else wanted me to be to lose one more minute not enjoying my own life or to beat myself down for not fitting some undefinable concept of 'normalcy'. It took me over 40 years, but my life is finally my own and not only am I'm proud of it, but I'm also finding myself continually surprised by how much of it I am finally enjoying.

As I'm almost always working, meeting people on the web has been about the only social outlet available to me. My job comes first, but I am looking at finally having a life away from the keyboard. I have been welcoming the opportunity to do so on an increasingly frequent basis of late.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

An advantage to being a woman such as myself is that it's easy to weed out those for whom life has little depth. My journey allows me to find those whose hearts are not limited by their preconceptions nor those that are intimidated by complexity. Those that have become close to me have been those that can see a truer nature of the people around them. They have their own insights. They enjoy finding the undiscovered in all aspects of life, and sharing their discoveries with those close to them. Many of them I haven't agreed with on many things.. but the respect has always been mutual and the conversations invigorating.

I enjoy meeting women of all types.

I've decided to throw out my 'checklist' of what I'm looking for in a partner. I've been involved with women that have checked it all off, only to find it was irrelevant. It's about the chemistry, the rhythms, the balance and mutual respect... well passion is pretty important too.. I think I've explored the limits of positive thinking when it comes to partners, and really am actively looking forward to finding a relationship that just naturally works for both people.

I have always gravitated toward stronger more controlling women, but with the way that's worked out for me I'm more open to expanding my horizons than I recall ever being in the past. I do seem to like 'characters' though. Gals for whom having their own sense of style and self-awareness differentiate them in a some unique way. Must at least have the confidence to be 'out' as I love walking hand in hand too much.

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To all my friends:

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My Blog

Madeleine

MadeleineShe is all I thought I would never experience,She has opened my heart with love.Love that previously I had never been able to receive.She is more than just a love or a lover,She is my ecstasy...
Posted by on Fri, 15 May 2009 19:17:00 GMT

Love by Potluck Buffet

Are you going to touch me?or my body?Seems receiving bothis too much to ask for when living without a partner.So many friends,yet still,when I find myself alone,which is often,I am forced to deal with...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:37:00 GMT

Hard Core Procrastination

ProcrastinationIts what I do best.By all appearances,its what I must enjoy the most.Coming in a close second... ...craving what I cant have.To what end and why?I know the defeatism of my logi...
Posted by on Thu, 26 Feb 2009 19:22:00 GMT

Every once in a Blue Moon

Every once in a blue moon I have a really good day.Like the spring breeze,carrying the sweet promise of of the summer to come,Its breath filling the lungs with satisfaction for having survived anot...
Posted by on Fri, 20 Feb 2009 19:06:00 GMT

Less Value than Genitalia

You have to step out of all youve been told.You have to see me for who I am,in spite of what your eyes may see,in spite of what you think you know,in spite of who you wish I was,to truly touch me.Im...
Posted by on Tue, 17 Feb 2009 18:57:00 GMT

On Being A Single Woman That Happens To Be 'Trans'

On Being A Single Woman That Happens To Be 'Trans'It means having to be braver than the people that are interested in me,Showing understanding to those that fear to hold my hand in public,Teaching the...
Posted by on Tue, 03 Feb 2009 20:18:00 GMT

I touched the wind

I touched the wind before it could touch meone cold and nearly endless night. Frosted by the very air than came out of my mouth,imprisoned and encased in my doubts and fears,I could not leave winters...
Posted by on Sun, 01 Feb 2009 15:26:00 GMT

Got Jessica? VBlog Pt 2

My Daughters Graduation After The Ceremony Tonight's a little Rough Definitions - Transexual Pt 1 Definitions - Transexual Pt 2 Definitions ...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Dec 2008 21:56:00 GMT

A little explanation

So my follow through on the vblog thing has been pretty piss poor. Quite a few things have conspired to rain on my parade and I'm stuck in my shit of late. It's definitely not one of the more stellar...
Posted by on Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:40:00 GMT

Ok so Ive found myself, but who the hell am I?

On an early fall day back in 1980 I was awoken from my collapse in a small park in Golden Colorado. I had walked there the previous day from Denver General Hospital. The hospital had kicked me out alm...
Posted by on Fri, 31 Oct 2008 02:27:00 GMT