Maricor

i am maricor solis. my frends call me cor. i am a piscean. im a bubbly and a carefree gal. i am outspoken that sometimes people misunderstood me. i aint what you think i am. i tell you, dont judge me for what i wear or how i act because you cant see my totality if you just base it there. i am weak and vulnerable when it comes to love. i only loved one person and my heart still beats for him. i know, im a lovedumb but the hell i care as long as i am happy and i cud justify my deeds ill still stick to it. i have my own issues and may seem to be never ending. im a fickle-minded, i just want to live now or die tomorrow depending on my mood. i love my family and friends they are the ones that makes me complete aside from my loved one. i love this crazy beautiful almost tragic life.~ i know that its stupid and silly, to sound as if my whole life revolved around being somebody's ex-girlfriend, but i cant help it. That title packs a pretty strong punch. i once loved someone who loved me back but he didnt want to stay. i cried, alot. i spent countless nights wondering what went wrong. i'd reminsce about are gay moments, then break down when i'd realize that he was no longer mine. i analyzed every single detail of our break up. i spent my nights in tearful conversations and my days in daydreams,where we would end up in each others arm again. sometimes he was still my angel, still my night n' shining armor, who i'd do anything just to have him back. but sometimes, i saw him as the devil incarnate who broke my effing heart in the worst possible way, and who deserved to be worshipped at the very least. i still believed that he was the one, the only one. i couldnt understand how this was all for the better. when everyday seemed more torturous than the last. not being able to be with him the way i wanted to be,seeing him so unaffected and dealing with my broken heart and my bruised ego.~