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kelbatroN™

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About Me

SAOSIN
Anthony Green
My name is Kelby May and I...
Am attending Pacific Lutheran University (PLU) as a sophmore this year in Tacoma, and am a RA in Tingelstad Hall on 5th floor.
Love Jesus because he wont ever break my heart
Love my closest friends, but /only/ them
Will /never/ tell you I love you unless I mean it
Do a lot of reflecting. I feel critical analysis is really important to one's development in life. I'm constantly questioning my beliefs, who I was, who I am, and who I want to be. I'm not constantly changing, but certainly challenging. Challenging your fabric makes you more confident in not only beliefs, but yourself as a person.
Would only join the army if: 1. Upon enlistment, James Earl Jones was assigned to be my personal life story narrator. 2. I was assigned a battle rifle and sniper from H2 and the pistol from Halo1 as my sidearm. 3. I had at least 3 other halo pros I know in my regiment.
My View On the World
Suicide is a cop-out. It’s greedy. Someone loves you, someone is going to be torn apart by your death, why do that to them? Everyone has problems, everyone experiences depression, and if you didn’t have terrible moments in your life you wouldn’t be able to appreciate the amazing ones.
Capitalism is necessary. Everyone rags on our commercially fueled, mass media consuming society, and it’s bullshit. Our economy is set up the way it is because it works. Advertising feeds us sex and the average person sees over 1,500 ads daily because that’s the most effective way to sell the most product to the most people. The more we consume, the more we make, the better off we are. It would be great if we could all live in a socialist society and have no disparity in wealth, but that’s impossible. Human nature will not allow it. It’s an effort described in books like “Fight Club,” undertaken by many, failed by all. Someone always has to be top dog, someone always wants more, someone always has to be better. You can find the truth at any university in the world; your ignorance and ideals don’t make capitalism evil.
You won’t ever be truly happy, and you shouldn't want to be! It’s an impossible pursuit, and a foolish one at that. You can have moments, days, perhaps even a week of nostalgia during which you experience no worries and have no cares, but it doesn’t ever last. You’ll always face pressures, trails, stress, and hardships. It’s a necessary part of living to be challenged and overcome, and if you didn’t feel any need to do so, you clearly aren’t accomplishing much with your life. Happy now?
The thought that kids who party under the influence have more fun is a joke. Honestly, it’s pathetic that so many people actually believe this. I have absolutely no issues with kids who drink, smoke, and do drugs, but if you have to be faded, tanked, trashed, blazed, slammed, or completely fucked up in order to reach your maximum level of enjoyment with life, you’re an addict. You’re living your life as a poison’s bitch, it holds the key to your gateway to happiness, and the fact you live your life in a prison “almost” makes me pity you.
Truly, the person I care about more than anyone on this planet is my little brother, Shaun. I like to think of myself as his ultimate role model, so I try to set a good example. I try and live and share advice so he won’t make the same mistakes I have, but some things we need to learn on our own. He’s taken all of the attributes in me which he sees admirable and applied them to himself as he sees best fit, and I’m really proud of that. No matter how pissed I get at him, I wont ever genuinely care for anyone more.
There isn’t /anyone/ I wouldn’t fuck up for that kid.
Love… To me, it is the most important and most overused word in the english language. It is, in one word, an expression of the deepest level of passion and commitment to one person/thing known to man. I can't stand its over-use, especially between couples. It's bullshit, you won't be together in a year, and you won't care. How can someone believe what you say when you throw the word at every person you date? It makes it really hard to trust that person, and how can you love someone you don't trust completely? I can't. I'm not in love, and don't know when I will be again, but for me that's not the end of the world. I'm with a girl who makes me so very happy, and I know we care for each other deeply. Right now, that's all I could ask for.

My Interests

emotion
romance
love

I'd like to meet:

For me, heaven's not only a place that I'll go when I die, it's also those moments with Allie when I actually feel alive
I've finally found the connection I'd been dying for.
She's beautiful.
She's so fun and funny.
& she treats me amazingly.
I wouldnt settle for anything less, and just when I think I've hit my peak, she takes me higher, everyday.

Her name is Allie...but I call her perfect ♥

Music:

♥ Anthony Green ♥
♥ Saosin ♥
♥ Circa Survive ♥
My Flavor(s) of the Week:
The Devil Wears Prada

Movies:

The Fountain
300
Perfume
Smokin' Aces
The Illusionist
Domino
The Prestige
007 Casino Royale
Lord of War
I Munich
Thank You for Smoking
American History X
Thumb Sucker
Garden State
The Wedding Crashers
The 40 Year Old Virgin
REQUIEM FOR A DREAM
Amelie
Rushmore
Elephant
Donnie Darko
Snatch
Troy
The Usual Suspects
Fight Club
Shawshank Redemption
Man on Fire
Dead Poets Society
Pitch Black
The Devils Advocate
Fog of War
An Indecent Proposal

Television:

South Park, Late Night with Conan Obrien, Boston Legal

Books:

Fight Club, Choke, Catcher in the Rye

Heroes:

Jesus
Anthony Green
Final Boss
Conan Obrien
Dan Zimmer
Edward Norton
Chuck Palahniuk

All Time Greatest Influences:
Will Baker..

My Blog

so many things you'll never know...

...and i dont know if that's for the best or not.
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Mon, 25 Jun 2007 07:28:00 PST

no sabes que yo sé...

...pero yo sé que tú sabes más que yo pienso que tú sabes ;)    Things?They're going quite swimmingly in fact.    How well?Better than I can remember they've been for a l...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 01:32:00 PST

'is there something more I should have known?'

things are much better now.mostly because it's wonderful all the time.but sometimes only ostensibly so...not everything is perfect the way it stands; it's not all the way there in some moments.but I c...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Sat, 15 Jul 2006 11:39:00 PST

...Lover, The Lord has left Us

Basically I cannot wait for school to be over.Though I dont think that will really change it.It's a lost case (I can't do any more about it.)Either things will change and everything will reach its max...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Thu, 01 Jun 2006 03:52:00 PST

'we dont care what we have done and seen...'

So here's the rundown, the quick update on my life.Prom's a mess. The plans change every two minutes.The limo is way too expensive. My best friend might now even go because of it.But when everything w...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Mon, 08 May 2006 05:24:00 PST

'we are in tune with them'

So. basically, things have been amazing since Emilee and I started dating. she's my little dancing angel and i do adore her so. I havent written in my LJ in forever... i'm obviously doing amazingly w...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Sat, 18 Feb 2006 01:21:00 PST

...and the psalms will soon recall me again

I've just been asking myself the same question over and over again. What am I going to do about this? just, so, empty... There's a lot I want to say, but I can't say any of it, here. Things arent c...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Sat, 14 Jan 2006 03:04:00 PST

The war between romance and pain...

the war in which no one ever wins. I feel...almost, truely empty. that's the only way to describe it... I've loved her for so long now it seems, and she has always loved me back. ...but not anymore....
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Fri, 23 Dec 2005 11:24:00 PST

couch.

Note to Self, I miss you terribly... this is what we call a tragedy... come back to me, back to me, to me...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Tue, 25 Oct 2005 10:19:00 PST

it's shameful in this satire...

So yesterday was one of the better days I've had in a long time. Because I found a scenester in Bothell, w00t. Her name is Krissy, she's fun, funny, and easy to talk to. We went shopping which was so ...
Posted by kelbatroN™ on Mon, 05 Sep 2005 12:43:00 PST