About Me
YOU ARE VISITOR #
Ummm....I live on Earth...was born and raised somewhere inside 38° 56′ N to 41° 21′ N/73° 54′ W to 75° 34′ W. My voice speaks love & I like to paint in my studio all day. If ELEPHANTS can paint, SO CAN I.....
FAV ARTISTS: Van Gogh
Alex Grey, Gerrit Greve, Graham Dean, Picasso, Scot Frei
FAV QUOTES: The cruelist lies are often told in silence. -R Stevenson
To put the world right in order, we must first put the nation in order; to put the nation in order, we must first put the family in order; to put the family in order, we must first cultivate our personal life; we must first set our hearts right. -Confucius
PEOPLE DESCRIBE ME AS...(the good AND the bad):
Poetic in soul, kind natured-with a big heart, not about games, likes to travel & explore, lover of the arts, deep in intellect, romantic, a flower child, likes to be free, independent, elegant, beautiful, hot, gorgeous, super-sexy, cold, too attached to my dog, ambiguous demeanor, spunky, energetic, really, really, REALLY happy-almost medically induced happiness, harsh, bossy, sexy, nice, kind, ill-tempered, loyal, considerate, beautiful, stubborn, likeable, honest, really friendly, fun to be with, exciting, worse driver ever, hot, adventurous, goofy, outging, laid back, easily likable from the start!, attractive, intelligent, sexy, fun, aloof, shy, caring, often sad, annoying, loud, tempting, sedutive, confused, 'shaggable' (whatever THAT is supposed to mean), hesitant, happy-go-lucky, restless, articulate, pouty...more to come.
MY PERSONALITY TYPE:
- Visionary LEADER—strong, self-reliant, and driven to make an impact on the world.
- Courageous and a "force to be reckoned with." Indeed, with imagination, persistence, and versatility, I can do almost anything. I can start a company, run a household, or wage a war (and all at one time if necessary!).
- Like all true Leaders, I'm not afraid to take risks. I thrive on intensity and excitement and gravitate toward other strong-willed people. My friends, family, and co-workers always look to me to lead the way.
- I'm willing to make unpopular decisions and to go against everyone's advice if I believe it's the right thing to do. I'm tough skinned and don't have to please everyone. In the end, I'd rather be respected than liked.
- Still, most people appreciate my honesty and directness. They always know where they stand with me. Indeed, I'm a loyal friend and would do anything to protect the ones I love.
MY LOVE STYLE:
*PASSIONATE*
I have the freedom to love intensely and completely—focusing only on the here and now.
- Passionates have a great capacity to love. In fact, I may have several "great loves" in my lifetime. When I connect with someone it's immediate, intense, and on multiple levels— mental, emotional, spiritual, and sexual. I realize that sometimes love can be brief and other times lifelong. So, I try to enjoy love, avoid the urge to control it, and just see where it takes me.
- Physical chemistry is a key part of the initial spark for me. Although people love to talk about sex, the truth is that most people are afraid of their "wild" side. I'm not. I trust my instincts and know exactly who I find attractive and what turns me on. No matter how nice a man may be, if there's no passion in the first kiss, it's probably not going to work out.
- My approach to love can change over time. Physical passion may become less crucial and commitment may become more important.
- I am most likely to fall in love with a man who's independent by nature. He won't expect to merge his life with mine. Keeping separate friends, for example, will just give me more to talk about when we're together.
- Love and sexual infatuation are two very different things from my point of view. If we really love each other, you should be willing to wait a while before having sex. Sexual passion is fun, but the excitement tends to wane over time. Eventually, affection and companionship are as (if not more) important as sex.
- True love requires total commitment. Love can grow only in the safety and security that monogamous commitment provides. Relatively early in dating, both partners should know and talk openly about whether the relationship has lasting potential.
MY BIGGEST CHALLENGE IS:
How do I protect the ones I love (and myself) from my intensity?
- Just as Leaders instinctively protect the ones they love from outside danger, they occasionally have to protect them from their own intensity. It helps to know my own strength. I often underestimate my charisma and the impact I have on people. I rarely have to raise my intensity to get their attention.
- Leaders are very industrious people, but it often comes at a cost to their loved ones. My family and friends can easily feel neglected. So I have to schedule time and give them at least the same level of priority I'd give an important work issue.
- I could actually use some of my own protection as well. I need time alone every day to collect my thoughts and relax. I also need affection and TLC, even though I rarely ask for it. Perhaps my intensity is a signal that I need to give TLC to myself in some way.
- While I'm taking care of myself, I may want to consider looking at these potential areas for improvement:
(1)I CAN BE VERY DEMANDING AND DIFFICULT TO BE AROUND AT TIMES. When people see I'm in an irritable mood, they probably head in the opposite direction. They know I'm ready to pick a fight. My challenge is noticing when these moods hit me and learning how to keep my reactions in check or warn others to leave me alone for a while.
(2)I HATE TO BE ALONE. My challenge is learning the difference between solitude and loneliness. I try scheduling a "date" with myself. Cook myself dinner or order take-out and pick out a great movie to watch by myself. When I spend all my free time with other people, I end up spending my time alone doing chores or dealing with problems. So I have to remind myself what great company I can be.
(3)I NEED A LOT OF STIMULATION. We all have to balance how much "stimulation" (or activity, thinking, and emotion) we can handle each day. If it's too little, we're bored; too much, and we're stressed. I need more stimulation than most women. If I don't have healthy outlets for this need, I'll find unhealthy ones. If this is a natural need, it's easier to plan ahead for how I can satisfy my need for excitement and adventure via hobbies and recreation.
JANUARY BABY....I (AM):
Very stubborn and hard-hearted.
Ambitious and serious.
Love to teach and be taught.
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses.
Like to criticize.
Hardworking and productive.
Smart, neat and organized.
Sensitive and have deep thoughts.
Know how to make others happy.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Rather reserved.
Highly attentive.
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.
Romantic but have difficulties expressing love.
Love children.
Loyal.
Have great social abilities yet easily jealous.
Money cautious.
BE SURE TO FEED NOSFERATU DURING YOUR VISIT...JUST CLICK ON HIM AND THEN ON 'MORE' TO SERVE HIM UP A TASTY TREAT...THANKS FOR CARING!!!
AND PLAY HANGMAN!!!
TODAY'S POEM:
We had the kind of night where morning comes too soon
We used the light from a flickering candle across the room
To make the king of shadows that only one thing could make…
LOVE
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TODAY'S THOUGHT:
BREATHING ROOM
Look back on your life up to this point and you'll quickly see that many of your worries and concerns were completely unfounded. So why do you still insist on cranking out those worries at every turn of events?
How many times have you looked back on an occasion with the regret that you didn't simply enjoy yourself? There's nothing you can do about those past regrets, but there's plenty you can do about right now.
It's ridiculously easy to enjoy life, no matter what the situation. It's just a matter of letting go.
Let go of the worry and anxiety, of the anger and envy, of the need to be right and the need to control everyone else. Let go of the need to have everything your way.
Underneath all those layers of need and worry and negativity, there is pure joy. When you simply accept what is, and choose to enjoy the goodness in it, life can be wonderfully rich and beautiful.
Stop worrying and fighting so much, and start enjoying a little more. Give joy some breathing room and it will flourish in your life. -R Marston
RARE FOOTAGE OF ME ON PIANO
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