{{R.I.P. DAJUAN STATEN}}
GONE, BUT NEVER EVER FORGOTTEN...
2 YEARS THIS SEPTEMEBER.. IT'S SO CRAZY!!
WHY CAN'T I STILL STOP CRYIN? BECAUSE THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER, OR EVEN ONE THAT CAN COME CLOSE. I TRY TO HAVE HOPE AND FAITH, BUT IT'S SO HARD WHEN IT FEELS LIKE THE ONLY PERSON IN THIS WORLD THAT LOVED ME MORE THAN ANYTHING IS JUST...GONE. JUST LIKE THAT. YES, I KNOW HE'S IN A BETTER PLACE IT'S TRUE. BUT WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE JUST TO AT LEAST HEAR HIM WHISPER MY NAME AGAIN... MAN, NOBODY UNDERSTANDS. NOBODY EVER WILL...HURT, SADNESS, SORROW, PAIN, LONELINESS, EMPTINESS, SUFFOCATION, MY OTHER HALF, A PIECE OF MY HEART, A PIECE OF MY SOUL, A MAJOR PART OF ME, AND MY DAUGHTER, AND OUR HAPPINESS, JUST TAKEN BEFORE I COULD EVEN GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO TRULY LIVE A WHOLESOME AND HAPPY/FUFILLING LIFE....
WOW...IT JUST FEELS LIKE BEING...LOST. AND NO ONE CAN EVER FIND YOU, CAUSE YOU CAN'T FIND YOURSELF.
IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT jUANNIe SWEETIE, I KNOW THIS. I KNOW THAT YOU WOULD NEVER, EVER LEAVE ME BY CHOICE. IT WAS GOD'S WILL, THIS IS FOR CERTAIN. YOU SEE YOUR PICTURE THAT SITS NEXT TO MY BED, FIRST THING I SEE WHEN I OPEN MY EYES.. AND THE LAST THING THAT I SEE BEFORE I CLOSE MY EYES.. IT'S BOTH YOU AND GOD THAT ARE SEEING ME THROUGH EVERYTHING, AND HOW DO I KNOW THAT? BECAUSE WHEN I FIND THAT THINGS MAY NOT SEEM RIGHT, OR THINGS GET A LITTLE TOO HARD.. YOU STILL COME TO MY RESCUE EVERY TIME, LIKE YOU ALWAYS USED TO!!! {{TRUE, REAL, GENUINE LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP :)}} NOT TO MANY PEOPLE CAN SAY THAT THEY HAVE EVER WITNESSED THIS TYPE OF LOVE, SO I CAN SAY THAT I AM TRULY BLESSED!!! THANK YOU GOD FOR ALLOWING ME TO BE GRACED BY THE PRESENCE OF ONE OF YOUR ANGELS. HE WAS HEAVEN SENT INDEED. EVERYTHING THAT A REAL MAN SHOULD BE. I ALWAYS LOVED YOU, I KNEW I WOULD THE FIRST DAY I MET YOU WHEN WE WERE TOO SHY TO TALK LIKE LITTLE SHCOOL KIDS :) THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME, AND SHOWING ME THAT I AM A TRULY BEAUTIFUL WOMAN WHO DESERVES NOTHING BUT THE BEST... LOVE YOU ALWAYS.... {{TEAIRRA}}
I miss him so much that I know I'll see him again one day. He was my best friend, and my love. We shared our secrets, our hearts, and our souls. He was the perfect man for me, and I know I was his queen. He asked me to marry him, and I couldn't wait to be his wife.
So, I just wanna let my man know how I feel about him since I didn't get a chance to talk to him the day that he passed away September 10, 2006. May he Rest In Peace.
DaJuan,
Words can't express the way I feel right know. I know that it wasn't your choice to leave us, and I know that God has a better plan for you, and that he needed you to come home. But, I'm missin you like crazy. I am honored to have met you, to have known you, and most honored to have loved you. You are a true angel, and I know that you are watching over me and the baby. You showed me how beautiful life could be, and how being in love with someone like you is a good thing. Just know that I always loved you and I always will.