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Jillian Grace

Scars are souvenirs you never lose. The past is never far.

About Me

I am just a little girl who finds hope in broken souls... I have all the time in the world, even when I am busy. I cannot sleep when it rains. I am not as comfortable with myself as I would like to be. I feel like i got lost somewhere in the middle. I am finally, genuninely proud of myself. I am too passive. I want to remember how it feels to be three-years-old, without a care in the world. I appreciate elegance and simplicity. I want to smile, laugh and live. I want to paint that look in someone's eyes, the look that says they wiill love me for a lifetime. I wish I was in love. I am afraid of staying alone. I take my independence for granted. I want to be honest with the world and with myself. I need security and harmony. I wish I knew where I stood in life. Still, even if I cannot know where I stand in life, I wish I had someone to stand next to; to hold my hand, hear my complaints and manage to still find something worth holding onto. I have moved on and away from so much of my life. Every door to the future keeps opening, slowly, but opening none-the-less, and I just wish I had someone to walk through those doors with me. I feel like I am running out of time. I don't know what for, I just feel very rushed. I go out of my way to please others because I remember when it hurt that no one did so for me. I love symmetry. A new pair of shoes could make my day, even my week, better. I am afraid that commitment may not even exist. I am indecisive and I have no idea what I want. I miss cuddling. I am always cold, especially when I am sleeping. I think I ask far too much of the world, and that would explain why I am often let down. I smile simply because I can, not because I want to, not because I am happy, but because my smiles may encourage others to do the same and even when you are not happy, that moment and that smile, makes you feel good. I am afraid of drastic changes. I am rapidly approaching life in the real world. I will be attending The College of New Jersey come September.

My Interests

poetry. reading. writing. journalism. music. acoustic. pink. wishes at 11:11. kisses on the forehead. new beginnings.

I'd like to meet:

someone who will open up my eyes.

Music:

the academy is . . . , acceptance, alanis morissette, the all-american rejects, fionna apple, armor for sleep, the ataris, backstreet boys, BEDlight for blueEYES, bleed the dream, blindside, blink 182, boys like girls, michelle branch, brand new, the calling, vanessa carlton, cartel, chiodos, dashboard confessional, dave melillo, die trying, dispatch, fall out boy, fatesgame, fire it up, the foo fighters, the format, from first to last, goo goo dolls, headautomatica, june, madonna, matchbox 20, matchbook romance, john mayer, my chemical romance, new found glory, no doubt, o-town, paramore, the red jumpsuit apparatus, rufio, saosin, senses fail, something corporate, the starting line, story of the year, straylight run, sugarcult, taking back sunday, third eye blind, thursday, the used, yellowcard

Movies:

beauty and the beast, the breakfast club, center stage, the craft, cruel intentions, the dead poets' society, empire records, girl interrupted, the lake house, the notebook, now and then, practical magic, pretty in pink, pretty woman, the pursuit of happyness, save the last dance, the secret garden, she's all that, sixteen candles, the skulls, ten things i hate about you, a walk to remember, without a paddle

Books:

I read a lot . . . the five people you meet in heaven. the great gatsby. summer and smoke.

Heroes:

mom.

My Blog

LiveJournal

I'm not ever going to blog on here. So if you're looking to hear my thoughts, or just hear about my day, visit the LiveJournal. http://eyesofgrace.livejournal.com...
Posted by Jillian Visceral.™ on Sat, 30 Sep 2006 10:57:00 PST