About Me
Long version: I recently have had some time to honestly try to answer this properly. There is no order, just things that have poured out of my head. I try to live life by the “bus ruleâ€. That is that if I was killed by a bus tomorrow that I lived it up today. I love that rule. I understand that the combination of this rule and the fact that I have no concept of money will hurt me one day, but it has lead me on some amazing journeys, experiences and friendships that can never be tagged with a monetary value. I am a scientist by heart and by nature. I analyze every situation and try to come up with a reason for its occurrence, in both my life and just in general. Because of this, I look for symbolism in everything. I just keep looking for the hidden meaning or missing piece. This makes me crave relationships that are simple. I love people that are blatant and straight up. I don’t want to be guessing about the people I love, I want them. I have been extremely blessed with some amazing friends. They are people that I can share my flaws with and they will never judge and just give the best advise, can read my voice when I’m having an “off†day and will make me laugh, are there through some of the shit this world brings (boys, bills, hate.. etc) and hold my hand, seen me laugh, sing and dance too loud, cry and vomit, tell me when my outfit or hair needs adjustment and mostly know how to have an amazing kick ass time. I am a rescuer and a healer. Sometimes I feel like I can save anything and anybody and nurse them back to help. I’m slowly learning this is not the case, but I can’t give up that nurturing part of me. I have small hands, but a big heart. I am horrible with compliments. The only ones that I can take and believe you are: eyes, smile and ass. I feel more complimented over actions (such as a good conversation or laughing at my jokes) than words. The other part is that in a lot of ways I’m still very insecure with me and just don’t believe it. I love affection and attention but have learned I don’t constantly need it. But bear in mind, I still claim to be one of the best huggers and snuggle/ cuddlers out there. That will never change. I love reptiles and strive to have jobs involved with them. They will always hold a special place in my heart for several reasons. I admire them for having to deal with cold blood everyday and still do what they have to do. I have some bizarre phobias and obsessions. I extremely despise condiments, ketchup being the worst. The smell, texture, the way it comes out, the sound of the bottle….etc. everything about it creeps me out. I am still searching for the underlying reason behind this. The newest one is straws. I have to have certain types of straws, depending on the type of the drink. . I could live off of pizza, pb&j, baked ziti, ice cream, sprite zero, carrots and fruit cups for the rest of my life and be happy. I have this awesome ability to talk to people. I can meet a complete stranger and end up having a half hour conversation. I love it but I feel bad for toll booth operators and telemarketers, they don’t expect it. I have three brothers. They have all become staples in my life. When you need a reality check and the absolute truth about something, get a brother. They have made me both tough and sensitive. Most of the boys that I have been attracted to are construction workers. The irony is I hate carhartt's. I love sarcasm and just don’t understand people that can’t laugh about everyday things. I am a dreamer and stubborn. I never give up or stop. Somehow or way, it’s possible, whatever “it†may be. ___________________________________________________________ Short version: sarcastic, snorter, lover, theme park enthusiast, herper, reader, sister of michael, mattthew and tommy, cuddler, mumblicious, wikipedia addicted, rescuer, diagional toed, bad story teller, imaginative, giggler, over pensive, dancer, trouble, sensitive, picky eater, trusting, libra, easy going, indecisive, napper, sociable, peaceable, affectionate, musical, stubborn, dreamer, heart, bohemian, italian, silly, guilt tripper, creative, light eyes, athletic, moocher, loud, rocky crazed, and not money orientated. ___________________________________________________________ ps. nothing of me is original. i am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known. (note: see below) ..
