Every about me I read always says pretty much the same thing. How old you are, how many kids you have, and whether you are married or not. Is that really about you? That is not what about me means to me. So here goes about me: I came into this world unwanted by my father. He beat my mother when he found out she was pregnant with me and said that I was not his. The rest of my childhood went pretty much the same way. I was unwanted by people at school, girls that I liked, and my family. I had a couple of girlfriends when I was in my late teens and early twenties, but nothing serious. Again I was unwanted. When I was 21 I started to work at Hardee's in Campbellsville. There I met this annoying little 17 year old girl named Beverly. She really got on my nerves. Somehow we became friends. I was in a relationship that thought I would be forever. As things turned out I was wrong. The girl I was dating broke my heart. Again I was unwanted. My new found friend, Beverly, was there for me to talk to and as I did so I discovered how sweet and beautiful she was. We started dating shortly there after. Her father did not like this at all. To make a long story short we ended up married. I had the sweetest wife in the world. She thought I was it. I mean she couldn't love me enough. She constantly wanted affection and to show me how much she loved me. I was not a good husband almost from the start. All of my life I was unwanted and yet when I had someone that wanted me and I did everything I could to destroy it. I loved her. I mean, man I love her. I just couldn't let it show or I would get hurt. I was horrible to her. HORRIBLE!!! So much so that it destroyed part of her sweetness. Last year, when I thought our marriage was going the best it ever had, there was an accident. We were on my Harley for an afternoon ride when we were hit by a car. That day my life changed. Drastically! My wife of then 16 years was gone. She passed away that day. I never got to see her again. I went to UofL to fight for my life. While there she was buried and I did not know she was gone. I had to have my left leg amputated below the knee and several other surgeries to repair what the accident had done. While in the hospital I was told that I must change. Not that I should or needed to, but MUST! Call me what you will but God told me this. I have done my best to do what God led me to do and I have changed. I realize what I lost that day and suffer ever day for how I treated her. I decided that I would never again treat a woman that way. The next woman would be my queen. I recently tried dating with little success. I did exactly as I said, she was my queen. I fell in love with her hard and now we are over. If it is my lot in life to be alone then so be it. Alone is where I will be. I still love her and want her and need her, but she is what I cannot have. She brought out the best in me. I have devoted my life to God in a new church. I have been a Mormon for years, but have not felt close to God for a long time. Tracy led me to Elkhorn Baptist and I could not be happier. I feel as though God is with me and loves me. This has been About Me.A little update: Tracy and I are back together again and hopefully for good this time. I am very grateful to have her back in my life.
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