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chloe

I am here for Dating, Friends and Networking

About Me

Over 33 and feeling it. Ballet dancer for 14 years, drug abuse...major drug abuse for 6 years, pornstar for 9 years...all overlapping by one year or so. Now, kinda in limbo...had tough year in 2004, broken back, spinal fusion surgery...lots of physical, mental, and emotional pain. Mostly physical. Lost pretty much everything...but I expect to bounce back...always do. Just need to get rid of some negative influences surrounding me at the moment. And I finally did...so it's all good now. I mean, what's the worst that can happen??? We die..and that's inevitable anyways. I guess my personality is dark, but have dry sense of humor that runs through it. Very high Highs, very low Lows. Extremist to the core...no inbetween for me. It's always been all or nothing. That's about it. Except for one more thing that came to me today, the 10 of October...when I am done with something, or someone...I can easily turn and walk away without looking back...if I may quote G n R's Rocket Queen "I can turn on anyone, just like I turned on you...tongue like a razor...etc". But only if they fuck with me first...even if they truly believe they're in the right. Wrong.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Nobody really. Well, I mean...I like to watch people and try to figure them out. Pretty good at it. But I'd like to meet REAL people. Not the surface personalities that so many people in Los Angeles seem to have adopted for themselves. For instance, if someone tells me they are insecure, I expect them to be somewhat insecure, but willing to work on changing that...and if after a year and a half, the insecurity has gotten worse, and add paranoia to that...it seems that they might have falsely advertised themselves to me in the beginning. And so I find that I have been dealing wiith a surface person from the start. I don't like surprises when it comes to personalities. I don't like false fronts. I like people who are not afraid to be themselves and don't give a damn about what other people think. And there seem to be very few of those in LA. Like how many people standing in front of the Roxy on a Monday night smoking their lungs out are really gonna care about two people having it out verbally? And quite honestly...who really gives a shit? The average attention span around here is like three minutes....especially if you've been drinking and coking all night. Sometimes emotionally charged backed up words just need to vent when they need to vent...it happens to the best of us, right? And also some of the worst of us.... I can't wait to get out of this town....again. This time, nothing, and I mean NOTHING will get me to come back.

My Blog

ohh... the deceit is fabulous!!!!

I just finished the longest blog I've ever written, and when I went to post...it simply disappeared...so maybe it was divine intervention...or karma. Which is fine, cause I don't give a shit about ei...
Posted by on Tue, 07 Feb 2006 06:40:00 GMT

war?

whatever again..it'ss always funny when someone that cannot touch you tells you that you're in for "it"...whatever that means, and that they are going to bring you down. Oh, and that you'll be sorrry...
Posted by on Tue, 14 Jun 2005 08:50:00 GMT

very very very uptight

And its early in the am...I haven't slept...bad insomnia mixed with other bad ingredients. I can't stop shaking...that sounds like lyrics from a Cure song...cool. I wish I could rewind the past 9 mo...
Posted by on Tue, 24 May 2005 05:34:00 GMT

what now????

Jeez, what the fuck did I do now? Even when I sleep I manage to piss people off. I think his insanity has reached me and I'm the one going insane. Need beer, need c, need to know what I did wrong. ...
Posted by on Mon, 23 May 2005 19:45:00 GMT

hey baby, no more lies..hey hey baby, this is the BIG GOODBYE

There's a song by Y n' T, if that's not dating myself too bad, called I Believe In You...and I just wish for once in my fucking life, with the exception of Ira, that someone had said that to me. Inst...
Posted by on Fri, 20 May 2005 16:09:00 GMT

Bullshit questions...bullshit assumptions...bullshit accusations.

I hate being asked the same questions over and over again. I feel like I'm going insane. And I don't like other people asking questions about me that are personal and shouldn't be answered by anyone...
Posted by on Fri, 13 May 2005 08:54:00 GMT