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I live in grassvalley. probably the only cool things about grassvalley is the name,how close it is to severel rivers in the summer, and the fact that i live here, no im not really that concided. Grassvalley is a boring little town, with ABSOLUTELY nothing fun to do for most everyone who lives here.we don't have a mall and we don't have a real arcade and we don't even have a denny's anymore. what we do have is " a great view". it's funny to me when you meet someone from somewhere else, and you say "ya i'm from grassvalley" then if they've never heard of it they laugh and say " oh you live on 420 high st grassvalley hahaha, sure ya do" or if they have ever been through here they so " oh, it's nice there, i love the view." and i'm thinking ya but if you sneeze while driving through this tinny ass town you will miss it all.oh, and everyone will know about it!! if you are from grass valley then you know that one of the highlights of the day is to get our local paper and read the police blotter and see how many people you know who are in it, if you're in it, and what else happened. our fire department will still come out and get your cat out of a tree and the newspaper will report it in full the next day. in the summer, life in grassvalley is better. most people go to one of the many popular river spots, china damn, mushroom hole,perdon's, or edward's crossing, north fork, south fork...and some of these places are nice but you have to be willing to see old naked hippies lying on a rock in full view to you and any one who might be passing by. i must admit the first time it was a little shocking but now i have come acustomed to naked people floating by as i enjoy a pinic lunch on the bank of the beautiful river. i wonder how i'm going to explain this to my daughter when she askes me " mommy where's that guy's swim-suit" actually most all the children go to oregon creek, which would be nice but it's becoming a toilet.(this bumms me out cuz i really do love nature) people just leave trash and there are like 500 kids there almost every time, screaming children, irrate mothers, and drunk fathers all pissing in the same slow moving part of the river. this is why it's an ideal place to take children.

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i do have the most beautiful daughter who is the highlight of my life. she is a sweet little 3 year old. i enjoy being her mother and most of all i enjoy just being around her. everyday she learnes something new and it truly is exciting to see her overcome a small challenge and build confedence in herself. she is so cute and also such an insparation to me. she inspired me to become involed with children as a carrer.i love to go spend time with her and all the kids that go to her daycare!! she has big blue eyes and long eyelashes like me and she has soft curly brown hair. no one will ever come before her in my life, and absoulutely NOBODY will ever come between us, so don't even try!! she is like a little doll. she makes me want to go back to school and learn. i want to be the best person for her and so right now im going to college and that's really a positive thing in my life. i love to learn new things and have new experiences. i don't get to go out much because i'm a single mother, but when i do, i love to cut loose and have a great time.i like all diffrent kinds of music and i also enjoy all kinds of people. i've been told that i am a good listener and that i have good advise to give. i think that this is because of all the sincerly crazy things i've been through in my life. it's been a wild ride, but for now i'm in a mellow section of it and it's nice.i moved around alot as a smaller kid and i've lived in grassvalley longer than any other place i've lived, 9 years. i think this town is boring but it has made itself home for me...sometimes that sucks. i don't know if i could move away because i have family here now. i don't know what i want to do when i "grow up" but what ever it is will make me happy or i won't do it.i think that most people waste their life doing things they despise when they should be enjoying the short time that we have on this beautiful earth. it doesn't make sense to me to that a person would hate their life just to have money. i do understand that sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do, but what you truly gotta do is enjoy your life, that's the whole point. if life is not enjoyed then it is a waste. you should be happy to live in your world, if you are not then something has got to change. things are always changing, we change all the time, so does the earth and everything in it. nothing in this world is constant except for change. people fear change, and therefore deny the fact that they've changed, they'd rather say that everbody else has changed instead.it so much easyier to piont fingrs at others than admit fault, people have become blind to their own selfs, WAKE UP and be who you are!!!! i also belive that we go through rough times so that when somthing truly good rolls into your life you will know how to recignize it and hold on to it. don't ever let go of something you love, ever!! if you had never felt love you would never feel a heart break, and if you never felt trust you wouldn't know when you were being decived. if you didn't care then you wouldn't feel it hurt. it's important that people can recognize this. many people ask why does it hurt so bad, after a painful experience. it's because it felt so good before.if it hadn't mattered then, it wouldn't matter now. i hope that something good will roll in my life about now because i am ready to hold on to it and my life is boring, but i have confedence that it will get better, one day...s.t.i.l.l. w.a.i.t.i.n.g....-->
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Glitter Graphics i like to make new friends everyday if possible.i think that i tend to be a better friend to others than they are to me...this usually results in being used by people i care about and trust. an ideal friend to me is someone you can trust with all your secrets. a friend is also someone who likes you for who you are on the inside.a friend takes your side, because they got your back, and you always take theirs, no matter what. a friend always knows when you are "faking it" and not being true to yourself, for they know who you really are on the inside; and true friend is one who will come right out and tell you they think so. a true friend never lies to you, or leads you to belive something that is untrue. a friend would never betray you and stab you in the back. friends are valuble and friendships should not be fragil. a friend will help you out whenever they can, and a friend will always come through for you, but a friendship can't be based on what one does for the other, rather it should be based on how much you value that person in your life. I value my real friends!

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one day i hope to meet "mr.right". i always seem to end up with "mr wrong" no matter how "right " i thought he was, sooner or later " mr.wrong" rears his ugly head and says " oh, sorry, i'm really an asshole in disguise" lets just say I've been hurt more time over and over....this might explain some of the bitterness i feel towards dating...but still i try...just incase there really is someone out there for me.lately i feel like ive been setting myself up to be let down. it sux, but i know one day i'll meet him, who ever he is.if i had to say, my "mr. right" would be someone with the same qualities as a friend. i could tell them anything and everything without fear of being judged by it. someone who has respect for my opinions, because i have some strong ones, but even if we don't see eye to eye, it's okay to agree to disagree. attentive and fun in bed, and This man would have to be occasionally romantic but not over doing it, otherwise it's a turn off. Mr. right would have to be intelligent. i need stimulating conversation once in a while or i get bored.i need someone to listen to me, who cares. he would also be funny, and enjoy life.... i'm looking for someone who want's to go see the world and all the beautiful things it has to offer. someone who loves me no matter what.someone i can love no matter what. someone who wants to snuggle me all night and laugh and have a good time. someone who is responsable and respectfull in their actions towards me and others around them.i hate it when guys try to impress girls by being asshole's to others..i also don't believe in love at first sight. (actually i don't see well from far away, maybe this something to do with it.) i think that it takes time to love someone for the right reasons, reasons that matter and will last anyway. i think that it's important to get to know someone for who they really truly are before you "hook up." otherwise you might end up with an asshole as i have several times in the past. but i truly think that it's important to maintain your own identity and be who you are.there are to many people out there try to change themselfs for others or they try to change others to themselfs. i think that this is very wrong. your mate should love you for who you are and what you do and what you are all about. how much they care about you should have nothing to do with "what they gave up for you", because then they gave up themselfs, and that was who you are really attracted to in the first place. if you have to change, or change someone to be with them, then you will never be happy, and only pain will ensue.there are many other things that i could say here... i guess the truth is what we all want is exactly the same, someone who you want to share your life with, day in and day out,for ever and ever, who doesn't make you crazy in a bad way.
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Posted by on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 11:08:00 GMT

some shit never goes away

if every molment could be labled, then what would you call this one? my heart sinks like a battle ship id rather vomit then put up with this bullshit the voice of reason screams in my ear,  ...
Posted by on Sat, 02 Aug 2008 05:26:00 GMT

wish bone

if i had one wish left id use it on you i will always wish for your dreams to come true i wish i may i wish i might i wish i had gotten something right when i wish upon a star i wish that you nev...
Posted by on Sun, 06 Jul 2008 21:21:00 GMT

don't let the things you love in life slip away

regreting is something i have never really beleived in. i've always felt that the things we do make up who we are and we can't change that, so don't trip off of it. it's a waste of time because y...
Posted by on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 11:51:00 GMT

i am myself already

i don't need anyone to make me whole,  i am myself already.i don't need anyone to look after my soul, i can see myself already.i don't need anyone to hold me close, i can hold myself already.i ...
Posted by on Sun, 24 Dec 2006 00:30:00 GMT

poem's i wrote a long time ago when i was depressed

The following poems were writin by me a long time ago. i had gotten dumped by a guy i thought i was going to be with forever. it was a hard time, and writing was my main tool to get out my feelings.&n...
Posted by on Sun, 26 Nov 2006 14:37:00 GMT

the secret to life- a short essay by me

Orange's and yellow's stain the sky like spilled paint on a giant canvas. The tired sun sinks slowly behind the hills as the silver moon climbs to claim its throne in the star filled night sky. The ru...
Posted by on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 17:19:00 GMT

the most awsome birthday present

today at school things didn't go well. english was rough and i'm sure the instructor hates me. i was so mad i started walking home and decided that i might drop the class. yesterday was my birthday an...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Oct 2006 22:31:00 GMT

today was a shity day

last night my cat got hit by a car. i loved this kitty so much and i feel very bummed. when i first found out i was going to be a mother, this kitten came into my life.her name was Owie. she slep...
Posted by on Tue, 26 Sep 2006 01:58:00 GMT

9/24

just got back from sacto.... i should be doing my homework, but i'd rather procrastanate a little longer. funny how easy it is to do when somthing else really needs to get done.
Posted by on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 19:13:00 GMT