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♥Sweet Serenity♥

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About Me


ALL ABOUT ENIDHmmm, All about me huh? Well, lets see. I'm a YaYa, and if ya wanna know what that means, HIT ME UP! OKAY, here goes, WELL, I love being me. I love my life. I live by my mantra of ~NO EXCUSES NO REGRETS~ I live my life to the fullest trying everything at least once. I have the three best babies in the universe. Heatherskye (18) {I started so young, she's more mom than me}, Jesse James (15) & Mykaylah Rose, (10). We're 4 against the world. I love ink and getting inked. Pretty people are my down fall. I'm a fire sign & I love a person who can start & keep this fire burnin hot.
I still don't know what I wanna be when I grow up...I've been thru HEAVEN & HELL with a recent relationship...do i love him? sure, of course I do, to the moon and back...more than life, but...he went back hardcore to meth...gave me up for a old lover (dope)...fucked off our future and is now locked up...RECOVERY brings many blessings, in many disguises; it seperates the little girls from the grown women and the baby boys from the men...When you have a relationship from your addiction, things change when you get sober...as soon as you are outta that drug induced fog that clouds all, you start (if you're serious) to grow, change & evolve into this butterfly who is ready to take on the world and face life on life's terms...you're just not willing to settle anymore...there is more to life than love...more to it then just love for loves sake...I know I want someone who is ready to give to their recovery all that they gave to their addiction...i want to get what i am willing to give to someone else...I'm tired of jealousy, control, being told I'm cheating, i think it's shitty to lie to me about how you still drink or how you're not gonna tell me you're hanging out with tweakers and that junkie, prostitute ex of yours...trippin on who I'm texting, talking to at work or what I'm doin on myspace...ya know what I mean? I don't think it's okay to go run amuck telling me you're lookin for work ON YOUR BIKE! Come on now, I may be an ex junkie but I aint stupid...I can't be around you if you use...bottom line, I might love you to death but I love me too...I want someone who thinks and feels like me...someone who trusts me and has faith in me, someone who is proud of me...proud I belong to him...someone who has faith in me and my new self...like i feel for him..I have boundaries and rules, I WANT RECOVERY, TRUTH, HONESTY, FIRE, SERENITY and the sweet knowledge of knowing that I am doing the very best that I can do...I deserve this...yeah, I'm wild & crazy, but real, loyal & giving...I want more in life than I've got & I'm willing to work my ass off to get it...and I got kids to support, i dont want to support you too...I don't put chemicals of any kind into my body...
I am an ARYAN Princess and hope to be treated as such...that isn't a racist thing either, I am who I am...yep, that's me... I want someone to engulf me body & soul, take me to heaven with the heat of hell...I want a soul mate to match me stroke for stroke, breath for breath... I love punk rock...I have more guy friends than girlfriends, go figure, girls hate me! Red vines, gummy bears, lobster and coffee are my foods of choice & my fave color is green, yeah, that's right-always representin! I tend to be too honest, very blunt in fact. It takes alot to piss me off but when you do, watch out. Pretty much I'm very happy and positive, why stress? Whatever's gonna happen is gonna happen anyhow.
I love the energy of the night. I love to people watch & I'll talk to anyone. I'm touchy/feely, I'm a free spirit, a free bird you shouldn't try to tame or cage. Oh, and about the bi thing? I don't consider myself bi...I hate titles, I just don't agree with liking one or the other...It cuts my choices & chances in half at finding my soul mate...
Things I love & that make me, well, ME are...passion, a hot tattooed man who is bad ass...making out, my hair to be pulled...being called Babygirl or Peaches....the look & meaning of white roses...the smell of gardenias & jasmine... the kiss of a sensual woman...sexy mouths...eye contact that makes me weak kneed...the smell of peaches (damn, it turns me on)...standing in the cold rain naked...being comfortable in my skin...my calves massaged...bruises & bites from my lover...fires at the beach... Pet peeves and things I dislike...liars...fatmouths...bad dads...TWEEKERS...men who screw anything & everything...(yeah, I'm an old fashioned girl, I wanna be the only one who rocks your world, I want it special, not just the same ole sex) fakes...game players...cheaters...unreal people...drug addicts...people who give you up for their own gain...
LATEST NEWS
after a 6 month stint in rehab I have decided being sober isn't enuf...recovery is where it's at...I lost everything important due to an intense drug addiction so RiotGirl is now living the clean & sober life...Yep, sigh, not even a Corona...got my life back, my hope back, respect & my family back...thank god...it's been a tough & lonely road...the things i was seeing and doing? Damn...i have a friend doing 10 yrs for the shit...i just didn't get caught. I'm here by the grace of god and the love of my family...there's always hope if you surrender...AS OF 7/21/09...I HAVE 2 years CLEAN & SERENE!
GOD...GRANT ME THE SERENITY...TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE...THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN...AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE...






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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

THE ONE WHO WILL ROCK MY WORLD...the one who comes thru with promises... the one who'll hold me while I cry and kiss my tears away...the guy who won't give me up for dope...put me in a bad position or forget me cuz he's high...the one who can make me melt with a single kiss

My Blog

To a drug addicted mom, that mom was me....

they know....don't fool yourself....you aren't just hurting yourself....MAMA,I just don't understand. I don't understand how there is one thing you have to do to get your babies back, and you refuse t...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Nov 2009 21:42:00 GMT

to my babies with love

TO MY FIRST BORN, HEATHERSKYE...I've always loved you best because you were my first miracle. You were the genesis of a marriage...the fulfillment of young love, the promise of my infinity. You sustai...
Posted by on Mon, 26 Oct 2009 22:09:00 GMT

again...IT'S ONLY ME

They say the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away Well it was definitely gone when I woke up today I walked up to the mirror to see It's only me I got out of the kitchen I couldn't stand the heat Back...
Posted by on Tue, 02 Jun 2009 13:58:00 GMT

Sweet Redemption

  A life almost wasted A soul twisted and used Time I can't get back The precious things I have abused. People I have stepped on Hearts I've broke in two Futures I have ruined Is hell w...
Posted by on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 02:23:00 GMT

contemplation

Girls like me... You'll either hate me or learn to love me Despise who I am while wishing to be me Or accept me for being the free spirit that I am... Girls like me...  Break the mold  D...
Posted by on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 02:10:00 GMT

Please do this for me...

i would really like everyone to fill this out!!!! 1. Who are you?2. Are we friends?3. When and how did we meet?4. How ha...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Mar 2008 21:50:00 GMT

a little something for a wounded soul

sent to me from a friend...it means more than he'll ever know... "Ecstasia" Written By Franchesca Liablock "If I were a needle I'd pull love into your veins If I were a needle I'd take away the pain I...
Posted by on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 21:50:00 GMT

BOGUS CHRISTIANITY

Bogus Christianity  They call it life SOCIETYI say its hell CALAMITYThey fuck up whats real inside of me ..Making me miserable-REALITY.I choke on their beliefs as they rip out of meBleeding & raw, the...
Posted by on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 14:47:00 GMT

Winds of Change

For all the friends i've lost...the ones not strong enuf to hold on a little longer...always remembered...never forgotten...     Pretty girl, lovely face Past so heavy, time can't erase... S...
Posted by on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 09:13:00 GMT

~To Have You~

If only I could touch you, deep into the nite... If only I could breathe you, the universe would be set right... Can't you hear my call to you? Feel me deep beneath your skin? Darlin, you know I'm the...
Posted by on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 08:48:00 GMT