ALL ABOUT ENIDHmmm, All about me huh? Well, lets see. I'm a YaYa, and if ya wanna know what that means, HIT ME UP! OKAY, here goes, WELL, I love being me. I love my life. I live by my mantra of ~NO EXCUSES NO REGRETS~ I live my life to the fullest trying everything at least once. I have the three best babies in the universe. Heatherskye (18) {I started so young, she's more mom than me}, Jesse James (15) & Mykaylah Rose, (10). We're 4 against the world. I love ink and getting inked. Pretty people are my down fall. I'm a fire sign & I love a person who can start & keep this fire burnin hot.
I still don't know what I wanna be when I grow up...I've been thru HEAVEN & HELL with a recent relationship...do i love him? sure, of course I do, to the moon and back...more than life, but...he went back hardcore to meth...gave me up for a old lover (dope)...fucked off our future and is now locked up...RECOVERY brings many blessings, in many disguises; it seperates the little girls from the grown women and the baby boys from the men...When you have a relationship from your addiction, things change when you get sober...as soon as you are outta that drug induced fog that clouds all, you start (if you're serious) to grow, change & evolve into this butterfly who is ready to take on the world and face life on life's terms...you're just not willing to settle anymore...there is more to life than love...more to it then just love for loves sake...I know I want someone who is ready to give to their recovery all that they gave to their addiction...i want to get what i am willing to give to someone else...I'm tired of jealousy, control, being told I'm cheating, i think it's shitty to lie to me about how you still drink or how you're not gonna tell me you're hanging out with tweakers and that junkie, prostitute ex of yours...trippin on who I'm texting, talking to at work or what I'm doin on myspace...ya know what I mean? I don't think it's okay to go run amuck telling me you're lookin for work ON YOUR BIKE! Come on now, I may be an ex junkie but I aint stupid...I can't be around you if you use...bottom line, I might love you to death but I love me too...I want someone who thinks and feels like me...someone who trusts me and has faith in me, someone who is proud of me...proud I belong to him...someone who has faith in me and my new self...like i feel for him..I have boundaries and rules, I WANT RECOVERY, TRUTH, HONESTY, FIRE, SERENITY and the sweet knowledge of knowing that I am doing the very best that I can do...I deserve this...yeah, I'm wild & crazy, but real, loyal & giving...I want more in life than I've got & I'm willing to work my ass off to get it...and I got kids to support, i dont want to support you too...I don't put chemicals of any kind into my body...
I am an ARYAN Princess and hope to be treated as such...that isn't a racist thing either, I am who I am...yep, that's me... I want someone to engulf me body & soul, take me to heaven with the heat of hell...I want a soul mate to match me stroke for stroke, breath for breath... I love punk rock...I have more guy friends than girlfriends, go figure, girls hate me! Red vines, gummy bears, lobster and coffee are my foods of choice & my fave color is green, yeah, that's right-always representin! I tend to be too honest, very blunt in fact. It takes alot to piss me off but when you do, watch out. Pretty much I'm very happy and positive, why stress? Whatever's gonna happen is gonna happen anyhow.
I love the energy of the night. I love to people watch & I'll talk to anyone. I'm touchy/feely, I'm a free spirit, a free bird you shouldn't try to tame or cage. Oh, and about the bi thing? I don't consider myself bi...I hate titles, I just don't agree with liking one or the other...It cuts my choices & chances in half at finding my soul mate...
Things I love & that make me, well, ME are...passion, a hot tattooed man who is bad ass...making out, my hair to be pulled...being called Babygirl or Peaches....the look & meaning of white roses...the smell of gardenias & jasmine... the kiss of a sensual woman...sexy mouths...eye contact that makes me weak kneed...the smell of peaches (damn, it turns me on)...standing in the cold rain naked...being comfortable in my skin...my calves massaged...bruises & bites from my lover...fires at the beach... Pet peeves and things I dislike...liars...fatmouths...bad dads...TWEEKERS...men who screw anything & everything...(yeah, I'm an old fashioned girl, I wanna be the only one who rocks your world, I want it special, not just the same ole sex) fakes...game players...cheaters...unreal people...drug addicts...people who give you up for their own gain...
LATEST NEWS
after a 6 month stint in rehab I have decided being sober isn't enuf...recovery is where it's at...I lost everything important due to an intense drug addiction so RiotGirl is now living the clean & sober life...Yep, sigh, not even a Corona...got my life back, my hope back, respect & my family back...thank god...it's been a tough & lonely road...the things i was seeing and doing? Damn...i have a friend doing 10 yrs for the shit...i just didn't get caught. I'm here by the grace of god and the love of my family...there's always hope if you surrender...AS OF 7/21/09...I HAVE 2 years CLEAN & SERENE!
GOD...GRANT ME THE SERENITY...TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE...THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN...AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE...