About Me
. Cym . Alice .
Would you like some tea with your rape?.
You can judge me if you want. I don't care what you think anyways.
I'm happy with who I am And if someone doesn't like it...
It's really not my problem.
Don't ever change who you are.
Those who mind don't matter, those who matter don't mind.
-Story of the Ju-
It was in Febuary 2005, I was in grade 11, semester two had just started and I was bored so i decided to go down to the cafe and see who had this lunch. So i made my way down, I went to visit Karen at the table she was at. There was another little girl there, she was introduced to me as Juju at the time. Ju had a binder with clear plastic. It had a picture of Dir en grey on it. I was very excited to see that someone liked the same music as I did. I was obsessed with Kyo. She pointed out Kyo on her binder, but she was incorrect, she pointed out the wrong member, I told her which one Kyo really was. She was still new at this time.
Back then we still used AsianAvenue, when it wasn't as messed up. She found me and signed my guestbook. We had conversations that way till we added each other on MSN, where she always initiated conversations. We also saw each other after school alot. I expanded her Visual Kei horizon, I was her Magical VK Fairy. She didn't seem to want hugs from me very much, but like I cared, her shirt even told me to hug her and so I did, all the time. Gradually she became accusmtomed to this and now she is upset if I refuse to hug her. She's become more affectionate and perverted thanks to me. *go me*
I really didn't think much of our friendship back then. I knew a lot of people but I wasn't very close to people, I find it hard to open myself to people. Ju never stopped following me and talking to me, she was like a stalker. I didn't think it would last long. But she still does it to this day. She tells me how much I have impacted her life and how I have changed her. But I never really know how to express myself to her or I just don't really think about telling her. But she's always been there for me. She really has. She is that friend for me who I can call at 4 in the morning if i want to. She wakes up at 5 in the morning to come to work with me. And I would not think twice about doing the same for her, I'd be more than willing. I never really know how to express how much I really love her. I don't think I ever will be able to show her how much I love her. I tell her those simple words all the time, I spoil her whenever I can, I take her to get things done. I make her pizza fro breakfast, cook perfect chicken nuggets, feed her a burger with chopsticks. I tell her whatever she wants to know, I share my life with her. But it still feels like I'm neglecting her, nothing I do seems to be enough. She doesn't ask for much if anything at all, but I always have that feeling of not being good enough for her. I miss her very much. I miss her all the time. I miss her even when she's right next to me. I wish she was here with me right now. I wish she were with me all the time.
She's someone I will never let go of. She means too much to leave for anything this world could offer me. Ju is so special to me and she knows it. Other people know it. It's hard to find someone you can bond with so well. Most people don't ever find what we have, and there have been people who are jealous. We've developed so much together. We've found ourselves from being around each other, we've changed ourselves for the better. Don't forget me Ju!
Quit your life and stay with me.
