About Me
Yo! I'm 8-Bit Adam, welcome to my page. I'm a Sagittarius, born December 8th, 1983, in Boston, Massachusetts. I moved to south Florida in 1996 and have lived here ever since. I'm a bit of a loner, but not by choice. I'm a graphic artist and lead singer of the band Bleeding Dream. I sometimes have difficulty communicating with others and have taken to expressing myself through my songs (several of which can be found below and in my blog) and my artwork. I specialize in drawing the soft curves of the female body, and am always looking for new models to sketch. You can always find me at Noble's bar on Wednesday nights, and the Draft House on Sundays.
"UNGENESIS"
I am addicted to pain self-inflicted
Committed to kick it but too afflicted to fix it
It's self-contradictive, I feel like a victim
Shut tight in a system that is cold and constrictive
At times I'm the slave and at times I'm the mastermind
Sometimes the architect, sometimes the passerby
Some days I see vividly, while others I'm colorblind
Can somebody save me? I'm losing my mind!
My dream made flesh, my wish come true
Will not accept, will not approve
My only prayer: just see I'm here
Before the day I tear myself apart
Breakout, suffocate, meltdown, tear away
Wanna see your face once more before the day I dissipate
But I'm ashamed, enslaved by your disdain...
Feeling pain, dissapointment, and bitter resentment
While I slowly die in the guise of acceptance
I'm just a monster, nobody wants me
I've nothing to offer, I'll never be free
To find liberation from life's limitations
Some shred of salvation from this fucking starvation
I sought elevation but failed expectations
Laid a faulty foundation stained with wrist lacerations
I'm in over my head, I can't take any more
I've been thrown in the deep end, I'm so insecure
If you don't abhor me tell me why you ignore me
All my hope has eroded, I'm too weak to endure
My dream made flesh, my wish come true
Could not care less, I can't break through
All I require, my one desire
Lit the pyre under my broken heart
Backlash, immolate, burnt to dust, erased
Need to see your face once more before my soul incinerates
But the weight, the burden of your hate...
Leaves me gasping for breath as I'm flailing and drowning
I'm king of the losers, oh, and this is my crowning
Yeah, I must be a monster, 'cause nobody wants to
Offer me opportunities I know I deserve
If only I'd acted before getting this bad
Instead I've only subtracted from what little I had
This bleeding dream is my last chance at happiness
One last attempt to scream the thoughts I can't express
I'll gather everything I am up from my heart of sorrow
I'll turn around because where this road leads there's no tommorrow
I'll return a millionfold the spirit strength I've sapped and borrowed
I'll find some comfort and some solace despite life so hollow
I'll gather everything I am up from my heart of sorrow
I'll turn around because where this road leads there's no tommorrow
I'll return a millionfold the spirit strength I've sapped and borrowed
FROM THIS DAY FORTH I LIVE MY LIFE AS IF THERE'S NO TOMMORROW!
And when all's said and done, it comes back down to a choosing
Do I take refuge or stand and just take the bruising?
To be the abused or not to be abusing?
This all ends today, I'm sick and tired of losing
My dream made flesh, my wish come true
You don't accept, you don't approve
My dream made flesh, my wish come true
You're not impressed, you're not amused
My dream made flesh, my wish come true
Go on, reject me, I see through
My dream made flesh, my wish come true
Can I protect my heart from you?
"SUNGODDESS"
I don't know how I let this begin
Baby, before I knew, you grew under my skin
And I've wasted your time, and I'm alone again
But I will wait forever if you'll ever let me in
You want me to be happy
Independant, strong
Well, I can't help it, I'm too selfish
I've been helpless for too long
I apologize
For getting attached so easily
To anyone or anything
That I pretend believes in me
The closer I come, the brighter you burn
But sadly, I've already learned
Flights on wax wings are destined to turn
For the worst as you burst into flame
I don't know how I let this begin
Baby, before I knew, you grew under my skin
I've wasted so much time, I am alone again
Now if I wait forever will you ever let me in?
You want an explanation?
How'd I get this way?
Immolation, confrontation
Frustration from being pushed away
And I apologize
I'm not man enough to meet your needs
You'd rather suffer with another
Than take a chance and dance with me
The faster I fly, the harder I fall
And sadly, I don't know at all
How can I slow down? How can I stall
When the wall is calling my name?
I don't know how I let this begin
Baby, before I knew, you grew under my skin
And I've wasted your time, and I'm alone again
Now I will wait forever, will you ever let me in?
Guess there's no goddess to save me...
The higher I fly, the harder I fall
And sadly, I don't know at all
How can I slow down? How can I stall
When the wall is calling my name?
The closer I come, the brighter you burn
But sadly, I've already learned
Flights on wax wings are destined to turn
For the worst as you burst into flame
And there's no goddess to save me
Plummet to depths that engulf and erase me
Fear could have steered me away to my safety
But instead I'm face to face with my fate
"TOXIN"
So I'm not good enough for you
And there is nothing I can do
And there's no way to change your mind
This was a monumental waste of time
You sucked me dry and left me for dead
There's a forboding inside my head
I hear the gears all grinding teeth
I taste the succulence of grief
It's toxic like a plague
Incredibly vivid, impossibly vague
I'm lovesick and sick of you
Tired of the torment you put me through
I met rejection today firsthand
My knees are shaking and I can't stand
Before your pity sears my eyes
All of your enmity severs ties
Am I a coward for being kind?
Am I so foolish or simply blind?
Catch my breath, compose, rewind
This ain't the destiny I designed
It's toxic like a face
From years ago that I cannot place
I'm lovesick and sick of you
Sick of the bullshit you subject me to
You think you're so superior
You're as misunderstood as me
That shallow, false exterior
Makes you think that you're too good for me
So keep thinking you're invincible
You're just as miserable as I
Treat me like I'm invisible
Keep thinking that I'm finite
"REIGNITE"
She was my life, my light, my hope, my dream, my little world inside
Transcribed my soul to notes she'd crumple up and cast aside
A part of me I couldn't bear to be without
We'd be making beautiful music if she'd given me the benefit of doubt
The second wound but the only one that scarred
I am bitter, I am lonely, I am violently charged
If I cannot love another then I'll never love myself
What does it matter when my misery's my wealth?
Ashes in the wake of conflagration
I can't change my feelings because you said no
Dying from the pain of separation
This vice will never loosen, and I'll never let you go
Forging foundations for another life to die
While contemplating every failure wondering why I'd even bothered trying
To distract myself once more I turn to love
And just as swiftly as before my heart is crushed
Damning me to endless execution
Closing up the holes with new delusions
Trying anything and everything to soothe inside
It's only when I'm sober that I cry
I can't remember what I'm searching for
Somehow I've opened up destruction's door
How do you bury your worst memory?
Self-mutilation is the key
Ashes in the wake of conflagration
I can't hide my feelings because you said no
Dying from the pain of seperation
This vice will never loosen and I'll never let you go
Broke the promise to myself
Just forget
Fossils, tragic by design
Shining eyes
A smile that invites
An ember clings to breathing
An ember reignites
Ashes in the wake of conflagration
Your soul is my salve and my salvation
Dying from the pain of separation
Your soul is my salve and my salvation!
Now I remember what I'm fighting for
Spirit ablaze, I feel my heart reborn
Now comes the time to write our prophecy
Communication, not self-mutilation is the key
"CASTACIDE"
I cannot rest until we dream in unison
I cannot dream until I've played the game
I cannot find myself or my solution
Only the mystery that flourishes in flame
I don't know your thoughts
I know you can read mine
Let me love you now because
I'm running out of time
Harden not your heart to me
So I can show you how
I will give you all of me
The moment I'm allowed
Cast me not aside
Without rhyme or reason
All I need's a season
To show you what I'm worth
Let me test my mettle
Thrash against the threshold
Calling for redemption as I'm
Falling towards rebirth
So much to say that I could never vocalize
So much to show though I am frozen when you're near
So much, I need your touch, I won't be paralyzed
With nothing left to lose, I've nothing left to fear
Stumbling and fumbling
The first steps on this road
Beating heart's a bleeding bomb
My feelings now explode
Still I don't know your thoughts
I know you can read mine
Let me love you now
Before we both run out of time
Cast me not aside
Without rhyme or reason
Give me just one season
To prove to you my worth
So let me test my mettle
Thrash against the threshold
Without your attention,
Your affection, I am hurt
I hope I'm not mistaken when I tell you this:
When I awaken you're the first word on my lips
You are fire, you are passion
You're the life I want to lead
I'm reticent, you're luminescent
Listen as I plead
Cast me not aside!
Without rhyme or reason
Begging for a season
To prove to you my worth
So let me test my mettle
Let me thrash against the threshold
I'm calling for redemption
As I'm falling towards rebirth
"NOVA (SALVAGE)"
Your quivering lips, your trembling hand
I always watched this but never planned
To admit my love, to swear on these lies,
Or to someday leave you saying no goodbye
If you can't forgive me I will understand
I bluffed too long before I showed my hand
Need to salvage a piece of me for some peace of mind
Fragments of my identity somewhere left behind
Somehow lost along the way beyond the firing line
Are you prepared to infiltrate, help me reclaim what's mine
When we get close I short out
How am I supposed to sort out
This conflict, proud devotion
These Jekyll/Hyde emotions
Rolling 'cross the finish line tripping over my own feet
Ride the rails, sirens singin' sullen secrets scrying my defeat
Reconnect, redirect, seek the energy that we deplete
Identify the wants and needs of all of those we try to please
Oh, here's to starting over...
Ephemeral passion passes over
Decline at twilight climax, die a supernova
Had enough, I've had enough
I declare this candleflame snuffed
Prioritize friendship and love
The only things worth dying for
Reconnect, redirect, seek the energy that we deplete
Satisfy the wants and needs of all of those we try to please
So here's to starting over
"TOMMORROW"
Live for tommorrow, slip the shackles of today
You're rising up, a shooting star, let nothing bar your way
I wish I could be near you now, with soothing words to say
To hold your hand and clutch you tight and melt your pain away
I know the emptiness you feel, the festering in your soul
Withered, beat, incomplete, and longing to be whole
I've been seduced by entropy, succumbing to her spell
The dark embrace of loneliness I've long known very well
Lift up your head, dry your tears, take comfort in my presence
A quality I've seen in few makes up your very essence
I sense in you the flame of life, a sparkling effervescence
Like light reflected off a jewel in millions of directions
Keep hope alive, let it thrive, wallow not in gloom
You're NOT alone and NEVER will be, I'll be with you soon
