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Pimp-My-Profile.com - Build a SlideshowWell im jus me, cant really xplain it ,theres no point really cuz da way i c myself isnt da same way uva ppl c me is it really , i dont fink anyone xplains dem self properly in dese fings cuz they jus xplain how they want 2 b perceived not how dey actually r i mean y wud sumone purposly make dem selves luk bad ( unless thyre tryin 2 make ppl h8 them cough emo's) n da truth is everyone has bad points so me tellin u im fun kind n lovin is pointless if im also moody, negative and bitchy on alternative days. N unless u kno me properly which many ppl dnt, n i doubt will, i am gonna b nice cuz evryone in theory jus wants 2 b liked. Few fings i supose i can say bout me i spose is im a Christian if im honest im strugglin hard cuz of my constant negative spin on life bbut ey im tryin....................................................... ............................................................ ............................................MY MOTTO THAT I WILL STICK BY FOR LIFE MAYBE NOT AS EXTREMELY ANYMORE BUT ITS D.T.A ...........DONT TRUST ANYBODY stone cold sed so lolSpose I kno a bit more bout myself nw so I can add sum shizzzz onto thisI’m really hard 2 get to know properly It seems just when you think you do , you realise that you don’t I never feel ppl can handle the whole package …. Spose their two extremes so u get one or the other Some may say im crazy ….lol they wouldn’t be wrong others moody, sensitive, negative, pessimistic, happy, smiley, fun In fact I do think im all of the above but in different extremes But like I said it depends what side ive shown u I wont lie and say im easy to get on with cause its up 2 u, when I talk 2 ppl ….which if im not drunk is rare They often get on with me quite well But a lot of ppl look at me a judge me and tend to stick to that judgement cuz I don’t feel the need 2 prove them wrong ….anymore doing tht almost killed me Although it bothers me tht ppl cant just spend tht extra bit of time 2 look at me from the inside out and not take the exterior at face value Im really deep I hate shallowness although since ive started being around girls a lot more (no offence ladies) Ive noticed iv reverted back to the whole gossipin/bitchin thing .. Quite disappointed really Easily offended, hurt , very sensitive I let life get me down which im struggling not to But don’t take tht as a reason to push me ive noticed lately that ppl hu have met me have seen me backwards with the emotion and smiley face instead of the hard face no emotion charity But don’t underestimate me …push me too far and you will kno not 2 do it again But I don’t like tht side of me much so I keep it away Which in turn allows ppl to think they can walk alll over me Lol all I can say is carry on …. If u really kno me u wud never dare And all u reading this who have sed something about me that the “grapevine “ told u Thanku…cuz ure just helping 2 build me up as a stronger woman With integrity and strength and hopefully one day honour cuz I wont have let ure words cut me any deeper than they haveThere have been VERY few ppl that have stuck by me thru my dark battles Through thick and thin, the rollercoaster has been mad and despite all, the one person is Nathan I spent ova 2 years trying to put my pessimism into him but he still stayed positive and even though at times I felt alone he was always there…still is and im grateful although I don’t seem 2 show it much for two years he was the only person I let be my friend and I am just now fully understanding the pressure he was under of having my life in his hands …sorry No matter wot this guy will always have a permanent place in my heart cuz at the times when I was ready 2 give up on life he was the one always there 2 stop me from leaving and some how managed to live with me being a moody bitch day in and day out … sorry nath I know it weren’t fare on u 4 me to blame u for everything that everyone else did …but u know I love u and wish u the bestNew outlook shall be positive …well im trying anyway