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I love how many times i’ve tried to explain “my life” in this little tiny box. It’s shit it can’t be done. The only people that go on my myspace already know me, the others can fuck off. N if u already know me, why am I still doing this. Hmm.. must be boredom. Ok then, My name’s Beth. I used to live in Bolton with my parents. Errmm.. apparently they didn’t like me, so i live in Marsh Green with my Boyfriend Tom now! I’m 17 years old but these days I either feel like I’m 7 or 70 with nothing really in-between. Over the past year I’ve changed shit loads. I’ve realised just when I thought I had myself all figured out that actually things just get harder and harder and it’s easier and easier to lose yourself, in many respects I’ve lost a lot of things that I just to like in myself but I’ve gained some new qualities as well. These qualities many include .. non-legal things ;) Between college, my family, drugs, tom’s family and friends old and new I find it very hard to balance my life, but I try to the best of my ability. I like to think of myself as a people person, I switch from being the hyper fun to the person who really does want to just sit down and talk to you, or the person making an ass of herself .. but atleast your laughing. I don’t really bother that whole fake superficial thing, I don’t want to be like 1,000,000 other teenagers, i’d rather just be myself say n do what i think. I tried at life .. it blew up in my face .. but i still try sometimes I love animals, I have a dog called Blaze at my parents and in Wigan I live with two dogs, A.D. (lab-staff cross) and Shy (Japanese Akita) as well as homing various birds and fish. I love music, but very often it’s hard to find time to just be able to sit down and listen to it. Equally I love playing music, particularly the piano, but I don’t have one anymore which kind of puts a damper on that. I think I’ve experienced a lot in my life but there’s still a lot left to deal with, and I’m ready to take it face on. I do do things that some people wouldn’t approve of, that could be considered wild or just stupid I’ll accept either opinion. (hehe, i just wrote do do  ) I tend to set things on fire when i’m bored. Living rooms, Clothes ect. I just get bored n enjoy things going up in flames I like food and drink. Along with this I like trying new things. I drink too much for someone my age, I like; vodka, sambuka, Malibu, Alco-pops, cocktails also energy drinks in any form. Food wise I enjoy everything from Sea-food to Indian to Kebabs. I used to be a big fan of football and could never call myself anything but a fan of Bolton Wanderers but these days I think that football has become to obsessive and money controlled and have drifted away from that. In my life I’ve experimented with religion swinging repeatedly between paganism, Bethism, atheism, Christianity and really I’ve come to appreciate all religions and leave people to their beliefs. Generally though, I don’t believe in God, I do think there’s more to death than we know, I think there is a higher power but more controlled within the Earth than outside of it. I have ADHD, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, OCD and Depression a left hand that occasionally never works n i get blind spells. A lot more too, but i’m here to tell you about me ... not my doctors record. Clinically that means I’m struggling but in life there’s nothing but obstacles and each one you have to learn to deal with. I really do believe life is like a journey, for some people it’s just one straight road, that’s the easy road but it doesn’t really develop who you are. My roads windy, has had a lot of U-turns taken on it, and leads through the forest of problems, I don’t say that because I’m depressed, more because I’m aware. In life, I never seem to get an easy ride and on the odd occasion that I do I get really bored by it anyway. I enjoy life to be complicated, cause it’s too boring otherwise. I really am one of those marmite people, you’ll either love me or hate me and that’s fine because I won’t be any-one but myself. Why be someone else because then people never get to know you and you’ll always be lonely. I get really sick of most of the people in our society who, be they emos or chavs or even man united supporters, have some compulsive obsession with fitting in and copying each other so as soon as one person does one thing every1 does it because its different, until it doesn’t become different and every1 is effectively a sheep. People really need 2 learn to be themselves, people say I try too hard to be different, I just to try to be myself and hope some other people do to. You might think your happier being who you want to be, but trust me being yourself is the way to go. I don’t like obsessing with how I look, I don’t really go out and buy new clothes, but I really like all of the ones I have because I think they reflect who I am. I do like putting on make-up but all in all I always think personality comes out on top! Education wise I got 3A*’s, 5A’s and a B in GCSE’s. I’ve just finished my AS levels in maths, economics, music and philosophy. Next year I want to do: maths, further maths, philosophy and philosophy & religion and then later go on to Manchester University to do Philosophy-Maths. Hopefully this tells you a little more about me, but if you’re still unsure a few words I would use to describe myself are: Hyper-active, intelligent, Fun, responsible, loving, confident, myself, individual, temperamental, idle, wannabe-free, funny. Not really in any order other than the one that came of the top of my head.


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A Slow Death

Your memories fade, so do you Your dying slowly, nothing you can do Your scared of death, what do you fear? Any place you go is better than here Life after all is a game you cant win When you get to h...
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"interesting" time in Miami

Dear Blog, iv just got back from the 5 hour trip from Miami ..how was it ?? well .. interesting 2 say the least ! :) when we arrived it was very late and my parents had 4gotton 2 find a hotel .. so we...
Posted by on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 18:47:00 GMT

PLZ FILL IN!

1) Who are ya? 2) how long have u known me for? 3) what would you say is my best feature? 4) what is my worse feature? 5) what do i do that annoys you? 6) whats the best memory you have of me? 7) do y...
Posted by on Sun, 11 Mar 2007 10:25:00 GMT

5 Poems

Ok ... welll i write poems .. n i cant think of anything better to do with this space so im just gonna go and put my poems up here :) ... if your clicking on here then your already bored so feel free ...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 15:22:00 GMT

Survey

* . . About You . . * Eye Color:: Browny  Hair Color:: Blondee .. most da tym Height:: averagy Favorite Color:: Black, white, orange Screen Name:: changes daily Favorite Band:: *see band...
Posted by on Thu, 12 Oct 2006 11:26:00 GMT

click here if your bored

Quiz i stole from Emilys blog ! :) Name:Age:Location:Height:HairEyes:Piercings/tattoos:OTHER:1. Where would we go on dates?2. Who are three of your favorite bands/artists?3. Do you drink/smoke??4. Do ...
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