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I'm Marlena. I collect beer coasters. I'm awkward, I'm cute, I can't really spell. I read a lot. I am really shy when I first meet people. I'm klutzy. I love Taco Bell. I drink a lot of S/F Red Bull and Red Bull Cola. I'm always broke. I have a tattoo. I want another. I like beer and men. I like movies people haven't heard of often. I read books that aren't on Oprah's favs. I want to live anywhere. I want to go back to Europe. I want to get married. I don't love myself. I wish I was prettier. I hate when people hit on me or call me a slut, skank, whore, easy, etc; because I'm really not. I've made a lot of bad decisions that I think I'm finally over. I'm ready to settle down but I can't accept people loving me. I work all the time and even though I hate my job, I love it at the same time. I'm going to UNF, and I'm going to transfer to FSU to get my degree in Eastern European Studies and not just because Eastern European men love me. Basically, I'm nothing special.
"And therefore is Love said to be a child,
Because in choice he is so oft beguiled.
As waggish boys in game themselves forswear,
So the boy Love is perjured everywhere."
-A Midsummer Night's Dream
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Once upon a time there was a crooked tree and a straight tree. And they grew next to each other. And every day the straight tree would look at the crooked tree and he would say, "You're crooked. You've always been crooked and you'll continue to be crooked. But look at me! Look at me!" said the straight tree. He said, "I'm tall and I'm straight." And then one day the lumberjacks came into the forest and looked around, and the manager in charge said, "Cut all the straight trees." And that crooked tree is still there to this day, growing strong and growing strange.
-Wristcutters: A Love Story



My Blog

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I am sooooo in love with the idea of being in love. It's like this bigger, better thing that I can't seem to attain no matter if I try or roll with the punches. I worry that one day I'll miss it! But ...
Posted by on Tue, 08 Sep 2009 21:29:00 GMT

UNF Fall '09

Politcal Economics of Depressions -BorgT R 1:40-2:55Principles of Macroeconomics -BorgT R 3:05-4:20Introduction to International Relations -LibbyT R 9:25-10:40Explorations in Mathematics -TBAM W 3:00-...
Posted by on Sat, 11 Jul 2009 18:52:00 GMT

Bad love

I'm still wondering why I can never let people love me.It's because I don;t love myself enough?True, i don't love myself, but I can't ever see my self loving myself.Does that mean I'll never be able t...
Posted by on Mon, 29 Jun 2009 19:51:00 GMT

If you go to bed with a skunk

"She says I don't really love her. That I say I do, and I think I do, but I don't. I've heard of people who say they don't love somebody, but to decide for somebody else if they love them? That's a ne...
Posted by on Thu, 18 Jun 2009 09:01:00 GMT

nkANVLS

This is what we do. We're freaks. We're vulcans.
Posted by on Tue, 16 Jun 2009 19:19:00 GMT

I want even more

someone to love who can make me start loving myself.
Posted by on Mon, 15 Jun 2009 10:16:00 GMT

Ha, pretty much

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Posted by on Sun, 14 Jun 2009 20:51:00 GMT

i really

I really should stop just doing things. It never seems to work in my favor. At the time it always seems like a good idea, but I guess I'm just wrong and somehow get the wrong vibes.
Posted by on Sun, 14 Jun 2009 11:59:00 GMT

i want

I wanna be someone's girl again so bad. I'm so sad right now and I think it would be better if maybe I had someone . I don't know. But I know I'm ready to settle down a bit and with someone nice to me...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Jun 2009 19:26:00 GMT

little known facts

a handful of things I doubt anyone knows.1. I can't stand it if my toenails are painted. I am not used to my toes not being painted, so I think they're weird if they aren't painted.2. I had never kiss...
Posted by on Tue, 09 Jun 2009 21:13:00 GMT