Cheyenne Smoorkee (:

she’s strong, because she knows what it’s like to be weak. she keeps a guard, because she knows what it’s like to cry herself to sleep. nobody knew that you sent me texts at night saying "good night, i love you" or in the morning saying "good morning, beautiful. did you sleep well?" nobody understood why i fell for you, all they saw was the result ; a broken heart. people ask me if i believe in forever and i cant help but sit back &+ laugh because the way my life's going, i dont even believe in t o m m o r r o w.---------------------------------------------------------- -------------------- Ive been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and i still want you as much as i did the first time i laid eyes on you. Every time i see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. It's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing i don't know. I don't know how to fall out of love with you. I don't know how to let go and as i stand here looking at you, i wonder if there will ever be a day when i will get over your smile, when i will let go of the hugs you gave me that i continue to feel, or let go of the taste of your kisses? A day when i forget the words you said to me , forget what you meant to me or forget how much i love you. But, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, i know i could never get over, let go, or forget you. When you care about someone as much as i do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. I thought i'd handle it just fine and that i'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. But it isn't always that easy. Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. I knew that i'd miss you, i just didn't know i'd miss you as much as i do. I want to share my tears with you. I want to share my love with you. I want to share my happiness with you. I want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. I want to share my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever, and that's exactly what happened when i met you.-------------------------------------------------------- ------------- ---------------------------------------------------- I want somebody to sleep with the rest of my life, & cuddle up during a movie, on a couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in the woods together. Challenge me, challenge him. Talk about dreams, make dreams. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you're having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes & not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers, once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think "this might make my girl smile" as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he's got.---------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------------------------ -- It's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone. You get mad at yourself for not saying things you could've a million times, you take for granted days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. Anyone can be taken at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say things we never had courage to before.------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------- & it..s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It..s funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. It..s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on but you..re stuck right where you started. When feelings come & go & you can..t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don..t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away. It..s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now & realize that things are different & they may never be the same. You tell yourself it..s not worth it, but if it really didn..t matter, you wouldn..t spend so much time thinking about it.--------------------------------------------------------- ------------------ -------------------------------------------- When you start to think about him, & how he makes you laugh, & how he makes you feel when you're around him, you realize you care about him more than you thought you did.-------------------------------------------------------- ----------- ------------------------------------------ Someday, you're going to meet someone who drives you mad. who you're going to fight with and laugh with and do totally insane things for; someone who turns your life upside down.----------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------- At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared, some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day, others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, & some are good struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. & sometimes, all you need is one.-------------------------------------------------------- --------------- --------------------------------- why would you hurt someone who's been there for you through it all why would you hurt someone that you call your best friend. i've forgiven you so easily, time and time again. but this time you've gone too far.----------------------------- ------------------------------------------- "All I've been thinking about lately is how much I want to take back our first kiss. How much I would pay to just let you climb through that window. I mean, who knows what would have happened? I mean, maybe we'd still be best friends. Maybe you'd still have a thing for me. I just know that I wouldn't be hurting like this. But then I think about everything that kiss brought into my life. What it was like to look at you and know not just what you were thinking, but what you were feeling, because I was feeling the same thing. And then it's all worth it. It's worth all the pain that I'm going through. I want to regret kissing you, but I can't. It was the smartest decision I ever made."-------------------------------------------------- ----------------------------------------- To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't winning and it isn't losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking out memories or thinking sad thoughts, and it doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome and move on. It's having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting. It's learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It's realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door and to clear a path to set you free.------------------------------------------------------- - -------------------------------------------- Don't worry, he'll miss you. You're the best he could get and he blew it. Don't let him make you think for one second that it was your fault. It's not. He screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong. You gave him your heart and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't. And honestly, he's not mature enough. He's not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you in every spare second he could. But he didn't, and now he's gone. But don't you cry, sweetie. Don't call him telling him you miss him. Don't IM him, don't message him, don't comment him, don't talk to him in the hallways. Just pretend you don't care. And don't be surprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake. And if you want to go, go with him again. But make him work for you. Don't be his doormat. Don't let him in the first time he rings the bell. Make him come back everyday until you trust him enough. If he doesn't come back after a couple of tries, just let him go. But if he comes back everyday, then he's worth it. Trust me. He's worth it.--------------------------------------------------------- -- --------------------------------------------------- He was her best friend, the one who made her laugh when she didnt even feel like smiling. The one who made her feel so secure when she was scared. and the one who she fell completely in love with.---------------------------------------------------- -----------------------------------------------So fail. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be afraid. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb or two or twelve and you will fall and it'll hurt.. but the harder you fall, the farther you will rise. The louder you fall, the clearer your future becomes. Failure is a gift, welcome it. There are people who spend their whole lives wondering how they became the people they became. How certain chances pass them by, why they didn't take the roads less traveled. Those people aren't you. You have front row seats to your own transformation, and in transforming yourself, you might even transform the world, and it will be electric and I promise it will be terrifying. Embrace that; embrace the new person you're becoming. This is your moment. I promise you, it is now. Now, not two minutes from now, not tomorrow, but really now. Own that; know that deep in your bones and go to sleep every night knowing that. Wake up every morning remembering that and then.. keep going.------------------------------------------------------ ------------------------------------------ "i believe that people truly care. we can sit here and talk about how much the world sucks, but at the end of the day we're all watching out for each other. i believe that hating life is such an act, because deep down inside we're all just searching for something. we all want a purpose, a reason to live. and if we don't find it, sure.. we get frustrated, but we don't give up. we're always searching, even if we're pushed to our limits, and are ready to give up.. we all just want life. and we believe in life. whether we all want to admit it or not, none of us have given up, we're just exhausted of searching."