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I'm as real as real can get... I live life like there's no tomorrow - spontaneous. I'm always open to hear someone out. A good listener and that makes me "peeps confidantes" & attentive to what people have to say. VERY HAPPY* and have a lot to be thankful for. Really laid back... outgoing, easy to talk to. I'm bubbly & bursting with enthusiasm with the things I luv. I live life with passion and tend to be excessive when it comes to the finer things I enjoy. I try to make the most out of everything I do. I'm an adrenaline junkie who's always on the look-out for the next adventure. I'm constantly excited for what lies ahead. Driven and motivated* so I know for sure that it'll be ALL GOOD later on. A hard worker and a procrastinator at times. I go off on tangents at times, and have been doing so since I was a kid. I always have so much going on in my mind, and yet, I'll always make time for my family who need it. I stretch myself thin but it makes life fun. I'm fairly reserved until you get to know me. Blunt/honest*... depends how you look at it i guess. Risk taker... stubborn. Hate it when I don’t get my way but I so get over it. Don’t pull any immature & stupid stunts, I seriously don’t have time to deal with that. Very opinionated - when I have something to say, I mean it. I take everything very seriously and usually don’t take NO for an answer. I don’t give second chances, there’s no turning back. If you're on my bad side... prepare for the evil bitch to come outta me-RAWRRR!!! Often misjudged & misunderstood. Straight-forward or should I say... I speak my mind and say what I feel - maybe that's why some peeps get intimidated by me and find me a b*tch!. Liberated & conservative* in one, but with careful eye for my future. Unfettered, but caught within' society's standards and decrees. Bad with directions... damsel in distress, HAH! I don't let others opinions hinder my thoughts. Don't like to take crap from anyone...hate misspelled words, hypocrites, 2nd hand-rate COPYCATS, posers & bullsh*tters! And to all of you that luvs to talk 'bout me... thanks for makin' me the center of your life!. Luvs* coffee, Italian foods & Pasta, pHoToGrApHy, Camping... hangin' out w/ frenz... spend as much time with my family, & Love of ShoPPing!. I'm not editing my life to make it interesting or appropriate for you. Here lies-what I feel, my thoughts, my ideas, and ME... this is me, just being me, totally uncensored. U might not like what's held inside, if so, leave! Otherwise, read on... I realized one day that who I am today is not who I was yesterday and tomorrow is still yet to be revealed. That looking at myself and my life was like looking through a kaleidoscope. With each new turn and twist a new image is revealed. You are invited to turn the lens and get a glimpse of all the various facets of who JODIE is, has been and can be. I don't always do what's right because I do what I want. And even though I try to be a good person, I'm afraid that I can't refrain from pursuing my ultimate desires. I'm impulsive and I always think with my heart rather than my head, just like everyone else. I don't know if the end always justifies the means. I wonder if I'll finally learn my lesson that I can't always do what I want to do, without dealing with all the repurcussions. I never want my life to be boring. I want adventure & anecdotes. Life is short and there's so much to see and do, that I don't understand people who are content through their day-to-day in a mundane routine, each morning, noon & night, same as the one before. But I think, that as I grow older, I begin to appreciate the stability that such a life has to offer. I wonder if I want certain things in life just because of the challenge they present or if I want them because it's truly what I'm after... If I pursue things because it's almost as though someone had said "you can't have this", and my immediate reflexive reaction is, "screw you, yes I can!". I wonder if I'm finally growing up and being an adult in certain situations, or if I'm still behaving like a kid in a candy store going for every tasty morsel until my tummy's about to explode & the end result isn't even pleasurable anymore. From all the drama that I've been involved in has basically been caused by my own choices and & my whimsical decisions. I have learned that there's a price to pay for what you want. And you better think long & hard to figure out if all of the shit you'll endure is worth in the end. I believe, there must be a balance between the level of sacrifices, the regrets & the wrongs, and the rewards reaped from going for what you want. I am currently searching for that middle ground. And to make peace, with the fact that if other people can't handle you, can't appreciate you for who you are, then it's their problem, not yours. And ultimately, not to feel bad about who you are, because the only thing worth feeling down about, is that, these people are the ones missing out if they're not inclined to share a bit of life with you. I need to be more self-respecting & not to keep morphing myself to fit what will make others happy. But somehow, I can't help feeling, that by letting myself make the metaphorical world smaller, because I'm afraid of how far my journey will take me and the turbulence that I'll encounter along the way... When I consider my life and the path, I question free will. Are we really in control? Are we making decisions already pre-determined? I understand that if we have choices, we are set to make the right one, based on our own philosophy and way of living, but we do not live in a totally free society. Life's a garden; you gotta dig it. Life is too short to worry about things you have no control over. That is why i live life to the fullest, you can't worry 'bout what people will think, or who is watching... you just gotta do things for you.. no one else will really matter in the end. Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or .. you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good mood...Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it...Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or...I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life.. Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life. Every day we have the choice to live fully. Attitude, after all, is everything. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.