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About Me

Part of me won't go away Everyday reminded how much I hate it Weighted against the consequences Can't live without it so it's senseless Wanna cut it out of my soul And just live with a gaping hole Take control of my life And wash out all the burnt taste I made the problems in the first place Hang my head low 'cause it's part of me Ya hardly see right next to the heart of me Heard of me the routine scar New cuts cover where the old ones are And now I'm sick of this I can't stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade away on my sanity I rather not even be then the man that's staring in the mirror through mePre chorus Cut myself free willingly Stop just what's killing me (4x)I feel it everyday I feel I'm in my way I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside Swallowing mefreedom can be frightening if you've never felt it Once it's been dealt with you feel like you've been touched by something angelic And then melted down into a pool of peace Cease to be the animal you used to be Remove the broken parts you know were wrong And feel the karma when the problem's all gone And then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can't let be Memories of the last fight to free yourself Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well And now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heart Where your insides bruise You can live if you're willing to Put a stop to just what's killing youPre chorus (4x)Chorus(Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently This part of me won't go away, part of me won't go away Everywhere I look around I see how everything oaught to be Every time I see myself there's always something wrong with me)Chorus (2x) I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me (2x)

My Interests

"Reverse psychology is failing miserably, it's so hard to be left all alone, telling you is the only chance for me, there's nothing left but to turn and face you"
God does not give second chances and neither do I.

I'd like to meet:

I have had the privilege to meet some of the most loyal and honorable people on the face of this Earth. Some of them I may never see again. Others I might. Whenever I lose faith in humankind, I remember what I did 2 years ago. It reminds me that there are real people, sometimes they are just hidden or hard to find. I am also privileged enough to have a handful of friends who are there when needed. I suppose though that life is sometimes going to throw curve-balls to remind you not to trust everyone. Your instincts can not deceive you. If you feel someone is a liar or deceiver, then they most likely are. Walk away and believe yourself over them. You will never lose if you do that.

The only really funny thing is over 50% of the most important people in my life, I only had the chance to see for 4 weeks 1 time. One of those people I flew there to see. The others I met by coincidence of flying there alone. If ever asked, I would do it again in a heartbeat. Despite the stress of being somewhere alone, I felt free for once. Free of judgment. Free of worries and free of fake people. I exposed myself enough that I was forced to meet real people. People who I will never forget even if they forget me. I would of given my life for any number of the people I met during those 4 weeks. I can't say that about the people where I am from. I don't think the person I visited even realizes how important she really is. Ill never forget her either. Not when im 50, not when im 70. I will always remember those people. When things get bad, my memories of England remind me what life is really about. Taking chances, working hard for your goals, and putting yourself out there despite what other people tell you.
Because when you die, you die alone and you alone must be able to live with how you spent your time. So if you follow me, I'll show you what it's all about.

Music:

Linkin Park, Fort Minor, Chester Bennington, Styles of Beyond, Muse, Lost prophets, The explosion, HIM, Brand New, Bone Thugs, AFI, Radio Head, West Indian Girl, Adema, Cypris Hill, Nine Inch Nails, Korn, Jimmy Eats World, Green Day, Garry Jules, Marilyn Manson, Foxxy Shazzam, The Used, 30 Seconds to Mars, Stone Sour, Slipknot, The Vonbondies, Queens of the Stone Age, The Mars Volta, Hollywood Undead, Disturbed, Breaking Benjamin, Chevelle, Hoobastank, The Killers, Deftones, Mudvayne, Godsmack, Yeah Yeah Yeah's, Holly Brooks, Dead Poetic, Emery, Motion City Soundtrack, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Cold, Evanescence, 10 Years, Funeral For a Friend, Blindside, Alice In Chains(RIP)

Heroes:

no god

My Blog

Aftermath/Session

Once again, things feel to be going down the same road that I have become so familiar with. At this point though I find it hard to even react. I'm not even cynical. At this point in time, I just th...
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Sat, 04 Oct 2008 03:43:00 PST

prelude psychology

The 10 facts of lifewhore- noun, verb, whored, whor·ing.noun1. a woman who engages in promiscuous sexual intercourse, usually for money; prostitute; harlot; strumpet.disloyal- adjectivefalse to one'...
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Wed, 09 Jul 2008 12:45:00 PST

5 Days Red Flag

With in the next five days I will have a youtube video of the first song I am showing called The Gray. Be sure to check it out if your bored =P. I will have it directly on my myspace and it will sta...
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Tue, 01 Jul 2008 12:51:00 PST

funny

There will be no escaping from what comes next.
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Wed, 19 Mar 2008 09:17:00 PST

warning

it never ends and it never goes away
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Mon, 03 Mar 2008 08:23:00 PST

A cold dry season

I don't understand why there always has to be major complications for things that are good in any form. Im so tired of feeling like I have no control over the course of how things are going. I know ...
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 01:17:00 PST

I realized

I woke up to a phone call today and realized the sun was shining brightly for the first time in a very long time. The phone call just made it better.
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Sat, 22 Dec 2007 11:58:00 PST

The Boys Are Coming Back

Linkin Park is coming back to town ^_^
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 05:05:00 PST

Remember

In the past year I have lost sight of who I am and what I wanted to be. My perception on life has been distorted and mixed up. I thought forgetting about the past was the solution to start over agai...
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Sun, 04 Nov 2007 03:29:00 PST

The Wooded Trail (October 8, 2007)

I wrote this when I was boredAs I walked down the trail with trees on both sidesI wondered why their shadows narrowed the sky.The pine cut my feet as I limped towards the endHoping the ground would be...
Posted by Empathy or Animosity on Tue, 09 Oct 2007 04:43:00 PST