D²

The sun says wake up with a beam in my eyes
Clutching the bed like she's still by my side
part of me died
Eat what I'm prescribed
still just to be ostracized
Cuz she don't really know if she wants to ride or drive
I've known nooses long enough to hang my excuses
Whether I'm dead, gun to my head, or reclusive
The end is close almost no need for money
Yet when I wished for death nobody took my life from me
If I cannot see what's right in front of me
And the lights on there still wouldn't be enough to leave
I fixed me when I broke the aggression
But I'm still attracted to my beautiful depression
If I felt emotions, I learned to suppress 'em
Till I'm ready to sleep, I'll have found a place to rest then
No thanks to angst, I learned my lesson
And can erase the face that can't answer the questions

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