I love the outdoors. I love going camping with my family every summer. Sometimes i like to party, dont do it as much as i would like to. I love listening to music. Here lately ive found myself writing alot, ive found that its helping me to write down what ive been going thru since i dont really have anyone to talk to that understands.
I'd like to meet:
I dont really want to meet people, well maybe some more friends. Im not ready to date again yet, i still love Rusty and want only him. The only people that i want to meet right now are my brother Jason and my boyfriend Rusty in Heaven. I Miss You both very very much!..
The Worst Moment...
The worst moment of my life, is when i lost you,
The worst moment of my life, is when yours was through,
The worst moment of my life, was when i couldn't do a thing,
The worst moment of my life, is when i stood there seeing you dieing,
The worst moment of my life, is when i lost you
The worst moment of my life still isn't throug!Denial,Death-GriefMy tears,they fall in slow motion
each tear, a blissful reminder
of my lost loves strong devotion.I tremble uncontrollably with fear,
fear, that i'll never be the same
after my lost love left me here.I can't muster up a single word
scared to say "he's gone"
scared to hear what others have heard.I twist my toes, to stress my pain
my toes, they become even more tighter
the more I try to restrain.I feel as if I'm hollow
because now I feel dead.
My loves life I've got to swallow.I don't feel anymore
just wishing back to my beautiful
life that rained before!
Music:
I Love all kinds of music. Country, Rap, R&B. Rusty got me listening to more rock then i used to, i kinda like it now. He loved his rock.
Movies:
The Notebook is my favorite movie. Norbit, Game Plan, Good Luck Chuck. I just love movies, mostly romance, comendy, some action but not all, i also like scary movies but there better when i had Rusty there to grab when i got scared even though he hated scary movies.
Television:
Dont really watch tv much. Sometimes i watch American Idol with my parents. When i do watch tv i normally watch mtv, or lifetime.
Heroes:
My Dad, he has showed me so much that i know today. I dont know what i would do with out him.
My brother Jason, he passed away in 2004. He lived a very hard life,but made it thru it all. I looked up to him alot. I miss him very much.I love you bub.
My boyfriend Rusty, He just passed away Dec 9,2007. Rusty taught me alot. He always told me to live my life to the fullest.Live it the way that i want to and not how everyone else wants me too. Theres to many things that i learned from him to put them all on here. I love him very much and miss him alot, hes now in Heaven with his Dad and my brother watching over me and all the others that he loved.
