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Cockzilla [applecore]

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About Me



About me:

My Interests


blogs , read them

sup?

I'd like to meet:



I'm tom...
I'm volatile, apparently undateable, and my sanity is questionable
I enjoy video games, reading, music, writing, and spontaneous attacks of alcohol abuse

I also know the five point palm exploding heart technique
i probably won't teach it to you though

I've got a few regrets, and i rarely sleep well
I waste too many moments, and i'm slowly self destructing
but that's being alive
and it's all I've ever done

i'm not laughing at you
i'm laughing so i don't break down

there's a lot more to me
but this is just a fucking webpage
and really, who gives a shit?

I'm studying psychology
but I have no idea what you're thinking
feel free to tell me though

[email protected]





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Music:

deathclassicalpunkhardcoreelectroindiethrash hybrids

Movies:

comic book, superhero, zombie, vampire and general horror, comedy, just anything novel, interesting or gory.

Television:


in ten years, i shall become Bernard Black

Books:

Anything by Raymond E. Fiest, Anne Rice, Tolkein, Robert Jordan, Terry Pratchett. And most other fantasy, comic books...lol

Heroes:

The people i love, they know who they are, best family and friends I could have gotten, i'm pretty lucky.



My Blog

one lung, no throat

let me into my cellit's so much more than the outsidei prefer the solitude of my skulltake a drill to my foreheadlet out all the fucking lies IM NOT YOUR FUCKING SLAVE you can't have my future this fe...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Sun, 21 Sep 2008 08:02:00 PST

thoughts in the sky

I have no conviction left in me All I am is echoes A drifting shell Of whom I used to be It’s almost funny This lack of faith Masks of humour and depression Dregs dressed as humanity We&rsq...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Sun, 30 Mar 2008 03:10:00 PST

tear down

I got a force-fed realityAnd I'm biting through the spoonWish I had some pillsTo take the thoughts awayBut they're etchedAnd they won't be silentAlways screaming on repeat Do you ...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Fri, 23 Nov 2007 03:18:00 PST

organised crime

I got the bullet under my thumbAnd I'm about to breakYou can't make me stand up and shoutAnd dance like I've got the shakesYou're all tied up in suspenseWondering what I'm gonna do nex...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Wed, 07 Nov 2007 06:08:00 PST

just walk away

Can you hear it?Patterns on the roofLovelorn raindropsGuttering awayThe street is your only friendPut that red light onIt will keep you warm Don't hold my handAll I'll ever ...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Sun, 07 Oct 2007 04:29:00 PST

Buried in 10 gallon box

Face your fateI hope you choke in the pitDrown in the screams of the damnedYou are my judasMy betrayal andDisappointmentDig your shallow graveReturn you to mother dirtSo clap your hands mother and dau...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Fri, 05 Oct 2007 07:08:00 PST

Bubblegum Suicide

You don't have it for meYou just don't make me smileI want to walk awayBut I catch every secondEvery waking breathSuffocating in denial I'm surrounded by broken mirrorsRotten hearts and...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Fri, 10 Aug 2007 05:52:00 PST

deadwalk

Can you hear them marching? Hear them all over the nightThe lovers and the lostAnd those who lost their fightDead in the mindCorpselikePutrifiedWith decaying limbs andGas mask eyesIt's the walk of the...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Mon, 16 Jul 2007 03:57:00 PST

you made me sing...now i just scream

Maybe you have hopeMaybe you have liesI wish I could see my futureWithin your eyesBut my reflection is lonely companyAnd there is no respiteFrom bitter truthAnd you owe...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 06:15:00 PST

Pick me up

Whispers of loveCarried by a fragile windI will hold you tightThrough the gathering darkWe were broken heartsNow we are whole You pick me up when I am fallingYou pick me up when I am fallingSo let's ...
Posted by Cockzilla [applecore] on Wed, 27 Jun 2007 06:22:00 PST