Chani

I am back from labrador. I missed being here but now it feels like Labrador is always going to be my home.
Hey all, My name is Chantel. But you can address me as Chani since not even my family calls me by my real name.
I live in calgary and have basically lived here all my life, which you would think I would be a cowgirl stampeder... but I am not. Truely am ambitious and wish to do more with my life, but I would like to take the time to figure things out, to learn more about myself, and create the foundation for a happier lifetime.
I have had many pet's in my life and the ones I care for most are the three I've had over the last 6 years or so. First is the Black Lab named spike, he was wonderful and insanely smart. He could open doors, learned to share, and would never let you cry. He died earlier this year from bone fusion and seizures, he was too sick to carry on. The second is Hudson, a Yellow lab who was practically white, he seemed young, loving and really loved to take walks, he also died this year from an undeterminable illness. I got to be there holding him when he passed, It was one of the hardest things to go through. And the third is Jasmine, she is also a yellow lab, loves to give kisses and is a terror at times, but you can't help loving that sweet face. We also recently got another yellow lab, her name is Maggie... but I find I like to call her Mary Magdalene more.
I have had a daughter that I never got the chance to meet, circumstances made it so. She died in December 2005, and is loved by her whole family. We all wished we couldv'e seen her and known her.
I aspire to go to school for Medical Studies and become a cardio surgeon. There is a lot that comes with this choice and I feel like I can acomplish this, I really would like to do for others what doctors have done for me.
I love my father and I never get to see him, he's great at guilt trips and know's tons of funny jokes, even if they aren't apropriate, it's great to hear them./ I miss him alot, he lives in Labrador now and I really hope I can visit him soon.
My mother I love, she's become a woman I can trust and count on. I thank her for all she's done for me this last two years.
I really need to think of more... maybe next time.
1000 Words, Jade
I know that you’re hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
Didn’t say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You fight your battles far from me
Far too easily
Save your tears cause I'll finally come back
I can hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I’m not afraid to say what's in my heart
Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They’ll fly to you
Even though I can’t see
I know they’re reaching you
Suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your worries dancing far away
They’ll hold you forever
For a thousand words(a thousand words) had never been spoken(ohhhh)
Will fly to you
They’ll carry you home(carry you home)
And back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings(on silver wings)
And a thousand words(ohhh)
Call out through the ages(call through the ages)
Will cradle you(ohh ya)
Turning all of the lonely years into lonely days(lonely days)
They’ll hold you forever
Ohhhhh
A thousand words