I know what I want. I want a friend who wants a friend. I want to be loved. I want to be cared for.. but I want the most to care for some one. Apart from family. I can't and will never understand the people who cant and don't grasp this. I don't understand how they go through life without a purpose beyond the normal work and living to be alive. You have to have love and meaning. I have an open mind. I think that I look like someone who is generic. I want everyone to know that I don't feel generic at at all. Maybe the statement itself is generic. Maybe its not. It's hard not to care about looks. Most people know, or think, it's whats on the inside that counts. It's hard to always think that when the outside in unkempt. I know that inheritance can be a cause to physical appearance. I wonder how we all would be if everyone was blind. Maybe we'd be more equal, and no one would even know the difference. I don't want my work to describe me. I don't want my hobbies to describe me. I know its good to stay positive about myself, but you have to have pride in other people. Still have pride in what you do I suppose. But confidence in other people besides just your self is a very good thing. People will say that all that matters is yourself. But no one is themselves without others. I ramble. Sometimes nothing makes sense. I mumble, people don't understand my humor. I don't want to fit in. It's hard if you don't know one person that actually understands you. I'd like to write a book. I tried once in middle school.. it was about Egyptian pyramids and mummies.. How many ideas can be created? Technically infinite? Minor variations make legend.
Sometimes I find myself forgetting what I'm doing, or where I'm going. Not physically, just in general. But the truth is, I've never really known. It's pretty difficult to know. We're all human, we're all the same. Money is what changes things. THINGS are what change things. I'd like to strip myself of all of this, and start over. I'll keep my emotions, and see what forms without the negative AND positive influence...
None of that can happen really.. So, in the mean time, I'd just like to enjoy life, be happy, and try to CREATE things that make other people think and be happy. Materialization will never go away, so we all just have to keep thinking for ourselves, and never stop. There's a lot of people that, instead of controlling materials, are being controlled by them. It's the media. Down with the media, up with the self taught brain waves.
Some of my photographs are at DeviantArt.com
The band I'm in, currently being redefined: A Hollywood Legend
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All photos taken by me. Copyright me, of this year.
