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About Me

Greg is my first name. I'm rarely around other people. Most of the time I'm in a minimally conscious state. I forget how to have fun. Philosohpy is my favorite subject at the moment. Having friends is something I lack but I dare not forget it is lonely place out here in the universe. I wouldn't watch my movie. (having a camera on me while I'm watching a movie or doing mundane activity's)Maybe I'll start going through a transformation that I've needed to for years. I'm completely wrapped up in enigma's and I try to be me without trying. Sometimes I listen when others talk if they are saying what they want to say not what they think others want to hear them say. But social interactions are usually painful for me because of past embarassments resulting in giving me cueless anxiety.I'm afraid of people because I think of all the bad they could do instead of the good. Mostly, love is a feeling I've never felt or it was in the "wrong" way. Likely, my emotions are what I need to learn and I'm ignorant as can be when it comes to feelings. Since life is all I have and if I decide to wake up, then I'll hopefully slightly understand how to live. I really don't have any other choice. And being dead inside and outside while still breathing is much worse than really not being alive, I think. Killing myself shouldn't even be a option, mostly it's another distraction.I suck at dismantling my fear and I'm just at bad with my ego. I must believe in something, currently, I can't allow myself to admit it. I see others and I wish we could celebrate the mystery of life but others have had so much shit happen to them that I wouldn't want to wish on the evilest person, no matter what. Well, of course I'm hypothetically speaking and once we have our moment that will change our lives for ever, would be when I'll know what I'm saying and time will pass by instantly. I think some things out but I only have a one track mind. If and when I expand it at least that will ease the trafic jams in my head and my thoughts and actions will likely get somewhere but in the end, they'll never stop. Or maybe that is what will happen. One day I'll find out and it will be by myself. Along the way, maybe we'll be able to HELP each other out, whatever that means.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Someone who actually cares what you have to say. Really, I don't know. There are many people I'd like to unmeet but they might say the same about me....

My Blog

Life itself and everything in between

Alright. First off. Am I really going to type what is on my mind? What if I come up with something compelling and it will get stollen on this open highway? Ok, I am full of mys...
Posted by on Wed, 29 Oct 2008 03:34:00 GMT

Part 2: It’s not what you say, its how you say it and I say things incorrect

How many times will we(I) allow ourselves to make the same mistakes? Or how about repeating the same thing? Sometimes reps improves the memory but constantly having to tell the same story,...
Posted by on Wed, 29 Oct 2008 03:33:00 GMT

Part 3: It’s just that

Next, bad influences. How many of those have we known or choose not to know? Drugs. Yes Drugs. To me if you are a user of any type of drug, you are worse off than being dead. A...
Posted by on Wed, 29 Oct 2008 03:33:00 GMT

Part 4: A new 24 hours

Sleep. What category do you fall in? The 4-5 hour, 6-7, 7-8, 8-9? Sleep really does come like a drug in "god's" country. I want sleep to be one of my top priorities but it always gets cut....
Posted by on Wed, 29 Oct 2008 03:32:00 GMT

It’s Goona Get Better

I'm too available for my own good. I think, I don't really know, but it's probably safe to say that when it comes to people and relationships, some have other people to fall back on. Like ...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 22:01:00 GMT

Return of the Giant Hogweed

The Super Bowl is now comlete. (as if I was interested) I had a few beers throughout the day. I didn't sleep too well but I stayed in bed for about 11 hours. I was sleeping lik...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 22:00:00 GMT

Many too many

What really gets to me when it comes to people, is not being interested in talking to the common person. We could say so much, yet we just blow each other off. That is the tough part. ...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 21:59:00 GMT

Some kind of conclusion

We all could have something to complain about, if we really want to be babies. Generation X, Y and the baby boomers. It's hard to put things into perspective, it really is. There are...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 21:57:00 GMT

Guide Vocal

What are you going to buy today? How is that budget going? Haven't we been a little bit to sentimental and nostalgic? I feel betrayed as I pass through this life. I've been tak...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 21:58:00 GMT

Another one

The category is incorrect. Thought I should say that right away. In case you haven't noticed, I am feeble minded. I'm going to type anything that comes to my mind. Last week I ...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Oct 2008 21:55:00 GMT