NOEL

What can I say besides the fact that my life is more complicated than a rubix cude, wrapped in a riddle, disguised as a million piece puzzle. I understand that everyone has their problems and everyone is going through there little drama but damn! how long does this shit last. I figured that I had closed a book in my life to open up another following the birth of my 1st son but little did I know that the 1st chapter of this book would start off worse than how the last chapter of the last book ended! Still follow me? All I want now is to raise my son better than how I was. Better than I've seen alot of other kids raised and better than alot of those who have raised kids or still are. I grew up fatherless as did muany of my people but I'm here for my son and don't want to be without him only it seems that how I'm thinking is not the way his mother is thinking and for me, this is tragically unfortunate. Right now I'm in a bind that seems to be loosening its grip on me but the uncertainty of when and how long until I'm free, so to speak, has my head doing cartwheels while riding a rollercoaster. I never expected to be this confused and stressed at this age and I damn sure never anticipated having to battle to raise my son the right way but this is my life and this how I have to live for right now. Growing up on and coming from Baldwin, I learned alot at a young age. Street Education 101 and I graduated advanced classes. I learned about the almighty dolla and the motivations that push you to get it. I learne dabout the grass and the snakes that hide in it. I learned about the values of love, loyalty, respect and the benefits of living them. I also learned about the tragic consequences suffered if you were to break the bonds of those values. Snitches get stitches, Rats get bats, loose lips sink ships, holla at ya brothas girl, hollow tips'll flip ya world. Noone could ever say that I've perpetrated any of these "hood crimes" against my brothers or sisters and I'll keep it like that until my clock stops. Although I been around long enough to understand alot of what surrounds me I know that life is a constant test and in order to eventually pass, you must continue to learn as much as you can every second of every day. If you can't do that than you deserve whatever misfortune comes your way. That goes for you, me, them and everyone else under the sun.

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