Every day i wonder what it is that the world will hold for me...I always hope laughter will be one of those feelings i feel-its key-its vital-its life for me- it keeps me goin...it keeps sane, it makes me, me. The laughter u spread is a gift like no other....I try to get through each day without a negative thought....until you cross my mind, i wanna cry, but i'm the best at holding up appereances, just so i wont be asked what lies beneath, what i'm thinking, what i need. I need what i can't have, and i want what i dont need. I miss who i shouldn't and i'm loved by those who i should be loved by. Sometimes i want to experience it all then sometimes i want to be numb, be painless, free of heartbreak and sorrow, cuz without pleasure there is no pain, but without pain there is no pleasure...so i treasure the moments where i'm soaring, and curse those that are boring. i love life but i hate it, yet i need it to survive and most of the time i feel alive. Devistation, frustration, stressful situations, and further intoxication on ocassion, but its out weighed by the good, its ruff sometimes but im down for my hood. I love to love and i hate to hate, i like to get up and participate in all that i enjoy. Pictures, memories in my head, listening to the most beautiful words said, and of corse sleepin in my bed...its the little things that make me who i are, not the clothes or the year of my car, appreciation, anticipation, good feeling sensations ;)graduation...the real world...life...individualism, decison making, choices, success/failing, hard work, determination...obsession and infatuation all of these things together make an equation. The equation of life; I dislike/I love...i yell and scream...i fight/i'm calm... adrenalin/fatigue...i laugh/ i cry...feelings, emothions, all these things inside, give me my pride...this is what make me a someone not a no one...if you don't like it o well...take me as I am..... ..I edited my profile at Freeweblayouts.net , check out these Myspace Layouts!
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