deanna

...i don't fit into this box! but any of you who know me know that i definitely have something to say...i'd rather talk about the world than about me, but you'll get the jist of who I am if i just open up and let it flow....Life has been revealing itself to my soul in a new way lately...maybe i have changed perspective inside, my soul may be viewing from behind a new shade...or maybe the lights that i decorativlely illuminated with before have faded as their virgin energy has been spent. hopes once held so high are now cynical, bored even. Fingers once satisfied accompanying an empassioned voice now flick away conversation, yearning only for true creation. oh, but what to create! i realize now how difficult it is for me to make decisions and how much i have allowed myself to be swept away by whatever opportunity was presenting itself...which have been incredible, bringing me closer with worlds that really I had never known before. So for how long do I follow that river and flow along, and can i really trust it to bring me to the banks which will accept and satisfy me? If I just allow myself to flow, any stronger power than that flow always overrides...as much as I love being a free spirit, I think the time has come for me to choose a path and begin walking, one foot decidedly in front of the other, and even if it is the wrong path I'm on for a while, I 'll end up at least with true command over my own life, leading me to the knowledge and experience to get on the path which is mine. at least until we really blow up this revolution and chaos overcomes systematic funk...