~Lil~

------------------------------greetings . ..... .thanks for visiting------------------------------ABOUT ME:i'm a harmless perfectionist living on the outskirts of sanity ... i take pleasure in simple observations like the fact that i can spell my name forwards and backwards and get the same results ... but that's only because a good deal of the time my mind is working overtime trying to figure out the bigger and impossible to know mysteries of life ... i started this page to work out some things ... there was someone i wanted to reach and i needed a myspace account to do it ... turned out to be dead end though ... such is life ... sometimes you need to pull the vehicle you are driving into reverse, watch out behind you, back up to where you started and find another way to get to where you want to go ... i spend a good deal of my time trying to figure out the truth surrounding my first twenty years on this planet and how i got so screwed up ...i'm thinking i must have lived more than one life during that twenty years ... yeah… that must be it ... not that you care ... why should you ... unless perhaps you are in the same boat ................................................. if you have read this far i may as well tell you that i like to paint -- i like to doodle -- some can be seen in my pics and slide show ... i like to write and write and write some of my writings are in my blog ... i've five fictional novels emotional allegories really, that i'm currently in various stages of writing on my laptop ... don't know if i'll explore publishing any of them or not ... perhaps someday… for now it's just a creative outlet for my overactive compulsive mind ... some days i love life ........................ some days i hate it ........................................ and some days… i think i have a handle on at least a few of the deeper truths … of course that’s when the handle i have turns out to be on a skillet and i discover i’m just the helpless pancake in the pan ... golden brown on one side, soft and gooshy on the other ... some invisible force flips me ... and ... i suddenly see everything from the other side ... the bottom of the pan and hey, "it's dark down here" .....................................................and hey i don’t know sh_t .............................................Truth is solid ... but i've learned that my grasp of it can be so dang fleeting ... one thing i am sure of ... one thing i know ... each and every day i am glad i am not the One in charge down here ..................... i take comfort in the knowledge that there is a Being far Greater and far more Magnificent that knows it all and has no fear for the future even if it is terrifying to me.........................................................e verything is the same and yet it is in a constant state of change ... but although the way i see things is always evolving ... the one thing i'm sure of ... i didn't create myself ... i didn't end up here by sheer chance ... and neither did you ... i for one will seek Truth always until the end of time... peace to you ... thanks for stopping by........I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4