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Crazy but Beautiful Disaster

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About Me

I figured since I had my birthday I would reconstruct this ABOUT ME a little. Let’s see the main things, I am NOW 32 and I have my one beautiful baby girl, I work if you know me you know what I do if you don't it doesn't really matter it's not what makes me me! I write mostly poetry, love photography, and I love to cook. So since I have achieved none of the higher aspirations I thought I would at this point in my life, I have decided that my life adventure must begin. I am always talking about how OMG you should catch your life, catch it I tell you, catch it, ah who the hell am I kidding I need to do the same exact thing myself. Somewhere between New freakin Jersey and California is my happy spot I WILL, I WILL, I WILL FIND IT!!! I’m not ooooold I am a bit ooooooddd but old I am not!! I have a very free soul and artistic mind and I am sure that is very very obnoxious to most everyone at sometime or another! Hey I am normal, you are normal, we can be abnormal together. That is the amazing thing when you can find that it isn’t so wrong to be you! This is me if you don’t care for who I am look the other way and forget you ever met me. I have learned although it is hard to do, so very hard, you have to turn your back at times. I have to be honest I have made a million mistakes, I have hurt people, I have sat back and been hurt, and I am no longer able to regret it. I only have one chance at this life I better have fun or I’ll kick myself later in my knowingly going to be short life. I am sick, I am mean, I am nasty, I have been accused of being a bitch, a whore, a liar, YEP I am I don’t mind being called all those things at some point in my life because along with all those things I am the best friend you could ever have, I am loyal, I am comfort food for your soul, I am a crazy but beautiful disaster!
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I am here for friends, pretty much friends only at this point in my life. Of course there are people I would like to meet, talk to again, or see on here, but I have my friends from now and from then and my loves in my life. So at this point what I need is just more friends for my heart to open to. I need mental and emotional stimulation and not much else right this minute.


My Blog

fear

MY GREATEST FEAR Do you knowwhat my greatest Fear is?It isnt of&....livingor dying....nor fallingor flying....thunderor lightening....nor stormsi find frightening....solitudeor silence....crowdsnor c...
Posted by on Thu, 02 Apr 2009 20:39:00 GMT

she's home

SHES HOMEI know it hurtsYour heart achesBut remember, shes with youWith every step you take.....She looks down from the skyLooking down from aboveWanting you to rememberThe laughter,the love.....She...
Posted by on Mon, 30 Mar 2009 05:19:00 GMT

bored

Im sitting in a food court, with the son of William ShatnerIts crowded today. Lots of people close in.Trays in hand, searching, searching.....Looking for the sanctuary of the slightly soiled plasti...
Posted by on Sun, 29 Mar 2009 20:39:00 GMT

THOUGHTS

Sometime, Maybe, SoonOne day, things wont seem so raw.Ill smile, and things wont becracked and brittle.Easily broken.One day I wont have to be brave.Ill be allowed to cry.Show some skin, without ...
Posted by on Tue, 24 Mar 2009 21:15:00 GMT

what leads to smile for me baby ha ha ha

KISS ME AGAINI remember when we came to be,thru introdutions of some mutual friend.Way back when, perhaps we dated for a little while,I was stupid to let it end.Its been years since then,Youve been ...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Feb 2009 21:31:00 GMT

The oak tree

LOOKS THAT COULD KILLSo I sit here like I have every day since the day that the unmentionable happened. In this park. On this bench. Staring at these people as they pass by.Staring at these mothers, j...
Posted by on Tue, 03 Feb 2009 18:50:00 GMT

Being Tested

TESTED Im trying my best not to panic.Just when it seems as if Im about to get ahead.I fall two steps behind. I find that happens when I let fear fill my mind.If I ignore it, It does not subside.If ...
Posted by on Mon, 26 Jan 2009 19:58:00 GMT

forever stay

Forever StayI had a dream last night&It made me cry and awake with fright.It took part in a far off land.So beautiful&like the touch of your handWe were on an island, just you and IWith clear ocean wa...
Posted by on Fri, 23 Jan 2009 18:39:00 GMT

driven

Smile for Me, BabySmile for me, Baby. Thats what you always say. Starla looked at Stevens smug face. What reason did you give me to smile? Sorry its ending like this. Shall we reminisce about th...
Posted by on Sun, 11 Jan 2009 21:02:00 GMT

Bill Henson Aussie Photographer

So I am a part of another website that is all about art and photography and I am in a discussion concerning Photographer Bill Henson his studio was being shut down because of some "art" that was consi...
Posted by on Sat, 10 Jan 2009 19:12:00 GMT