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“YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH YOU REALLY BELIEVE ANYTHING UNTIL ITS TRUTH OR FALSE-HOOD BECOMES A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH TO YOU.”BEHOLD, I (JESUS CHRIST) MAKE ALL THINGS NEW-- REVELATION 21:5JESUS CHRIST IS THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE --JOHN 14:6.JESUS CHRIST IS THE REASON THAT I'M ALIVE TODAY.I AM FROM A HINDU/CATHOLIC BACKGROUND. DIDN’T FIND THE NEED TO KNOW GOD UNTIL MY WORLD TURNED UPSIDE DOWN WHEN I WAS 16 YEARS OLD AND I BECAME SUICIDAL AT THAT AGE. LOST THE ZEST TO BE ALIVE. EVERYDAY WOULD BE A BIG BURDEN. I WAS DRAGGING MY LIFE LITERALLY. SPENT MY TEENS in PARANOIA AND IN FEAR AND WAS CLAUSTROPHOBIC. KNEW THERE WAS A GOD, BUT DIDN’T KNOW HIM PERSONALLY. I’D THINK GOD WOULD BE BUSY WITH A WHOLE LOT OF OTHER IMPORTANT THINGS THAN BOTHER ABOUT WHAT I WAS BEEN GOING THROUGH. THE EMPTINESS IN ME WAS KILLING ME WHILE I WAS STILL ALIVE. AT THAT TIME, I NEVER KNEW WHAT WAS MISSING IN MY LIFE AND WHAT WOULD FILL THAT VOID WITHIN ME. AND PEOPLE REJECTED ME TO MAKE MATTER WORSE. I WOULD BE DEPRESSED 24/7. STARTED SMOKING AT 17 AT THE SOLE PURPOSE OF KILLING MYSELF AND THINKING THAT THE CIGARETTES WOULD FILL THE VOID WITHIN ME AND NUMB THE PAIN AND A WHOLE LOTTA OTHER ADDICTIONS CAME ALONG TOO. KEPT DRAGGING MY LIFE AND TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE MY MOM'S COLLEGUE WHO WAS A PROTESTANT BROUGHT A PASTOR WITH A BIBLE IN HIS HAND AND HE KEPT SAYING HALLELUJAH AND PRAISE THE LORD, I DIDNT LIKE IT AS I WAS A CATHOLIC, AND THIS MAN SAID THAT I HAD AN UNCLEAN SPIRIT AND HAD TO BE PRAYED FOR PERSONALLY IN A ROOM, AND YOU KNOW WHAT, HE ABUSED ME SEXUALLY SO MANY TIMES AND THAT WAS IT..I WAS PISSED UP SO MUCH WITH GOD I STARTED RUNNING AWAY FROM HIM AND I EVEN TOLD GOD THAT I DON'T WANT TO COME TO HEAVEN WHEN I DIE AND THAT I WANTED TO GO TO HELL AND THAT I ALWAYS WANTED HIM TO BE HAPPY! IT WAS A ONE IN A BILLION SHOT THAT GOD COULD HAVE SAVED ME, AND HE DID! THAT'S OUR GOD! GOD TOUCHED ME IN THE BRINK OF ME PLANNING TO END MY LIFE. HE IS SUCH AN AWESOME GOD. I REMEMBER BEFORE BEING BORN-AGAIN GOING TO THE MASS IN THE CATHOLIC CHURCH ONE SATURDAY. WENT RIGHT UP IN THE FRONT PEWS AND LOOKED AT THE LORD ON THE CROSS AND CRIED LIKE LIL A BABY AND ASKED HIM A QUESTION, "ARE YOU REALLY THERE?" PEOPLE WERE COMING UP FOR THE COMMUNION AND WERE LOOKING AT ME AND WONDERING WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME. BUT IT DIDN'T BOTHER ME. THE OTHER INSTANCE WAS WHEN I LEFT MY HOME TO STAY ON MY OWN LIFE BUT FOR SOME REASON IT DIDNT WORK OUT AND I HAD TO GO BACK TO MY PARENT'S HOME THAT SAME NIGHT AND SO I LOOKED UP UNTO THE HEAVENS ASKED THE QUESTION, "IS ANYBODY OUT THERE"? GOD REVEALED HIMSELF TO ME AND THEN ONE DAY AFTER BEING BORN-AGAIN AS I PASSED THE SAME PLACE WHERE I ASKED GOD THAT QUESTION, I COULD HEAR THE SPIRIT OF GOD CRYSTAL CLEAR ASKING ME THIS QUESTION, "VIC, YOU REMEMBER THAT DAY WHEN YOU LOOKED UP ON TO THE HEAVENS AND ASKED THE QUESTION "IS ANYBODY OUT THERE" AND I SAID YES LORD I REMEMBER AND THEN THE SPIRIT OF GOD SAID, "YOU KNOW WHAT VIC, WHEN YOU ASKED THAT QUESTION, I WAS STANDING RIGHT NEXT TO YOU!". "I WAS CARRYING YOU THROUGH IT ALL". I WAS LIKE, TEARS STARTED ROLLING DOWN. YOU KNOW SOMETHING, BEFORE BEING BORN-AGAIN, WHEN I WAS CATHOLIC, AND I WAS AROUND 21 AT THAT TIME, I WAS DYING, MY FAMILY WAS GOING THRU HELL, THERE WAS SICKNESS ALL AROUND, WE HAD NO MONEY TO PAY FOR THE HOSPITAL BILLS, AND I WAS LIVING IN FEAR AND I DEVELOPED A STAMMER BECAUSE OF MY LOW SELF-ESTEEM AND THE WAY MY RELATIVES AND SO CALLED FRIENDS TREATED ME AND LOOKED DOWN ON ME AND FOUND FAULTS ON ME. ON DECEMBER 27, 2001, I WENT TO MEET ONE OF MY FRIENDS, WHOSE NAME WAS RUBEN. RUBEN HIMSELF HAD A VERY TURBULENT CHILDHOOD HAVING LOST HIS FATHER AT 16 IN A FIRE ACCIDENT AT HIS HOME. SO HE REBELLED AND WAS KILLING HIMSELF AND THEN SUDDENLY HIS LIFE GOT TRANSFORMED AND IT WAS CHRIST I CAME TO KNOW LATER. SO I WENT AND KNOCKED THE DOOR AND TO MY HORROR I FOUND THAT THERE WAS A PRAYER MEETING GOING ON. SO MY FRIEND SAID THAT IT’LL BE OVER IN A FEW MINUTES AND SO I SAT DOWN CURSING MYSELF. HERE I WAS SITTING IN A CORNER DEPRESSED, SHATTERED, BROKEN DOWN, AND THE PEOPLE IN THE MEETING WERE SHARING THE WORD OF GOD AND PRAISING AND WORSHIPING GOD. NOBODY EVEN SPOKE TO ME AS I SAT IN THE CORNER OF THE PRAYER MEETING. AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENED. THE SPIRIT OF GOD TOUCHED ME GENTLY. I KNEW AT THAT VERY MOMENT THAT SOMEONE HAD TOUCHED ME CUZ EVERY DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL SPIRIT, AND HOPELESSNESS AND FEAR AND EVERYTHING LEFT ME IN A MOMENT AND I WAS FILLED WITH HOPE AND JOY AND PEACE OF GOD. I WAS SO OVERJOYED OVER THIS. I JUST COULDN’T UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS GOING ON. I WENT TO MY FRIEND'S CHURCH WHICH WAS A BORN-AGAIN CHRISTIAN CHURCH, WITHOUT EVEN ANYONE INVITING ME. ON SUBSEQUENT VISITS TO THE PRAYER CELL AT MY FRIEND’S PLACE, I HEARD THE GOSPEL THAT CHRIST HAD DIED FOR MY SINS AND THAT ON BELIEVING ON HIM I HAVE ETERNAL LIFE. SO I GOT BORN-AGAIN. ALL GLORY TO GOD. ITS SOUNDS CRAZY CUZ AT THAT TIME I NEVER KNEW THAT ACCEPTING CHRIST AS SAVIOR WOULD TAKE US HEAVEN, BUT HEAVEN DIDNT REALLY MATTER TO ME CUZ HE LOVED ME AND THAT WAS MORE THAN ENOUGH. JESUS LOVES U JUST AS YOU ARE (HE REALLY DOES). JESUS LOVES YOU SO MUCH THAT HE DIED FOR YOUR SINS AND IS NOW RISEN FROM THE DEAD. HALLELUJAH!CONFESSING YOUR SINS TO HIM AND ACCEPTING HIM AS PERSONAL LORD AND SAVIOR AND INVITING HIM IN TO YOUR HEART WOULD CLEANSE YOU OF ALL YOUR SINS AND WOULD GIVE YOU ETERNAL LIFE AND A HOPE TO LIVE FOR IN THIS PRESENT LIFE TOO. GOD BLESS U! THE THIEF (SATAN) COMETH NOT, BUT FOR TO STEAL, AND TO KILL, AND TO DESTROY: I (JESUS CHRIST) AM COME THAT THEY MIGHT HAVE LIFE, AND THAT THEY MIGHT HAVE IT MORE ABUNDANTLY. – JOHN 10:10 BEHOLD I (JESUS CHRIST) STAND AT THE DOOR, AND KNOCK: IF ANY MAN HEAR MY VOICE, AND OPEN THE DOOR, I WILL COME IN TO HIM, AND WILL SUP WITH HIM, AND HE WITH ME. --- REVELATION 3:20 JESUS LOVES U PRECIOUS ONE!THE TESTIMONY THAT I HAVE WRITTEN IS ONLY A DROP IN THE OCEAN OF WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH AND OF THE LOVE OF GOD FOR US. I GIVE JESUS CHRIST MY LORD AND SAVIOR ALL THE GLORY, HONOR, AND PRAISE, AND FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY TO SHARE MY TESTIMONY. GOD BLESS U ALL. Christian Myspace Layouts - Jesus MySpace Layouts Christian Myspace Layouts