As I recall with my stomach turning
I was hiding away from myself
away from you
Like nothing, though something was terribly wrong
And I admit that I was only waiting for the right time
Night time, the right moment for you to look away
Though you never did
I pretended for a while
So I could walk where I don't belong
And I remember every word you said
Come back in time
And I remember I would soon be dead
Now so pitiful
But I know as I hammered those nails into your beautiful hands
Your eyes still try to search for mine
but I look away
Now your eyes are the only thing that can save me
I'm still afraid of them piercing
You're breaking into my prison
Just pretended for a while
My soul is dying
This time I won't look away
.i do not exist only you exist.