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About Me

I am perpetualy going through stages, I thought for a while that a "stage" was something awkward you go through growing up until you're about 18 or something, but now am convinced that the awkwardness of being in the wolrd never goes away and that the illusive thing we all search for called identity, is simply the process of becoming that only ends with one's last breath.I believe in a Good God who gives purpose and meaning to those who seek Him and most of all I believe that it is through His Son that we can call him Father. This Father God will lovingly shape His children into beautiful and glorious souls if we will only relinquish our strivings to shape oursleves. I believe He does this through his Spirit. My prayer has become that I will relinquish my drive and the preoccupations that I have with shaping my self, my life, and those that I love, and will be given the grace to trust in the goodness of God to fill my heart with life, and passion for things that are beyond the getting from one day to the next.I am married to a man angelically patient with my various "stages" and divinely understanding of my awkwardness with the world. He is without a doubt the largest contributor to my believing there is a place for me here on earth, my favorite being his arms. He is my knight in shining armor, he rescues me all the time from my own head. He is my hero and the best man that I know (don't be fooled by the cowboy hat, he can't work in his shiny armor).

My Interests

Music, Music education and research, Law, Theology, Visual art and architecture, History, People, Travel, Health, British Literature, Cigars, Wine, Films

I'd like to meet:

Yeshua (Jesus' real name), Mary of Magdala (so we could clear a few things up for everyone), Paul the Apostle, Saint Augustine, Hildegard of Bingen, Joan of Arc, Martin Luther and his wife, Davinci, J.S. Bach, W.A. Mozart, Beethoven, Robert and Clara Schumman, Charles Dickens, C.S. Lewis, George Washington, Mother Teresa, Arvo Part, Jonathan Edwards, N.T. Wright, R.C. Sproul, and others

Music:

Favorite genres include sacred choral music (medieval to the present), art music for strings (such as a string quartet), Some solo keyboard music, some solo vocal music, traditional jazz and blues, bluegrass, the beatles, U2, electronic music/post rock, I am not really a rocker, but I am still working on my appreciation

Movies:

All Wes Anderson films, almost all Alfred Hitchcock films, Boondock Saints, Les Miserables, Midsummer Nights Dream, Much Ado About Nothing, The Merchant of Venice, Snatch, Sideways, Luther, Mr. Smith Goes to Washington, To End All Wars. Cold Comfort Farm, Emma, Pride and Predjudice, Sense and Sensability, Tale of Two Cities, and others

Television:

Those that have caused short addiction problems include, The Office, CSI, Arrested Development, 24, Lost, and Alias (overall I hate TV and wait until these are out on DVD by the season)

Books:

Narnia Series, Tale of Two Cities, Our Mutial Friend, Great Expectations, Oliver Twist, Pride and Predjudice, Emma, The last Disciple, Mere Christianity, Blue LIke Jazz, The Proper Care and Feeding of Husbands, Isaiah, Romans, Hebrews and others

Heroes:

Yeshua (Jesus), and my husband

My Blog

HOPE

Hope is a glimmer of light in the darkest placeHope is the memory of faith in a moment of despairHope is affirmation in the midst of tribulationHope is an act of love when one feels unlovableHope is a...
Posted by Vanessa on Fri, 28 Sep 2007 03:43:00 PST

HAVE YOU "ARRIVED"?

To "arrive" here it seems You must be big, and bad, and meanLaugh at the weakTear down the smallNow you're in the clubBlack leather and allOr suit and tie if you pleasePlay at being civilizedSay sweet...
Posted by Vanessa on Fri, 28 Sep 2007 03:27:00 PST

live

affirm, nurture, serve, and loveand all will be just and good?no,no,no!power corrupts, eats and rotschokes and oppressesthe gentle one that wouldthe only hope is life a life that cannot dieotherwise a...
Posted by Vanessa on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 09:25:00 PST

Great and Small

Ivy climbs mountains for the experienceThey get higher and higher with timeDespite the fame Ivy lives in the valley And must come down to the groundAble solved the problem of stone hengeAnd gave the w...
Posted by Vanessa on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 05:25:00 PST

Infestation

What is this dark deceitful rebelliousnessIt creeps up and seeps upThrough the broken and crackedCrevices in my soulAs sweet as perfume The stuff beckons me nearThe thickness and stickinessPromises to...
Posted by Vanessa on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 04:09:00 PST

Knowledge

Five there are only five, and no moreTaste it, touch it, see it and hear itBreath it in and smell itIs this all there is,Is beauty a thing,Of empirical and purely physical natureLet us dissect it and ...
Posted by Vanessa on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 09:06:00 PST

Just Being

I want to feel the sunI want to feel love warmingFeelings of belongingFeelings of just beingRadiating throughMy sore soulI want to be where the sun is shiningI want to be where the light can find meI ...
Posted by Vanessa on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 08:59:00 PST

Muddy

Lord my faith is so weakLord my faith is so lostWondering so cold through paths unknownLord I feel emptyLord I feel so tiredInsides are muddy and miredFind me nowAnd bring me homeWash meWarm me And ne...
Posted by Vanessa on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 08:58:00 PST

2004

My LORD You have brought me hereAs I ponder the past I know You were thereAll my toil would have been vain If You had not grown me through my painMy is soul small and waxing thinLORD expand my being f...
Posted by Vanessa on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 08:51:00 PST

Balance

I am finally in the middle wayTeetering to keep my balanceWealthy not in victoryBut content with my allowance
Posted by Vanessa on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 08:49:00 PST