Deb

""All my life I been like a doubled up fist... poundin' , smashin' , drivin' ~ now , I'm going to loosen these doubled up hands and touch things easy with them.""~~Tennessee Williams ..
Your Brain's Pattern
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination. What Pattern Is Your Brain?"SELL YOUR CLEVERNESS AND BUY BEWILDERNESS." ~RumiWe LOVE to take photos!!! ALOT!!I read that photographs are bad feng shui~ the theroy being that it intensify's attachment ~ and you know...I totally agree and see the truth in the concept of that...But, ( yeah~yeah...I know , everything after "but" is bullshit ) I am so grateful for the WARMNESS and the feelings of LOVE , sometimes bitter sweet , that overfill me when I revisit all the memories we have captured over the years....My sobriety date is 2/15/98I was given the awesome gift of a purposeful life , along with freedom from the bondage of self & victory over alcohol(no small thing) by a 12 Step fellowship and it's members...that continue to pick me up...dust me off & sometimes carry me...as they support me in fitting my self into a design for living that enables me to be of maximum service to God & those around me. Thank God for the 12 Steps~Thank God for Sponsors & Sponsees.And Thankyou God that those who came here & got the gift of sobriety and a life worth living~ stayed and keep coming back for the next suffering alcoholic that comes thru the door~ whether they have 1 day or 20 years. "We also clutch at another wonderful excuse for avoiding an inventory.Our present anxieties and troubles, we cry, are caused by the behavior of other people~people who REALLY need a moral inventory. We firmly believe that if only they'd treat us better, we'd be all right. Therefore we think our indignation is justified and reasonable~ that our resentments are the "right kind". WE aren't the guilty ones. THEY are!" 12x12 pg.46Both his pride and his fear beat him back every time he tries to look within himself.Pride says, "You need not pass this way," and Fear says, "You dare not look!" But the testimony of A.A.'s who have tried a moral inventory is that pride and fear of this sort turn out to be bogeymen, nothing else. Once we have a complete willingness to take inventory, and exert ourselves to do the job thoroughly, a wonderful light falls upon this foggy scene. As we persist, a brand-new confidence is born, and the sense of relief at finally facing ourselves is indescribable. These are the first fruits of Step Four. 12x12 pgs.49-50Astrology...the Tarot...crystals & gemsthese are some of my favorite things.I love going to concerts...love to dance.Some of the best times in life for me now are those spent with loved ones...sharing life's experiences ; the joys & sorrows...the ups & downs... the tears & OMG the LAUGHTER, there has been so much laughter these past almost 9 years I've been sober...over a cup of coffee .. a meal or a roaring bonfire with friends.These moments are exsquisitly precious & profound & so very cherished.